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Hetero Female Submissive, 73,  Kankakee Il, Illinois
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 mydeepdesire269

 Submissive Female

 Kankakee Il 

 Illinois

 5' 4"

 218 lbs

 73

 Hetero

 Caucasian

 12/26/13

 07/18/20

Actively Seeking:

Dominant Male

 Lives For:

 Anal Play

 Meditation

 Intellectual Discourse

 Blue Grass

 Loves:

 Fishing

 Movies

 Travel

 Walking

 Breast Binding/Play

 Enemas

 Mental Bondage (Beginner)

 Outdoor Bondage

 Sensory Deprivation

 Vacuum Stimulation

 Vibrators

 Watersports / Toilet

 Newspapers (Expert)

 TV News (Expert)

 Gardening (Expert)

 1950s Household

 Lifestyle BDSM

 Likes:

 Antique Shows

 Coffee Shops

 Garage Sales

 Museums

 Volunteerism

 Bicycling

 Blindfolds

 Body Worship

 Bondage

 Canes and Crops (Beginner)

 Chastity (Beginner)

 Fisting (Beginner)

 Gags (Beginner)

 Hair Pulling

 Humiliation (Beginner)

 Masks (Wearing)

 Medical Play (Beginner)

 Obedience Training (Beginner)

 Orgasm Control (Beginner)

 Spanking

 Historical Shows

 Cooking

 Conservative Politics

 Economics

 History

 Liberal Politics

 Mathematics

 Nutrition

 Paranormal

 Philosophy

 Victorian Household

 Classical Music

 Country Music

 Oldies

 Catholicism

 Christianity

 Tolerates:

 Collars

 Diapers

 Exhibitionism (Beginner)

 Local BDSM Community

 Munches

 Wax play

 Reggae

 Curious About:

 Stockings

 Folk Music

 Seventies Music

 Wicca

 Dislikes:

 Bar Hopping

 Begging

 No Strings Housework

 Objectification

 Queening

 Role Playing

 Serving as a Maid/Butler

 Hates:

 Theatrical Scenes

 Whips

 Hard Limits:

 Tickling

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I know who I am and what I seek and although it may come across as my being less than submissive, I see no other way to explain who I am and what I have to offer a Dominant man seeking a Ms relationship

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I enjoy most types of kink but understand that good meaningful kink requires that the sub trusts the Dom and that trust takes time , time being weeks and months not hours and day.



My age may make me move a little slower and the muscles take long to stretch out, but with a little extra time I can do most of what I want to do for my Dom.



I am old enough to know when you are being less that forthright and I will encourage you to move on. There is nothing gained from lying and it tell me you are not capable of an adult relationship.



As a mature adult I accept that men and women are loosing some functions that enhance loving sexual expression. I love giving oral to a Dom who may be experiencing E.D. and find I have much more fun when his cockfits in my mouth and I can play with it in many way while in my mouth.



When meeting a Dom new to me, I ask you talk to me about who you are and what you are seeking.I am interested is what hobbies or activities you are into in the vanilla world. I enjoy a lot of volunteer work, gardening and reading, since I am retired, . I am especially interested in local, state, and world news and reading biographies.



I find the mindset of many Dominant to be refreshing in how they view the world. I find them very knowledgeable is many diverse topics, therefore,

I am NOT interested in a Dom who only want to talk about BDSM sexual activities, but I dounderstand that in the beginning we need to identify what sexual activity we jointly enjoy.



Now that I have talked about who I am seeking, I would like to tell you how I live my submission. I have always been a submissive, was born with that type of a personality. was always more interested in helping other that putting my desires first. In the era of women lib, what I naturally wanted to do was frown upon and was being encourage to be our own person and not be subservient to any man. So I denied my submission and lived a life out of my god given character and was very unhappy. Then just about a decade ago I found the BDSM community and realized how much of myself I had given up. I vowed never againto be any different than who I was meant to be.



Those who know me best describes me as loving, kind, loyal, nurturing, patient, accepting, honest, and look for the good in everyone and every interaction. I enjoy talking about the world around me and prefer to read book that add to my understanding of the world around me than romantic novels. I usually have some volunteer activity going on most of the time because I believe it is in giving to other that I find my greatest joy. I find many things to do so I tend to stay very active throughout each day. Life is GREAT



I am seeking a Dom and would hope that he lives close by or with in easy driving or flying distances. I would prefer a live-in situation but would be open to meeting often to enjoy each other but I am not interested in being a play partner. It is my believe I can only give good service when I know and interact with just one man. I am not desperate for a relationship because my life is good with or without a Ms relationship but certainly would value one.

Looking forward to meeting new friend.



PLEASE, no married, attached or under 55 yrs old

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11/5/2015 12:29:17 PM
I have most of the leave burned so it must be fall. One day is still warm and sunny and the next colder, cloudy with a sharp wind blowing. I have all the windows washed and covered in plastic.. Since it is now Nov, it is time to start my gratitude list/
These last 18 months has witnessed a lot of change. For many years my daughter and I would have been finishing up  all the apples into pans of Apple crisp or apples sauce. By now we would have been buying the supplies to start our Christmas baking: candy and cookies. And as we working in her big country kitchen we would chat and   think about things from our past kitchen adventures.
But 18 months ago there was a misunderstand and my daughter and I are now estranged Well first I am grateful that I have survived these last 18 months. Today the pain is a lot less. I am beginning to create my new life, one that focuses on me and what I would like, not on every one else's needs and desires. Many days has found  me unsure of what I  really do want. And that at times is very hard to identify. Surprisingly also is making me think more  about what I want in a Master /slave relationship. I am beginning to see that I am a mindless giver.  But in all relationship, to only be giving and not receiving leads to an empty well. So I am grateful to be learning that I can't love someone who gives nothing back and that it is OK to look for a more healthy loving relationship. Today I can accept those people who were in my life in the past but not today and know we each must walk our own journey. It is becoming much more clear to me in what I seek from a meaningful relationship with anybody and not be mindlessly following someone else's lead just because they will tell me what to do. Now, I can never  be anything else than the submissive I was born to be, but I am grateful I now have a clear understanding about what I desire in my life. And for those whom I have chatted with throughout the year and always with limited time, I now have much more time to chat with anyone. I am grateful for the opportunity to stand and turn in a different direction in my life with all the excitement and suspense and at my age still be always grateful 

5/29/2015 8:21:31 AM
To all my friends both new and old........ it is summertime and I am doing a lots of gardening. therefore you will not find me online much. My suggestion is to call me early morning or late afternoon if you want to chat. If you do not have my phone number, please ask and I will give it to you.

4/21/2015 7:21:11 AM
Back again, I have come to understand that at my age, I need to take time off to get "tune -ups" for my aging body.  My struggle is that although my body ages, my libido stay the same or increases. Oh well, I have learn to accept things as they are. Those of you who know me know I love gardening and it is now gardening time. A little to cold this week to be outside but I will be starting to" play in the dirt"(gardening) next week. Have some seed started and was able to plant the peas  a couple of weeks ago and now they are up and growing.
Also looking forward to reconnecting with my friends on CS and see what is going on in their lives.

3/30/2015 1:29:51 PM
Seems to be a number of Doms are reaching out to find a sub. I have been in BDSM long enough to see a pattern as to when there is more activity by the people on these site trying to find a mate. Kinda like a full moon effect. So as spring comes it seems we all want to find someone for the fun summer activities.   I am getting a number of contact so I am enjoying the "spring effect". Also making new friends and who know may me the Master of my dreams.

3/28/2015 7:19:30 AM
Just read the most negative, hate filled profile where the Dom seem to be telling the reader that there is nothing good about a submissive. They are only tolerated for his pleasure.
It always makes be feel sad for the Dom with those attitudes. I think he has never know how to relate to women, having never had a women in his life and think my being a bad ass, overbearing, and frighten, he will never find anyone on these sites. It seem they miss the point that when you find a true submissive, the more the Dom protect, loves and nurture her the greater she will give back to him without his needing to demand anything.
I will pray for the gentleman whose profile stated this conversation.

1/30/2015 4:16:04 AM
Did it again. At 68 yrs old one seems to experience  medical issues that seem to disrupt life for a time and then goes away either by themselves or with medical help. And when I experience these disruptions I tend to stop chatting with my friends. So if I have been chatting with you of late and then just dropped out, now you know what is happening. I think it will take a couple more weeks before the medical community to get the issues resolved. Everyone have a good day

1/30/2015 4:04:50 AM
Finally!!!! success, finally got the licorice right. My taste testers say it is some of the best they have ever had. :)

1/23/2015 6:22:59 PM
Yes the last batch of licorice did fail. Tried again today and then I may now have it correct. Will be sending the licorice to a couple of friends who love licorice to see what they think

1/16/2015 1:48:37 PM
It seem that since I have all the candy making equipment put away I should start another hobby  for this winter. Been looking at seed catalogs but it is just to soon to start the seed although  this weekend the weather is up in the high 40 degrees I may do some of the yard work I didn't get done last fall.  But still thinking I want to try at least one more batch of licorice. If it is my 5th failure I guess I will wait until next far and look for better recipe.

1/3/2015 12:23:20 PM
Thank goodness the holidays are over. Stayed within my budget for the gifts I wanted to buy. The grandkids where happy with what you received and since they are pre-teens, that was a feat its self. I ended up making 60 pound of caramels with only a few left over. I give the  caramels to 2 people that had never had them before and they really enjoyed them. One person asked if he could buy more as Christmas gifts and since I have never sold then before I was unsure what to charge. Just added one more element to making caramels, how to price them. Not real sure I want to sell them, but it was a good experience. Wasn't sure if the caramel were good enough that someone would want to buy them.
  So now I am thinking of what projects I will tackle during this winter season. Of course all the gardening catalog are now arriving. Think I will cut my garden in half this year but it is just so tempting to order all the seeds when one have nothing else to do. This is when I really need a Dom, someone who can give limits when I am planning on to much. For those who know me, I am always way over extended especially during the gardening season.
So I guess I will store the catalog and pull out quilt that my mother made for my son . Over the years some of the blocks disintegrated and needs to be replaced.  I will have to take most of the quilt apart to repair the blocks. So it should keep me very busy for the next 3 months.

12/24/2014 2:06:03 PM
In the end the relationship with Sir Walt did not work out and I am unattached again.

9/30/2014 7:45:21 AM
After 4 years of spending time together as friends and talking almost daily, I have become Sir Walts' submissive with plans on moving to TX where he resides. Long distance relationships are very hard to get started and then to maintain them. But the long distance is about to end and I am looking forward to my new life.

9/9/2014 5:17:22 AM
My 12 yrs old granddaughter was over to visit last night.  It is just a good time for both of us when she comes over.  I think she is an amazing young woman. Her mother died in June and yet she seem to accept her lost as something that happens and  one need to get on with life. She is a joyful person and I deeply appreciate that part of her and feel very blessed to have her as a granddaughter.

9/9/2014 5:13:26 AM
Well done it again,   met a Dom during a busy gardening time, and forgot that I owed him a reply. Loose many friends because I forget whom I owe replies when I am busy working outside.  Wonder if other older individuals have the same problem.

9/8/2014 9:33:00 AM
I am still not looking for a Dom. Over the years that I have been actively searching I have met a number of good Dom and some good men who were not really Dom but worth knowing. A few of them I still chat with on a regular basis but do not play with. Most of them live many miles away. A decade ago  I was willing to travel to meet Doms and some traveled to meet me. I guess after all the traveling, I realized just how hard it is to create a meaningful relationship across the miles and now know not to try it.  The other thing I think I have learned is the danger in wanting to get to know another person by being sexual first and then get to know the character of the person. But this approach is prevalent in BDSM circles. For me personally once I have a good sexual connection with the other person and after learn who he really is or he really get to know me, it is very hard to let go of  because of the sexual connection. And in BDSM the type and/or level of the connection makes it very hard to walk away when one's character indicates the two people are not compatible or have limit hope of staying together. I have always wondered why so many of the relationship I am aware of in BDSM seldom make it beyond 2 yrs. Put then I have never met a Doms that says lets get to know each other before we get sexually involved. I think meeting on line rather than in person at events makes it double hard to know the person somewhat before the sex starts. Now obviously I am talking about relationships and  not play partners. I can say that at this time I no longer want to connect to a Dom because of outstanding sex and then to have to walk away because we are not compatible in other things not related to sex. Maybe I will be alone for ever but it is better to be alone and content with my life than to be with someone and be miserable every day.

5/13/2014 7:45:27 AM

I have talked to so many Dom who are wanting a no limits slave. They continue to list all the things they want from the slave and that they are looking for a LTR. I think they have missed the point that a slave whose need are met first will doing anything her Dom asks of her. In the USA where kidnapping is illegal, the best way to find and keep a slave for a LTR is to meet her needs first and all else will be given freely. I am not talk about "things" as I am about what the slave need mentally and emotionally from her Dom. Without knoing what the true need of a natural slave, giving endless lists of sexual desire will not get a Dom what he is really seeking.  My opinion only


5/13/2014 7:38:18 AM

 I understand that I can only find the right Dom if I have the correct wording to define what I am looking for beyond their being dominant. So( if I should want to look again)I am looking for a 1950's style Head of House.


3/23/2014 11:15:37 AM

I must admit to being frustrated by those Doms' who contact me and ask to own me. Since I am not seeking a Dom, I know they did not read my profile. Maybe I should redirect them back to my profile.


1/24/2014 7:12:38 AM

The horse behind me is a Percheron  draft horse, one of a 6 horse  hitch team all looking very similar and very beautiful. The picture was taking at the Illinois State Fair that I was attending. I would love to own any draft horse but I am a city dweller.

 


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