Got rejected over the Poly thing again.  Look I am not poly in the way that is normally thought. Here's the deal.  Hubby wants me fucked constantly by a guy with a big cock.  He'd really like to watch but most guys can't give him the kind of "show" hes interested in.  I dont mind indulging his tastes, however, I am not fucking a bunch of dudes and exposing myself to STDs.  So the compromise is a "boyfriend".  He gets his peep time and I get some one cool to hang out with since he is away so much.   I know I am dreaming here, but there has to be someone out there who can fit the bill.  It has happened before, so I know it is possible.  Everything else is just a distraction until HE comes along.  

I have met many people from this site and others.  Still looking for that well adjusted road dog who will be my partner in crime.  Lot's of "textbook" M/s types.  Nothing like I live with Daddy.  Daddy and I have been down for 18 years now, before all of this was a scene.  I thought finding some others would make me comfortable, but there are no others like us here.  Lots of voluntary "slavery" and telephone domination...lol...

Hundreds of replies in my inbox mostly from people wanting a booty call s & m style.  Guess they did not "understand" the gist of my profile or bother to read it.  Since I would like to believe that some intelligent beings exist out there- I have been attributing it to the latter.  

I have attached no expectation to what I am looking for other than that "feeling" that flows through me like hot syrup in my veins when I meet the someone my psyche recognizes as "HIM"...  That strong reaction cannot be simulated, or cultivated, those feelings don't ever last...that is all cerebral and can come and go.   I am not letting my mind talk me into anything, I am never satisfied in the end that way.  I am going to hold out for the one that makes my temporal lobe light up like a Christmas tree.