Life has not gone as planned. I am not pregnant yet and therefore have some free time on my hands. Also, I feel as though something is missing from my life. Been thinking a lot about having a male around the house to keep me company, make me laugh, and do what is asked of him. Any takers?

Extremely bored yet extremely busy lately. Hoping to find a plaything that keeps my attention soon. I realize though, that I myself, need to make a conscious effort in keeping in contact with the subs. So, I will be trying to do just that. I will probably be up for a couple more hours. Hope I find someone soon.

Horny as fuck tonight. Masturbated and came probably 5 times and yet there's still an ounce of horniness left. I feel better in this very moment than I have in the past couple of weeks. Here's to hoping I can keep this feeling.

I am not currently looking for a Domme. My main focus is finding a sub. My hopes are high. I would like all interested subs/pets to understand that My life is a little hectic and I probably won't be able to do much of anything in person until the beginning of September, but that does not mean W/we can't get to know each other from now until then.

I am starting to have faith in finding a sub. There are a couple promising subs. One in particular I really hope works out. I am getting really excited about having a subbie of My own. Crossing fingers.

There is hope after all in me finding a Mistress. :)

In a previous journal entry I mentioned about looking for a male sub, said I have a dislike for men....seems many have construed this as I hate men and I'm looking for a man to beat on and torture....that is not what I'm looking for...I'm looking for a sub/servant who will do housework or whatever else I ask of him, he will only be punished when he has intentionally disobeyed me, his punishment should be pain if he hates it, but if the sub likes pain then his punishment shall be something else...I'm looking for a sub who is happy doing chores or just sitting near me watching tv.  I want a sub who desires to serve Me...not just serve in general, if that makes sense.  We have to click, I'm not looking for a man to hate, I'm looking for a man who I can make into the ideal man, one who cares about my wants/needs above his for the time he is around me and doesn't expect anything and *understands that sex with me is a reward he will have to work hard for and may never receive*.  I hope that clarifies a few things....keep messaging me subs.

Ugh, I need a job.  Sucks no one will hire me, at least not for a job I might like.  Would like to be able to save some money for the future.  On a side note....still haven't found a male sub, message me if interested.

ok so I had a brilliant idea just now...however it does need to be discussed with my girl. I was thinking how I might like to try being a switch. Heres how it would go, I would find myself a Mistress to serve, well hopefully find Her, but I would find myself a guy to Domme. The more I think about it the more I like the idea of telling a guy what to do. Having him do my house work or whatever I ask of him and if he says no then I get to punish him.  I have always had a dislike for men, have yet to find one to prove me wrong. I am lesbian, so men please dont message me thinking you will get sex from me.  If a subby boy proves himself to be different from all other men and pleases me by doing everything that I ask of him then possibly, he might be rewarded with sex.