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There is always the question of what I want. The truth is until it finds me, I cannot describe what it is. You might wonder how I will know what I want when it does find me, but I have a pretty good idea of what I like and dont. Manners, respect, chivalry and communication goes a long ways with me. My life has been not just been one story so far, but a series of them given past experiences of the good and the bad and the ugly. Wouldnt change a thing and I cannot do so anyways. Live and learn!
Tiny little rant...
Distance should never really stop what you want if you really want it anyways.
Im not your average gal and although you might look at my profile and think you know me, you really have no clue. I watch porn.
Recently I took the BDSM test so thats why I changed from exploring to babygirl. A special person opened my eyes to some things about myself. It is amazing to me how this role seems to suit me.
For those who missed it, this was the beginning of some changes.
With a quiet house and heart the other day, I had to do some deep soul searching. Somehow, without pinpointing when, my energy had gone everywhere except to me. Seems that I am continually looking for that next project, but not taking time to do the one in front of me. The conclusion was to not talk about it anymore, but just to do it.
As I middle aged woman, I never thought I would see myself where I am now. Life has sure filled me with incredible adventures. Not to say it has all been good but that is part of the adventure. You never know what you are going to get that day. A split of a second and your world is upside down. Somehow I have survived!
There was a time I felt ashamed for feeling the way I did inside because I really enjoyed things. Maybe too much ...As I matured, I began trying new things but was afraid to admit my kinkiness to anyone. Now as I have expanded my friends, I have discovered acceptance and new ideas which resulted in pure pleasure from things I would have never imagined. I get a rush doing something I know is pleasing to another and feel an excitement when Im told Im a good girl..
Oh my...... I didnt realize how much I really liked role-playing! Life is short and although my life is hectic daily as a Mom, I also need to allow myself to be the sexual woman that had been buried deep inside to remind myself who I was first. And I am going to love me first because I deserve it.
A little bit about me. Travelled a lot of the world, Harley Davidson motorcycles excite me, deathly scared of clowns. I live in the country and love the outdoors so on nice days you will probably find me topless doing yardwork.. I no longer worry about my sagging boobs from my 3 kids, because life is short and I am alive so that is a great reason to be happy in the moment. If I can change something then I will do it. But if not, then it is time to move on and keep your focus on the good.
Thanks for being here! Be safe and stay
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