****sorry for the confusion, my screen name is from before I met my wife. I I have not closed the account beecause I do not want to refund my friends and journal subions.****
10-07-16: I am now married and in a vanilla relationship. I love my wife and have no desire to leave her. I have tried to open her up to different aspects of this lifestyle but she has no interest. I try to put this behind me but I can not. My mind wonders and I find myself with no self control and afraid it will one day will take a toll,in some ways it has but I won't go into that here.
What I am looking for is a mutually beneficial relationship. I have no desire for sex, just pure simple power exchange. Someone to harness and control my urges and desires, not only to benefit themselves but also to make me a better person and husband. I am also open to pure friendship and maybe gain insight on ways to bring my partner into this lifestlye.
****Below is my original profile before I found my wife:
What I seek is real and serious. I know it will be hard pressed to find here, but I am willing to try.
Maybe I want my cake and to eat it too. I am an alpha male by day, and with that comes great stress and responsibility. I've found that I escape to the bdsm for balance, but just escaping does not seem to be enough. I hope to find a real, long term relationship based on this exchange. I do not want to jump person to person, I want to find one Domme to grow with, and in time, I would like to re approach my wife, maybe together and see if she would be more open to it. That aspect I think will be a ways down the road.
I know the greatest form of respect is trust, and I believe to live this lifestyle that is the most important thing. I believe that to truly give power and explore, even in aspects like humiliation you must respect each other more than anything else. I find the level of reward and emotion is much higher than just with a fly by night just do it to do it relationship.
I love to travel, see different cities and experience what they have to offer. Laughing and a good sense of humor are key. I want to enjoy life, and above all have fun. I know with that foundation everything else will work. Above all, this should be fun.
Thank you for taking time to read my profile and good luck on your search.
Almost forgot, I want to serve and grow together, but I am not a doormat, if there are alcohol or dependency problems I will not be interested. I have dealt with this in relationships before and will not travel that road again.
4/11/2017 1:55:47 PM
Costa Rica followed by New Mexico. It is a rough month.
3/23/2017 3:07:11 PM
Anyone else off tomorrow and interested in a meet or session? If so let me know how I could be of service, tribute and roughly what area. Great Friday for some fun!
3/16/2017 1:38:28 PM
I dream of the day when the conversation starts with an order and I know I am powerless to say no. I go where commanded, do as I am told and see the enjoyment on the one I serves face...if I am allowed to look up.
2/20/2017 2:12:27 PM
I am off this Wednesday. Anyone have an opening for a session?
12/16/2016 3:50:44 PM
Stuck in my office alone most of the night. Bored. Anyone else in a similar situation? Any ideas?
11/8/2016 4:08:52 AM
Vote today!
10/29/2016 4:31:06 PM
Denied for a girls night out, what to do now...
10/27/2016 3:17:57 PM
Off from November 1- November 6....any suggestions on how to pass time?
10/18/2016 4:16:10 PM
Yup, starter went in the car. Waiting on a tow now. Good times!
10/17/2016 5:14:33 AM
Good to have a Monday off after a long weekend. Countdown is on for next Sunday.... Who gets taken out?
10/7/2016 3:10:10 PM
Stuck ony office late tonight and can not get motivated. So much paperwork but my mind is on other things. Anyone having fun tonight?
5/9/2016 6:08:32 PM
Officially married!
4/11/2016 4:23:15 PM
Wedding is quickly approaching
2/18/2014 7:24:33 PM
Recovery is coming along, slowly but am up and about again. I hope by spring to start traveling again. I can not move out of state, but I am willing to travel to see if we are a match.
