There is a part of my character that has always cut off my nose to spite my face, but that doesn't influence my relationship choices as I absolutely know what I want. I actually don't know if she is out there but I'm not willing to compromise, not willing to settle for anything less.

First she needs to have a deep and enduring need to serve her needs by serving mine. That means that I do not want to dominate her I want her to submit to me. In my heart I do not want to take anything that she does not want to give.

Of course I understand that there is a price for that, that she has to feel exclusively mine and that I am going to make her feel that her gift is appreciated and understood. Its a symbiosis, a melding of desires, and when we are in that deep, intense, emotionally co-dependent place, I will not know where she starts and I begin.

She will be my muse, my inspiration to create and achieve, my work will be a living testament to the joy that her submission gives me, and the force that drives me on.

I have no idea if she exists, but until that time that she comes into my life....I want nothing else.