Not bad, 5 weeks, I will shoot for 10 next time.  I will realize certain things don't exist, and they never did, it was only my imagination that never allowed me to see, or my fantasies.

Out.

It is as I figured, the men are liars who wouldn't know what the meaning of Dom was if it slapped them acrossed the goddamned face and the women are lying cheating sluts, that like the men, profess to be submissive.  My ass!  Truthful Dom's do not exist and neither do truthful sub's.

Off to rot in hell.

AMF to all of you!!!

I am off and on when I get a chance to connect too the internet, so if you message me, it might take me a bit to respond.

leahalyne

Addendum to previous journal entry; i wrote that statement but it needs an adjustment, yes all the Dom's know I will submit to their will, but i'd prefer they make me take what they have to give, i'd want to fight them every single step of the way.  For me, in my own head...it is that want me enough to do such things no matter that other Dom's are there.  Yeah, heaven it would be. 

July 9, 2012

 I am reading "Fifty Shades of Grey", by E L James, apparently a NY Times bestseller.  Out of 514 pages I am on page 240.

I really would like to sit with the author and ask her of background on the BDSM subject, of her research to write a book on a very controversial subject.

I find it very interesting that in someways she has nailed how Anastastia, within her head is asking very valid questions of herself; Can i bow to his will?  Is this really something i could do?  Do i really want to please him?  Do i want to surrender my freedom and free will to Mr. Grey????

And the mysterious Mr. Grey...I have yet to peg him and his image that is so well groomed for public consumption.

I would love to know if there are others here that have cracked open the pages to this book and their thoughts on it??

leahalyne

My definition of Heaven;  A room filled with Dominant Men....and me!  *sighs* And they all know that i will submit to their will.  Oh Hell YES!!!!