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I have been raised in a very competitive environment. I was "programmed" to always struggle, and end up being at the top. "No excuse can make up for failure" was the motto. Hence, whatever relationship I get into, I always find myself trying to establish my domination over the other person. Throughout my life, I have been very successful in whatever endeavor I got into, so much so that, I no longer work hard to succeed. Since I know I will, and I have full confidence in myself, I frequently don't even bother trying.
I am looking for submissives and slaves who are intelligent enough to appreciate my qualities. Keep reading if you are looking for a relationship that is always a challenge and if you sink a bit further everyday, it is because you have truly deserved it and earned it, not because you wanted it.
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Today I begin jotting down my thoughts here, in my journal. I always wonder if "information is power," what would writing about oneself do to one's power, because with each word and each sentence, you give up for eternity what has previously existed only in your mind, hence, belonging to you and only you. You begin to lose control. You start giving "ammo" to your enemies, as well as your friends.
Soo, here is yet another challenge lying ahead in front of me: To write in a way that will enhance my power and stature, and to exercise constant vigil on what might slip out of my mouth.
"That you cannot take it back is no longer yours."
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