My Girly sissy Tweenie is now owned, this was her experience as we spent a week together at Download Festival and shopping in Manchester. She paid for it all and was a perfect little submissive, tended to my feet, wrapped me in a towel after showering and keep me supplied in gin. The Irish Gin was a beautiful touch from my irish girly!
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Goddess Kikkaj, Download and a man with a damn big needle

After a pleasant plane and train ride I arrived in Sheffield. I jumped on the train that would take me to castle donnington. I had of course been chatting to Goddess all through the journey. I was eagerand anxious to meet up with my Goddess again. The train was going to st pancreas and I was onlygoing to be on it for an hour or so. As the train arrived into a station, Goddess texted to say that Her train was nearly arriving. I laughed as I knew that my train would probably arrive before Goddess's train. So I would be there before Her and be ready to greet Her off the train.Coming into the next station the train slowed to a stop. After a few minutes, I texted Goddess to say that my train had stopped. goddess texted back to say that Her train was delayed too.I then thought, I wonder what train Goddess is getting. Low and behold Goddess was getting the same train as me. I was so excited, I told Goddess the carriage I was sitting in and moments later my Goddess was sitting beside me.

O/our first night together was watching trash tv and having mud face packs lol. I loved this and of course Goddess had some gin which I brought for specially for Her. Which I am glad to say She enjoyed very much.

The following three days W/we spent at Download listening and watching all the amazing bands, drinking hobgoblin and wading through (not very nice) mud. All the while Goddess was amazing company and a brilliant companion over the three days. I will always remember those three wonderful days of Download.
Of course each night I enjoyed my duties of massaging Goddess's beautiful feet with soothing lotion. I adored the softness and exquisite beauty that Goddess allowed me to care for Her.
On Monday, W/we left Download and arrived in Manchester, due to traffic problems W/we arrived late in the day and after the excesses of the previous few days managed a exquisite Indian meal and some drinks.

Throughout my time with Goddess, She had an uncanny ability to pick really good restaurants and bars. They are not expensive restaurants but ones where the food is almost as gorgeous as Goddess. It is I think her super power lol.

On Tuesday W/we travelled to Stockport to take in a mystery tour which I had planned as a surprise for Goddess until someone gave the game away. I must admit to being mischievous all weekend, as I was dropping hints to Goddess. Unfortunately when W/we arrived there were problems which meant W/we couldn't take the tour. Goddess's disappointment was plain to see.However O/our Goddess is very resourceful and turned the day into a shopping trip for lingerie for me instead and I ended up with a wonderful silky night dress and luminous pink panties. It was perfect shopping with my Goddess. I enjoyed that time so much, a wonderful shopping experience.

Back in Manchester Goddess again used Her super power to find a restaurant doing delicious gin Cocktails and scrummy food.

Wednesday was a very important day for me. Today Goddess took ownership of this sissy. Goddess laid on a wonderful ceremony for me which left me in sissy subspace. The ceremony was to culminate in me receiving my first piercing as a sign of Her ownership. I was to have a reverse pa.After a substantial late breakfast, Goddess's super powers again. W/we set off for the piercing studio where after a wait, W/we were ushered into a cubicle. Goddess had already allowed me to pick a pink ring. In the cubicle things moved fast, I was quickly lying on the bench my sissy tattoo fully exposed for all to see.
Next the guy showed me where the needle would go. Within seconds I felt the needle slide through and out the other side. As this was happening Goddess was gently stroking my forehead reassuringly. Instantly the ring was in and my jeans were on again. Although a little uncomfortable myself and Goddess spent a wonderful afternoon together a little shopping and then W/we decided to return and find out if W/we could do the brewery tour. Where W/we enjoyed some excellent beers and banter.
In the evening, W/we tried out some cocktail bars in Manchester W/we had heard about on the tour. Both were amazing and one in particular has to be tried to be believed if you are ever in Manchester lol.

That night back in O/our room W/we enjoyed a girly evening with face packs and a little gin. Today was my girlhood, the piercing made me bleed and had to wear a panty liner in my panties, Goddess chose thick ones. She joked saying woman bleed for 5 days and dont die, welcome to womanhood.

All too soon it was Thursday, O/our last day together. W/we had a late breakfast and mooched a bit, before one last pint of the exquisite hobgoblin and then it was time to head to the train station.
W/we waited for Goddess 's train and I felt low as I had such a wonderful week with Goddess and found it hard to make conversation as I knew in a few minutes Goddess would be gone. As always it was that moment, I hugged Goddess and said good bye. I knew then that I had to concentrate on other things. Goddess left to catch Her train, I just focused on where I had to go for mine as I was already sorely missing my Goddess and Owner. looking forward to O/our next excursion.

I had this wonderful email from one of my pets who I call My Bitch, and it made me smile, so much so I thought I would share it. I had this after a busy week catching up on custom clips and panties so really did boost my mood.

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This is my letter of adoration, adulation and admiration.

Since I first met you I have been blown away by you - not just by your physical attributes, though they are in themselves incredible - your beauty, your sensuality, your sexuality, and your phenomenal feminine body are all enough to drive any man to distraction and bring him to his knees.

What has overwhelmed and overtaken me though has been your incredible power - your presence and poise. The way that you can walk into a room and it's like the room takes a small gasp, there is a lull for men like me and our attention is immediately drawn, as if by a magnet, towards the superior Goddess that has entered, and our knees go weak as we instinctively recognise a ruler over our kind.

Add to that your incredible, smart, agile, beautiful mind, that can out think, out manoeuvre any male in your sights and you are everything I had ever dreamed of in terms of a superior, no a supreme female!

You are a woman that weilds total and ultimate power over the men she has broken and enslaved and seeing what you have done to my fellow slaves under your rule - the piercings, the tattoos, has left me totally breathless. Knowing that I am just one of many men that live beneath your total rule - be they chaste, pierced, or even having to beg you to be allowed a drink blows my mind.

I am not worthy to be your slave - I know that as well as you do, but I am incredibly, grovellingly, grateful that you allow me to serve you as one of your toys, your possessions, your slaves, your bitch.

You are the Goddess that haunts my dreams, controls my mind, and owns my chastity

You have taken a man and broken him in every way, I am now just your bitch Goddess

humbly and utterly under your control

bitch

Manchester Goddess Kikkaj and a tattooed Lady

At lunchtime Monday past, I again met Goddess Kikkaj at Manchester train station. Goddess appeared before me as if She had teleported in. I felt the air sucked out of my lungs as I was struck by Her ethereal beauty once again. I was quickly whisked off to O/our hotel by Goddess.

After entering O/our room, I immediately dropped to my knees and asked permission to kiss her shoes. Permission was granted and I gently kissed each of my gorgeous Goddess's shoes. A wave of total submission engulfed me. Goddess never looked to heavenly and powerful. I was then placed in my sexy pink chastity device. Knowing Goddess will have my key until She decides other wise. 

 As W/we had an appointment W/we left and thirty minutes later W/we arrived. W/we enter the tattooists and were met by two wonderful Ladies who quickly drew up a stencil from Goddess's idea. Next I knew my pink panties were down and the tattoo was started. Goddess gave me support as my pubis was skilfully changed forever.

With my tattoo complete, I was floating as W/we made our way back to the hotel. After entering our room I prepared a cocktail for Goddess. Before Goddess touched the cocktail Goddess told me to prepare for my punishment. Unfortunately I had accumulated some transgressions which Goddess had decided could only be resolved by a heavy hit or two of Her amazing black synthetic cane.

I was told to bend over and Goddess applied her punishment to my bottom. I loved Goddess's cane's touch whilst being sharp and hot, I knew I deserved it and that Goddess enjoyed applying it. After nine strokes, I knelt kissed Goddess's feet and kissed Her cane. My bottom throbbing and sore, however my adoration of Goddess could not be greater. I was totally and utterly entranced by Goddess.

W/we then went and had some wonderful hobgoblin (an ale Goddess introduced me to), chat and food. A wonderful evening listening to Goddess about all Her interests. On arriving back in the hotel I assisted Goddess with preparing for bed. I applied lotion to Her beautiful legs and feet kissing each toe and foot after I had finished. Goddess's feet were so soft and elegant I treated them as if they were delicate porcelain. I was overwhelmed with pure joy that Goddess allowed me to pamper Her.

On Tuesday W/we went shopping and Goddess decided to have me purchase some new lingerie for Her which I readily agreed too. Goddess purchased some very beautiful and alluring lingerie which I happily paid for, I had to wait in the store and discuss with the shop about designs. On returning to the hotel Goddess made me strip Goddess then made me lie down and flogged me,spanked me and caned me, I forget which order as my head was spinning and I was floating. Goddess then told me to turn over, I had to put on a blindfold so I lay there while Goddess attached clamps to my nipples and balls.

A pair of Goddess's heavily scented panties was placed over my nose. I inhaled in the scent of heavy musk, which I think drove me to the edge of delirium. I had seen her in these, only now do I realise that she was teasing and showing me what I was getting. Goddess then used her pin wheel on me, all over my body. By now I was in ecstasy. I had been in chastity for six weeks, so Goddess decided it was time. A wand was applied to my clit and balls.

By now I was lost in a world of pleasure and I remember all I could say was thank You Goddess. At this point Goddess had enough and put Her glorious panties in my mouth. They tasted of heaven and Goddess then brought me to the conclusion. I was spent, I felt so dreamy and as if all that had gone before was unreal. I am hazy about the exact details as it was so wonderful and even now feels like a dream.

Afterwards myself and Goddess had a wonderful meal in a restaurant that Goddess chose. W/we then went to a local munch. Here Goddess and myself enjoyed an evening of laughs and fetish chat.This was my first munch and I thank everyone involved for support.  At the hotel I again helped Goddess prepare for bed. Only this time Goddess requested a massage. I began with Goddess' shoulders and being as gentle as I could be, rubbed and massaged Goddess neck, shoulders, back, legs and feet. I was honoured and so proud to perform this service for Goddess. Her skin so soft and delicate, I was in heaven.

On Wednesday after breakfast W/we went shopping, Goddess purchased a new Pandora bracelet upon which She also bought a lock and key charm to signify my pledge of chastity to Her. My chastity key has also been attached. W/we continued shopping and Goddess picked up other treats which drained my wallet, however I loved every moment of pampering my Goddess. I can't wait until I can treat my Goddess like this again. She just walked around saying what she wanted and I handed over my card. W/we spent a wonderful day chatting laughing and just enjoying the day. I also carried Goddess's purchases and opened doors throughout O/our stay together as a good sissy submissive should.

In the evening W/we enjoyed a sumptuous Chinese meal and drinks. W/we then returned and again I was stripped and Goddess used Her dragon tongue on me. It was extremely sore but I wanted to endure it to prove to Goddess my devotion as Her sissy. Now I am now just putty for Her to mould and play with.

Afterwards I watched as Goddess put on Her strap on. My nerves were jangling now as I knew I was about to take my sissy pussy virginity. Kneeling Goddess made me put a covering on it with my mouth, She laughed as I did this. Once this was accomplished I knelt on the bed and Goddess gently probed me. Then I felt Her strap on and then it was inside me. I felt complete as Goddess gently took my virginity.

Goddess made me stand and then reached into Her bag and produced Her whippy stick I did not know what was in store. Suddenly I heard a whoosh and my clit screamed in pain. Quickly Goddess applied another two strokes. My clit was on fire and bruised. Two welts shone brightly on it I could have cried, as I never felt so devoted to Goddess. I kneeled and kissed Her feet and also kissed Her whippy thing. I was so happy, my clit ached but I was a happy sissy. Goddess and I then hugged and I enjoyed Her wonderful embrace. Then I made her more of the Gin cocktail She enjoyed the first night and we talked about music. 

All too soon it was Thursday, as Goddess was leaving first. W/we went to the train station together. Where W/we discussed over coffee and hot chocolate future plans and meetings in a few months time. Of course Goddess's train was preparing to leave. Myself and Goddess hugged I was very sad, as O/our dreamlike time together was over. Tears welled in my eyes and then my Goddess left for Her train I turned and walked away. However I felt the urge to turn back and see Her one last time. Unfortunately Goddess had gone and only then did reality hit me like a bullet. Was it a dream?

Some of you may have known, I went to a strap on event, first one I had actually visited. I love my strap on and love the power of it sliding up the guys arse or inside a lush begging cunt.

I took my time getting ready in the day time, showering and rubbing cream over my body and making sure my companion for the evening- a switch who adores strap on and me, which is why he paid for the event, travel and much more- had completed the bag full of items to use and abuse on subs. He was very thoughtful and packed some Gin for the event for me also knowing its one of my favourite drinks.

I checked over the bag, 4 different strap on toys and harnesses including a thigh strap. He packed his own warm up arse toys and plenty of others for vibe fun and interesting shapes to tease his little hole or any other subs that may have wanted to play. I packed my floggers and crops.

We got to the event, after being lost and he wouldnt call the club, I called them which put me in a foul mood, he was trying to test my patience, although I know it was his nerves. He dressed me in my catsuit and did up my corset and then we went on the tour of the event. Not much happened on this tour but it was a lovely venue.
I settled to have a drink and chat to a few people I know from the scene, soon enough people were being taken into rooms/public play for the strap on fun and other public humiliation happened.

I took 2 guys and my companion into a room and spanked one before throwing him in a cage to watch and enjoy the show, my companion went and got the kit so could warm up his arse and the other just plainly watched.
My body was worshipped and desires, I had kisses all over it as well a gushing verbal adoration. Which got me in a very happy mood for teasing puckered holes for bigger toys.

I greased him up and slipped it in as he was bent over a bench and he slowly rode my cock, I added more vigar and soon we had more of an audience until had to stop....shame....roll on next event

Since I asked for a fetish CV in my application process I guess its best to explain how and why I desire them to be made.

I like them as they are for all subs, they can be used for maids applying for service or for finsubs who are online, it also doesnt matter the experience of the sub applying as its set out in a way which is still full of information for me. I ask subs to do this as it can show they follow instructions, make a CV up for me or adjust the one they have to suit needs. It shows dedication to being trained or working on self under a Superior. This is just one way of how they are set out but you get the idea, do it and click send!

The top of the CV should be information on where to contact sub, so emails and names on sites like fetlife and twitter. Some people have put pics of themselves at the top also. Here is good for the blackmail parts as in all work information can be added as well as contact numbers. Some have send their ID pics here also as forms for blackmail or proof of who they are.

The next section is about selling yourself as a sub. What your good at as well as what you like as well as general information as in bisexual etc. Some have done this as bullet points. If the sub has no experience then this can be what you think the top fetishes you have are. Some have put the self tied stuff here with example pics. Generally best to steer clear of nether region shots.

The next section what you need to work on or want to work on-this is what you desire. so people with no experience can really fill this section out with fantasies and ideas of what a good submissive is and does. This is generally a good paragraph of writing. This shows what we may have in common as in likes of worship and desires.

Next one is a very important one, the boundaries and limits. Here write what is an absolute no go ie scat, blood, actual harm as well as some things your uncertain of like water sports and face pics. This helps create the safety net of trust and again to make sure things are not pushed to far too quickly or ruined before even started. Generally these are bullet points.

The next one is important for me, minimum as in what you feel is comfortable to offer per week and a maximum amount per month. This shows if you are worthy of time and efforts of training as well as if there is some moveability in the whole process of teasing out cash over time. Here some have specified the payment method ie can only be amazon giftcards or uk bank transfer etc.

Last bit is optional as it can be last owners/trainers or pics of self doing things or references such as clip sites they are on.

I dont offer collaring and owning easily. But this is something that people ask me a lot, how do I work my collaring system.  Its in depth for many reasons and through this you can see why. On my last blog you saw about how much time I put in, here you can see if from both angles. 

My personal toys have to submit a Fetish CV, this explains their experience in some details or has pics of things done. It explains what they generally desire to happen as well as the best qualities they believe they have or what they want to work on. They also should write limits and boundaries so I know what to push etc. On this CV they also write offerings per week/month for my time. I like this approach as it shows they are dedicated into doing what I desire, showing they have done this to my specifications also shows they listen to instruction which is very important to any BDSM dynamic. Communication is the key to this so if there are issues they should feel they can ask me about them.  

Next after CV is accepted is an interview which is usually done face to face in a cafe or pub about a week after CV handed in so its still fresh but long enough to think about what has happened and what they have learnt about me. We agree a time and this is generally lunch time, the sub wanting to be under me pays for drinks and lunch at a minimum, most show up with a gift of something they may have seen I liked on twitter or requested. The more they show they have learnt and listened the better the relationship generally is. In this interview time there will be questions to be answered and general chatter to see how they are around me and around me in public. I have tried the interview on skype but doesnt have the same feel and also that sub didnt even turn up for the next stage. 

If pass the interview, induction to my home and play space, which means they are under consideration, happens next. This is generally a domestic style set up to start with with some play IF they have done well. To prep for this they are told what needed to bring (if anything), how long they will serve for that day-which is a minimum of 2 hours, as well as a thank you gift for allowing them this privilege. 

When they are under consideration they will have tasks to be done, these range from lines to pic tasks and if more findom based this can be games to extract the cash. One of my toys in training has pink toe nails at the moment, another is showing daily pics of chastity with times and dates, another wears panties or stockings etc. All offer daily reports on how they have made me proud to train them and what they have done. In the report it explains thoughts, feelings and general chatter also. So we are communicating, learning and enjoying the experience. 

They get a training collar after under consideration has changed to in training. This is done after I have got a feel for them and their dedication to serving me. This can be months down the line. I offer a training contract of 6 months now and we go through this together with lists of limits, punishments/penalties and it explains what needs to be done weekly. Once contracted there is a buyout at the end or leaving early fee. This contract can be changed at the half way review and also can be extended. 

After training and when ready they can move to next step of actual collar and own but I have only offered this to a VERY select few. Its not just amount of money spent, its the time offered, their thoughtfulness and their dedication to my life and their service.  This is either a SLAVE or SUB long term contract which is offered over years not months, this again has reviews and revisions but they are mine now until either released or something drastically happens to change the dynamic. 

I do keep working on my profile, working on the image I project and exploring new ways to control and have fun with my subjects. I enjoy learning and playing with new toys as well as establishing rules and pushing boundaries of older ones.

Lately I have been working on sissy training and schooling which is wonderful fun and has helped many sissies turn up and be domestic or learn to suck cock at mine. I have a new toy trialling at mine tomorrow now which should be fun. They all start with an introduction and basic cleaning. More to follow when its done.

I would like to thank the lovely Fraulein

/ mistress Cleo for helping me along the way inMysissyschool

 and moneypigs

  sites she has kindly taken me under her wing and showing me there is so much more out there for me in ways I had semi thought about but dared not express just yet. I look forward to exploring more, doing more and having more fun in this.

I have been talking with another Dominant and we are looking at doing a tour in Edinburgh (or close by) for a week about September time which means you can meet me, be used by my strap on and of course have double Dom sessions, the place we are looking at is self catering, so means we also will desire a daily maid to make beds and a cook for at least 1 meal a day. It can mean we offer a stop over for those who are interested in being furniture, night staff etc.

He is a Bull for cuckolding so this is a new dynamic I will be exploring. I like the idea of him doing the wife and me making the male watch and teasing him.

These are just the basics we have chatted about so far and we seem to like the idea of, so any ideas from readers message me and of course we can explore more ideas on what this trip will entail, I need to register your interests before going fully forward with this as its quite a way from my homestead. I already have 2 people interested but would desire at least 3 more, prices are not really set yet so this is something we can discuss over mail and over time. But this is exciting and thrilling, I want a full experience of the lovely northern toys.

Real time meet-sub in training 
The guy who I met a week ago came back on Saturday for some training and control.
He walked to my house, I invited him in and showed him round the layers of my home. My one cat scampered away and the other looked over with a look of 'what you doing here'. They have seen many males come and go and have a similar opinion to me, they offer one thing and say another then in real life its a pointless meet. I wondered will he last under me and will he endure the way of today's lessons.

He stripped off to boxers in front of me and went to work vacumming the stairs and halls, I left him to it as this is something that every sub should learn, the domestic bliss of serving their Goddess while she catches up on emails and talks to and drains others. Its a simple lesson of being trusted to be alone and work, being nothing more then the help I require.

He got me a coffee, which I requested. I taught him how to offer it me, on his knees hands holding the drink underneath which creates the warmth and subtle pain to know the place he belongs. once he knew what to do he held his hands out 'here is the coffee you requested, goddess'. I take it from him and smile, then tell him to sit quietly.

Throughout the day he helps me with things I need to do, pics, clips and writing.He did this with respect and understood almost intuitively how to act when I walk away and leave him, eyes down and hands at side.

I treated him to an intro play session with me, he was my puppy and barked in the cage, I rubbed my heels over him and left nice marks on his legs from the stiletto heel-clips on clip sites soon. He put money in his mouth and brought it over to me like a good lil puppy. I crushed his hand slightly when he put the money on the ground with my sexy heels. I had loads of fun and like a good boy it wasnt about him, all about serving and making me smile and giggle.

He also learnt NOT to call me Mistress, I am a Goddess. He had 10 hits with the cane which he is not into at all, so an apt punishment I think.

When he left, he left happy and said see you in 3 weeks Goddess.

Teamview session 

Boy wanted to know when I was online, I told him. He sent the start up money of £5 to swap details, the fun then began.

He was new to teamview so showed him the basics, black screen and locking him out, showed him how I can change his internet settings and lock him out. He became very excited...I controlled his mouse and we went shopping via amazon for some underwear for me.

He asked if he can show me his bank details which I gladly did.

I then showed him I can use his cam and saw what he looked like....he was playing with his lil willy...I controlled him played with it until he begged for release, I said only with one more shopping item which he quickly agreed to in desperate breath. I allowed him to cum just as I clicked 'buy now'.

I filmed the whole session and sent it him afterwards via the file transfer link for his further enjoyment.

when the items turned up he even got a pic of me in them, safe to say he was hooked!

Many of you know I was meeting with a boy who is interested in becoming my personal submissive. This means he is wanting to be my toy, filming thing, domestic, gifter, handyman and so much more!

I dressed in a lovely black rolled neck jumper, grey trousers and heels, partner was less formal in jeans and hoodie, just cause he couldnt be arsed changing into a suit which he kind of wanted to but got stuck on the playstation hahahhaha

I arrived bang on time, but he was a bit late as he got lost from the train station although we met in a place which you can easily get to. It was a busy saturday afternoon pub meeting. Anyway he came over to me and shook my hand and my partners hand, I didnt say my real man was going to be there so this threw him only slightly but he offered both of us a drink before sitting down, then trotted off to the bar.

He was very polite, although nervous, he couldnt stop shaking- I loved that effect, he could tell my smile.

He filled out a sheet of paper with tasks and desires from his mind and he read them out to me. Was so refreshing hearing him call me Goddess in public and not be phased, so many boys seem a bit unsure about that but what a name in public? The power of saying a name out loud in a public place, although crowded and I am pretty sure no one heard him.

We talked on limits, desires and ideals. His limits are the usual taboos. He has no partner or anything to hold him back, so, chastity longer term was discussed and marks from sessions and needles etc, he seemed very interested and added some of his own. He understood I wanted a domestic and offered gladly as well as any odd jobs he could do. He seems to be very eager to learn as his expirience is minimal beyond bedroom fetish, which he didnt seem to enjoy that much. He was very helpful when I dropped my pen and instantly wanted to be there and collect things for me. We conversed on many levels and then he even offered refills of drinks when we got to the last third of our drinks.

We have created a date for next week on saturday for him to start being initiated into training at my household. This should be fun, more information and updates to come.