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It's been three months since I started this and I haven't made the leap in to doing this. It hasn't been for lack of interest; on the contrary. I've read many interesting message! Instead, it's that combination of time, me not being completely flakey and actually making that elusive interwebz connection.
As to me being flakey - it's more me being scared or uncertain of actually making a commitment. First, I don't want to make a huge time commitment - for example, spending 2-3 hours on cam. I'm not opposed to cam once I get to know someone, but the idea of being watched for a couple of hours freaks me out. And, if I can find 2 - 3 hours just to spend on cam stretching out my cunt, well -- that in itself feels like the fantasy.
I'm also not really interested in having a D/s relationship where you tell me how to dress or what to eat or having you dominate my life in some way. I'm not quite sure I want to be humiliated or degraded, either. I do enjoy aspects of that but I'm not sure I see it fitting here.
What I do want is a partner in my crime. Some accountability in progress. Someone who gets off knowing I'm doing something dirty at his direction.
I might've said this before, but I'm not exactly sure how this plays out. Little assignments? Cunt goals? Stretch your ass Monday / Orgasm denial Wednesdays? I'm open to suggestions.
Frankly, I don't want to see you - I'm not super interested in knowing you as a person other than within this context. I realize guys are visual and expect you'll want to see me, or atleast the important girly parts, at some point.
Just rambling late at night. It could be another 3 months before I even dip a toe in to this. I appreciate patience and a willingness to play along.
My ultimate goal is enanced sexual awareness, feeling my cunt throb as I hang out at work. Knowing I'll be able to be an ass slut (with your help!). Working on making nipples longer, more sensitive.
Good goals.
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