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| my Master is HW Hudson. i only answer to Him. If You have any problems or concerns about me please contact Him. .......i am honored to be His and know this is the way i need to go. We usually are in Lighthouse if You would like to check out a great room with super people. Look forward to seeing All there! ............... Also like to meet like minded people, so feel free to please mail me if you like to be friends. jackie
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i am no longer with HW, it is over, no chance of us getting back together. We will remain friends though, Smiles
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Well i heard from Him , was so happy to see Him . i know what the right thing to do is to try and work things out, as we have been together for a while. i still Love Him and that has not changed , when i heard His voice today , i knew i had to do this . i cannot take back my heart that easy. and i do not want to. But i do need some answers , i cannot go on wondering. i have always been proud to wear His collar and want to feel whole again doing so . Smiles.
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i have been so confused this last week what to do ,i need to a make a decision with what to do. It is hard for me as i do not like to do so unless i know all the facts, but the person i need to talk to will not get in contact with me. i am not a person that can sit forever and wonder. i am patient . that only can be for so long. i keep getting negative vibes which i do not like . It changed so quick from being so extremely happy to one of sadness and hurt . Well guess maybe that someone can not deal with certain things, yet it only takes a minute to get in contact. |
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Funny how one minute one can be so happy then the next you feel like you just want to hide and never come out . The strangest thing is it is the only you least expect it to be . i am feeling the way i used too before i came to Collar, ALONE and LOST!.. Why do some people say things they do not mean, do they not realize that it is not right to play with peoples emotions , i mean some when they give, like me , do it with all they have. Even if it is only words and talk it can hurt . Well mine is now and i wonder will it ever be whole again? |
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Hello, i have been busy with a lot of issues that i have been putting off for a long time . And to add to it i had more that i did not expect . Well i am hoping that these will be worked out , it will take time but l feel it is worth it . Smiles . i will seek the friendship and support of the room i am in, lighthouse . i will write more later . Hugsssssss to all jackie |
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i have to start doing this journal more often . i have been so busy with one thing after another, not good, but life goes on . Master and myself are happy, that is one of the best things. i am so excited when i see Him on or talk to Him on phone . i have come to the relization that i have to deal with some things in my personal life i have putting off , this will be hard for me but it has to be done. |
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Master and i are getting to know each other, smiles . The more i do know Him i count my self so fortunate to have Him, i recently made a big mistake , i had no fear about telling Him. i was more upset with myself then He could ever be. We talked it over and i told Him i accept whatever He decides . i do not ever want to keep anything from Him , smiles . i am truly the luckiest sub in the world . Understand He can be very strict . |
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Guess i have not been too good about keeping up journal, smiles. Master knows how i feel so that is what is important, but i do like to share my feelings. We are getting to know each other better, smiles. He is a very busy Man, and i respect that. i find myself lucky to be His, as He is very patient with me . i know sometimes i make mistakes, but He is the type of Master all would love to have ( can't have mine, sorry), one that i can talk to about it and not feel like i would be punished for all. i know that i would be punished if He felt the need . i believe this is better for both concerned, makes Him happier knowing He can trust me to do my best , and me wanting to please Him more so. Rewards are better than punishment any day . Big Smile! |
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i have not really wrote a lot in journal for all to see but will start. i could not be happier than i am now, smiles. i have the kindest, most patient Master anyone could wish for . He and i have been getting to know each other ,it just keeps getting better! i only wish He was closer but we an work around that , "winks". The more i get to know Master, the more of my heart He has, Big Smile! |
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