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innocentTainted1

What am I looking for? I really don't know. I am here to figure that out somewhat. For now, i am looking to learn and maybe fuel some fantasies to see where it takes my head.....if that makes sense. I have recently been exposed to BDSM via a friend and her older boyfriend.
Many have asked for details so here are some.... I have been sexually active with her for almost 4 years. She had met an older man about a year ago. She had stopped seeing me sexually after she started dating him. One day she asked me if i would join them for a threesome. I am a vaginal virgin and did not want to lose my "cherry" in that fashion. She then said I would not have to. The most I would have to do is suck him off. I should say, i had not met him at that point. I agreed. The day came and she wanted to cuff me and out a bow around my neck. She said I was his birthday present. I did not agree to being cuffed. When i got there and she undressed, i was shocked to see her piercings. She had rings in her nipples and clit. He turned out to be in his mid 40s, much older than i had thought. He enjoyed watching us and then he made her undress him. I could see the D/s aspect of their relationship as i watched them. She sucked him for a while and very enthusiastically. I was mesmerized. He was watching me with a slight grin. After he came, he spanked her and fingered her while she was over his knees. My entire body was flushed watching this as I saw her get obviously more wet. He asked me if i wanted to get behind her and eat her. I wanted to very badly. He said I could if i submitted to a spanking from him. I just couldn't so he finally suggested that I let her spank me. After some hesitation i agreed. She spanked me slowly and lightly at first but, as she saw it was exciting me, increased the intensity. I had one of the most powerful orgasms i have ever had from that first spanking with no other physical stimulation than the spanking and some slight rubbing of my clit on her leg. Since then, i have learned I don't like pain but it does make things more intense. I have also been obsessed with piercings and branding. I have none of either now. I joined this site to explore what this is all about safely. I seem to be drawn to extremes. I dont really care for empty profiles or much older men. I am not sure what my limit is but over 50 is certainly above that limit. i do realize i would learn more from older but it is difficult if i am not attracted to him. If your over 50 and fit, and look in your 40s......who knows. Then again, i am not really looking to meet anyone so age and attraction are not really relevant until i am ready.
11/20/2012 4:20:23 PM

no the pics are not me

10/29/2012 7:09:26 PM

I hate starting a conversation with expectations.

 

If you dont know what that means then you are probably not someone who would cacth my interest.

10/19/2012 5:02:57 AM

Some movies and stories i enjoy. I will update this as i find new ones.

 

http://xhamster.com/movies/113076/caged.html

http://xhamster.com/movies/1076170/tied_up_coming_in_a_cage.html

http://xhamster.com/movies/214626/chastity_belt.html

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/stories/story.?storyid=8853

 

10/15/2012 5:50:39 AM

I like to write alot and an thinking of putting some of my fantasies into a story. This is kind of a high level description of one of those fantasies. I am thinking of writing a story around it and publishing it on one of the many sites i read from a lot like bdsmlibrary, literotica and asstr.

 

The fantasy goes like this. It is based on some things I have learned and some things that have been described to me.

 

I agree to be trained by a man to learn what being a slave is all about.

 

He shaves off my hair. He tells me this is so that i lose my self image of being beautiful. He says a slave needs to learn her value is in her service not her self image.

 

He keeps me gagged and anally plugged with dildos molded to be like his own cock. He says i will become used to having those holes filles and will ache to have them filled when he removes them. During my training, the only time this will happen is when he is using those holes with the real thing.

 

That is it for now but i think i want to write a story about how a girl is "broken" into slavery. These seem like good starts.