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I am still seeking a RL pigtrainer/pig Owner who desires a human pig for Her amusement.

My journal is a succession of fantasies. I can tell the difference.

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Living hopefully: enjoying the journey.

My particular fantasy is to be dehumanised and caged: collared, leashed, turned into an animal... a pet pig, owned and fattened.

For the rest: please read my journal entries.

If you'd like to know what your pig looks like, please e-mail me: I'm very happy to exchange photos with a prospective owner who shows interest.

I'm looking for a woman, not a man, and not the Domme half of a couple, either.

(Incidentally, while I try to be nice and respectful to all... if you're a man and you sent me a message that indicates you didn't bother to read as far as the "sexuality" box on the profile... well, not only should you not be owning a slave, in this slave's personal opinion you should not be owning a guinea-pig!)

Also: If you inquire whether I want to be "bred", you get blocked.

Also... I'm going to want to talk with you on the phone before I send you a photo. I'm prepared to bet cash that most of the people identifying as femme dommes who won't do that are in fact men. (Not all, I'm sure: it was a while before I was convinced I needed to be ready/willing to talk on the phone. But I am now, and I'm giving fair warning: phone conversation first, then photos.)

--- These photos were added by instruction of MissstressLinda, thank you...
9/9/2012 11:09:22 AM

So sensual, spending a weekend on the farm.

The taxi from the station, up the dusty road. Rained hard yesterday. Lots of mud.

I get off and go through the gate, closing it behind me, and go up the track, reaching the white stone. Once there I can't be seen from off the property.

I strip off, putting everything human into the empty "overnight bag" I carried with me. I go down on all fours in the mud on the track, head down, just waiting.

I can smell the rain in the earth. It's not cold: the air is moist. It will rain again soon.

Before long I lie down in the mud, squirming my fat belly in it, rolling over and wriggling happily. Not as good as the wallow in my pen, the dirt is hard, it's only muddy here because of all the rain. But it's nice being naked fat pig outdoors, all muddy and dirty.

Then She comes, my human owner. She isn't angry I've got muddy already. She laughs and gives me a treat. She pumps some lube up my hole and pops in the pig tail.

She moves me up the track using a pig paddle. She guides me to the pen.

I trot inside. She smiles and leans over the wall to scratch my head. "Someday you're not going to want to leave, piggy," she says kindly. "And when that happens, I'll know." She goes away and leaves me alone in the pen.

This is where I live. There is a shelter with a heater for the night-time or when it rains. There is a camera in the shelter and in the pen, so my Owners can see me from the house. There is a panic button where I can operate it with my snout if I need to. I get hosed down when I leave the pen. The rest of the time I'm just muddy pig. They have dog and pony shows here, and sometimes another pig comes to visit. But usually I just hear the farm workers talking about human things over the pen wall. I don't know if there are any other animals like me who live here.

She pours hot swill into the trough. This is always my favourite time. I put my head down and gobble up the hot food. There are scraps of leftovers in it always, but mostly just warm thick porridge. Belly-filling amounts. I have to clean the trough, enthusiastically, or She will punish me.

She likes to watch me eat. Sometimes for fun She takes me out of the pen to feed me. Then she gives me a huge enema to empty me out and she immobilises me and fits a feeding-gag in my mouth, and then She pumps liquid food into me til She knows I can't take any more. I always gain weight pig weekends but when She wants to have fun feeding me I sometimes can't fit into the clothes I came in. She likes it when that happens. She buys me new clothes.

This time I eat all the swill fast and greedily enough to please Her. She takes out the tail plug. The reward is to be allowed to crap in my pen, not be taken out by one of the farm workers and given an enema. They don't like it, they think I'm a dirty pig and they slap me and tell me so, but it's less trouble for them than cleaning out my pen. They think I'm a human pretending to be a pig. What She and I know is that more and more as this pig lives in the pen, this pig is a pig that sometimes acts like a human.

Food gurgling inside pig belly. Urgency in pig guts. Pig trots over to corner of the pen pig uses. Pig can feel something human inside her slipping away.
Pig hopes there will be more swill soon.


This has never happened... yet.

9/2/2012 8:00:06 AM

She's all eagerness and excitement. I'm a toy she can play with. She's so much younger than me this seems harmless. She enjoys stripping me naked, mocking me, slapping my belly and breasts. She likes having me kneel at her feet, mouth open, as she hand-feeds me her scraps.

She invites me round for a party.

I'm the entertainment, or part of it. She strips me and hoods me.

In her bathroom, she fills me up with one enema after another. The warm water bloats my gut, makes me squeal and cry. She laughs and laughs. Tells me I'm so full of shit and she's going to empty me out. Then she greases me up with a fat handful of lube, pushed well in, and she takes me out to her living room.

 There's a big dildo fixed on to a bench. I whimper and shiver at the sight of it, understanding why she cleaned me out so thoroughly.

"You're going to be such fun," she tells me, and pushes me over the dildo. She makes me squat, pushing me slowly down on the big shaft, giggling at the look on my face. "Nice fat pig," she says. "Nicely impaled."

I'm filled so full when my fat buttocks touch the table. I open my mouth and whimper at her. She giggles.

She said she would hood me so that no one would see my face, but she just puts a little half mask on my face, the one that makes me look like a pig.  She goes away to put out food on the buffet table, and get changed into her party clothes.

And then her friends start coming in. She's a student at the college. Lots of her friends are students too. Some of them knew me. None of them knew what I was to her. Now they do.

Everyone feeds me and handles me. I squirm and wriggle. When I cry, I get titbits. Someone I knew once is fondling my udders, tugging at the nipples. "did you think of bringing her into milk?"

"Maybe I should," my owner says, "she's such a fat pig, it would make her useful."

I try to protest, but my owner pops a piece of cake into my open mouth. "I like to fatten her up," she says.

"She's gross. God, to think what she used to be like, and look at her now!"

"But such fun to play with! Look at how her fat jiggles when I slap her." She slaps me and then they all do. I squeal at each slap, high piggy sounds.

 It takes four of them to get me off the dildo when they decide to have more fun with me. They hobble me on all fours and have me trot about the room cleaning spills with my tongue.  One of them has brought a slave of her own along and they make me bring the slave to orgasm with my mouth. I suck and lick greedily.

 They're taking photographs. They take photos of everything.

 When I wake up, tethered to the foot of my owner's bed, she shows them to me.

 "You're just an animal now," she tells me. "Like you told me you wanted to be. Everyone knows it. You're just livestock: my pet pig."

 

this has never happened.... yet

9/1/2012 10:06:26 AM

Locked up in a cage and taken out (or not) to be fattened.

It's very simple. But it's very exciting.

Why do so many people react to that with "Want to be bred?"

No.

2/11/2012 7:49:09 AM

She writes to me quite explicitly: she's slim, she's bi, she has no interest in me sexually, but she very much wants to own and abuse her own slave pig, to fatten me and then display me.

She visits me regularly. Each time is like heaven. She makes huge quantities of swill-like food. She takes me shopping to the local big supermarket just when the bread goes on sale, and buys silly quantities of 2nd-day bread and rolls and own-brand soup and baked beans. She makes me eat big bowls of it, she won't let me stop until my belly is so full i can eat no more, and she judges when that is. Often she has to paddle my fat bottom hard to make me keep eating. she loves this.

She keeps telling me that i'm pathetic, not heavy enough for a big prize pig, my bely doesn't hang down far enough, i need more fattening. i beg her to take me on as one of her stock and she keeps saying only when i'm fat enough, i need to be a huge fat pig to be entered for a pig show. 

She has her friends come round and lets them feed me, have them prod, poke, pinch  my flesh. She moves in and keeps me in a cage, letting me out only for well-controlled periods of gentle exercise, constantly making me eat under threat of punishment. the meals get bigger and bigger.

finally she agrees, i'm just fat enough now to be one of her porkers. she loads me into a special cage and has me carried out of the house. it takes four people to lift the cage into the back of the truck. she's put a plug in my butt to keep me happy and a feeding-tube fastened into my mouth so that i can keep being fattened.

on the way to the pig farm... this is my destiny now.

this has never happened... obviously

i really love Dominant women who like to abuse and control a fat pig.

2/5/2012 3:27:28 PM

This pig very much wishes to become an obedient, well-trained pig. This pig wishes to become your pigslave in fact, and as a first step towards this, it voluntarily accepts your training both online and in real life to become a pig as outlined in this e-mail and as discussed in conversation on Yahoo Messenger. This pig hopes it will become acceptable to its Mistress.

Summary:

You contacted your pigslave on CM and we discussed your wish to own a pig and this sow's wish to be a pig. You made it clear to your pigslave that if it was turned into a pig, living as a pig full time/real life, it would be very hard for your sow it come back to function "normally". your pig agreed, and said it would prefer to try this out for a short time only initially. You suggested your pigslave might visit for a weekend to try out being a pig, and your porker was excited and eager to do so. You and your pigslave moved the conversation over to Yahoo Messenger to discuss this possibility.

You suggested that, subject to previously agreed-to limits, your pigslave should be treated for the entire weekend - from arrival to some agreed-on time before departure - your pigslave should be treated as befits its nature, as a pig.

your pigslave's limits are: not into scat, safe sex only, no broken skin, no public display, and is vegetarian and exclusively lesbian. ("No public display" means no photos or webcam: and for the first weekend of or from a bowl or a trough on the floor?): pig to be kept in bondage throughout the first weekend, restraints allowing only comfortable sleep at night and comfortable movement as pig during day: pig to be gagged or permitted only pig noises. Pig training to include moving bowels or pissing like a pig, not as a human.

You invited your porker to describe its sexual "expectations", while making it clear that pig had no decisions to make in this area, Mistress sets rules. Your sow explained it likes anal better than vaginal, but comes mainly or solely through clitoral stimulation. Your pig is excited by the role of being a pig, and in role as a pig sex becomes less important. Your pigslave explained that being a pig is not entered into with a wish to be humiliated, but to be made into a good pig, punished for being a bad pig
or for attempting to act in ways that are not piglike.

Your pigslave was instructed how to behave when speaking of itself to you, and instructed to be naked, hams wide apart, whenever it writes to you from home.

Your pigslave is writing this naked, hams spread wide, smelling its wet pigcunt.

Your pig's fantasies are full of transformation - of becoming a pig. 

Also of living like a pig - of being helpless and vulnerable and naked. having no glasses - being very shortsighted - makes the pig more piglike, more animal. your pig is excited by the idea of being fattened, but isn't sure about the reality: but the idea of it creeps into many fantasies. your pig is a member of a couple of yahoo groups for feeders/feedees, and has posted some straightforward "fattened slave" stories there, though your pigslave's feelings are not that of a "normal" feedee - the idea of being fattened goes along with being a pig. your pig told you how good it feels to be referred to as an animal, how exciting it is to think of itself being discussed over its head, in animal terms - hams, udders, trotters.

your pig's only difficulties with being naked are the cold! your pig fantasises about being kept outdoors in a sty with mud to wallow in, just always behaving like a pig 24/7, but only, this pigslave admits, when it's possible to imagine a very warm climate!

your pig has a couple of big food bowls for dogs that your pigslave bought for itself a couple of years ago. your pigslave uses them sometimes to eat piggy meals - preparing "swill" and eating it from one of the bowls, naked and on all fours. your pigslave strips  down as far as possible to prepare the swill (some windows are unavoidably overlooked by neighbours) and strips off completely to eat it, it found that from the first time it did this, it seemed very natural to eat the piggy meal grunting and gobbling, making lots of pig noises, slurping up water from the other bowl.

your pig hopes this e-mail pleases you, Mistress. your pigslave has tried to be honest and open.

1/30/2012 3:35:17 PM

Why do I love cages so much?

I love being caged even better than when the gag is popped inside my obedient open mouth and speech is taken away from me, silent pig can't talk.

I love being caged even better than the butt plug that slides so deep inside me, making me wriggle and squirm.

I love being caged even better than being thrashed with the paddle on my fat piggy bottom, making me squeal and cry.

I love being caged even better than being fed, gobbling up the hot mush, grunting and snorting, filling my piggy belly.

I love being caged even better than enemas or laxatives, losing control, giving myself totally up to being pig.

I love being caged even better than when the human strips me and orders me down on all fours and calls me a pig, her pig, her fat pet pig.

I love it even if I'm on my own, when being human is too much, when all I want to do is strip down to my skin and crawl inside the cage and curl up, feeling the metal bars hold me, a naked animal in a cage, free to be just pig.

The only thing I would love more than being caged... would be an Owner who would cage me, keep me, silence me, plug me, thrash me, feed me, control me... make me totally her pig.

And keep me in a cage.

 

 

 

9/17/2011 12:55:00 PM

"I need a servant for tonight's party. That's going to be you."

 "No thanks - I'm busy tonight." I didn't like her parties. Too crowded and too full of sadists. I like being dominated, I'm not much of a masochist.

 "Cancel your plans. You're going to work your fat ass off at my party tonight, and if anyone complains, you're going to take a public caning on your fat hams."

 I blushed - and she grinned.

 "Yes  you're going to come home with me and do whatever I want," she told me, "because I know who 'fattened slave'" is. I know all about your 'pig' games. I like your fantasies on your journal, and either you work for me at my party tonight, or I'm going to print them off and show them round and tell everyone who wrote them - and you know that if you tried to deny it, you'd just get all red in the face and no one would believe you."

 "Just one party."

 "Of course."

 The party would have been more fun if I hadn't been wearing a tight little outfit that gaped whenever I moved, and if there hadn't been so many people there who'd been told they could handle me and slap me around as much as they wanted - I liked it. Mistress had told me all I could say to anyone who tried to talk to me was 'I have been ordered to be silent'." At the end of the evening my going-home treat was to be bent over the back of the big sofa while all the remaining guests counted up all the strokes of the cane I'd earned all night."

 There were lots of leftovers on the buffet table when the last guest had been ushered out. I was to help them on with their coats and they most of them enjoyed themselves with a last smack on my ass.

 When I came back into the big room, Mistress was clearing up the buffet table, and I was disappointed, I'd not been allowed to eat anything all night and I hoped to be offered some food before I left.

 "You start doing the dishes in the kitchen," Mistress told me. "When I've finished clearing this, we'll have some coffee."

 She put some coffee on to brew in the kitchen and started to put leftovers away in the big fridge. She threw a big pile of scraps into the bin. She poured out coffee into her own mug and called me over. "Are you hungry?" she asked. "Look, why don't you have something to eat?"

 She put a big bowl of edible scraps down on the floor. "You can get out of that tight little outfit and change into your own clothes afterwards," she told me sympathetically. "I know what you like, after all. Just fill your belly the way you enjoy it."

 I hesitated, but I was hungry, and I was longing to get out of the horrid tight maid's outfit she'd put me in. So I got naked and then I got down on the floor, and started eating the scraps. This was the way I liked to end an evening, even though I hadn't expected to be able to do it here.

 Mistress got up and started moving around the kitchen, sometimes I heard scrapes of dishes or the tap running, but I just went on eating. Even the scraps were delicious, and I always enjoyed eating.
When I'd eaten the bowl about halfway down, she poured some coffee in for me, and I lapped it up and went on eating.

 "It's late," Mistress told me. "You may as well sleep here tonight."

 She tossed me a blanket and pointed at the cupboard. There was a comfy big-style doggy bed inside, and I figured this was her last little whim, so  I crawled to the cupboard ... and only realised, as i turned round before she had closed the door on me, that she was holding a video camera.

 Then the door closed and locked from the outside and I knew better than to yell or make a noise. I was very indignant, but I went to sleep, and sure enough, in the morning, she let me out... into a different world.

 She showed me the video. She had started it when I went down naked on all fours to eat the food. I blushed to see how greedily I'd eaten, and how stupidly I'd never noticed, never looked up, just gone on gobbling and gulping. The video ended with me on all fours trotting off to sleep in an animal bed in the cupboard.  Worst of all my face was quite obvious. Anyone who saw it who knew me, would recognise me.

 "Now I think you realise what I can do with this video," she said. "Don't worry. All I want is a nice little servant for my parties. And I'll feed you and let you sleep here afterwards. So long as you do exactly what I want, no one will ever see this..."

 

This has never happened...

7/29/2011 10:01:52 AM

 

The first evening my owner sent for me and had me kneel on all fours in the drawing room, while she sipped an after-dinner glass of white wine and had me tell her everything I had been fed since she delivered me to the kitchen. She nodded at each item, and then told me of a couple of things I had missed telling her: the big pat of butter in the bowl and the teabags and coffee grounds that had been dropped into it after I was punished.

"Why did you forget to tell me about those, pig?"

I quivered and squirmed. "I don't know."

"Don't you?" My owner smiled thoughtfully. "Oh well, time to tenderise the pork. I'm going to have you caned on your hams tonight, three times each side, I want to hear piggy squeal. But if you can tell me why you forgot about that big greasy lump of butter, and the scraps for the compost heap that went down your fat gullet, I'll let you have a nice fat plug in your piggy bottom to keep you happy while you're caned."

I looked down and burned with humiliation. "I felt so much like a real pig," I told her quietly.

"Louder, pig."

"I felt so much like a real pig!" I shouted at her. "But at supper tonight I had to sit up at table and use a spoon and eat what everyone else was eating, but more of it, and their leftovers afterward."

"So you would have liked to eat from a bowl on the floor," my owner said. "Well, you will, soon. But not tomorrow." She rang a bell, and the housekeeper came in.

"Put the pig over the punishment stool, pull down her pig pants, and give her six with the cane," my owner told her. "I want to see three clear marks either side on her hams, and of course I want to hear my pig squeal."

Each stroke was vicious. I am a stubborn pig and I often don't cry out when I'm punished. The first two strokes just made me gasp. The next two were harder and I cried. I felt the cane prod and tap at my fat flesh, and then the last two zingers burned their way into my skin.

"That's it," my owner said approvingly, to the housekeeper. "Good girl. That's the noise I want to hear from the pig when you tenderise her. Leave her there, I'll take her off to bed when I'm ready."

 

this has never happened yet

7/9/2011 6:46:09 PM

At any point, of course, you can stop the process, my new owner told me. You can use the safeword. Of course, she said smiling, if you're serious about wanting to be a pig, you won't want to.

I had been to her house before - a big farmhouse with a barn, a couple of Jersey cows and a bay horse in the barn, two big dogs who trotted at her side, and staff: all female. A gardener, a housemaid, a cook, and the housekeeper. They were, I understood, my owner's slaves: the housekeeper had been with my owner for twenty years, half her life.

My owner took me into the barn. The pigpen had been built, specially designed for a human pig. I touched the pen wall. I knew eventually, if I didn't stop the process, this was where I would be.

My owner then walked with me into the house. She led me upstairs to a pleasant guest room. On the wall, in a poster frame, was my safeword, very large. "All you have to do is say that word," she said. "But if you don't, I will slowly take away every scrap of your humanity, everything that makes you not-pig. I will dehumanise you completely, and make you what you've told me you've always wanted to be." She pointed at my case. "You brought luggage."

"Yes, ma'am."

"Take off all your clothes and put them into the case. Everything in your pockets." When I was done, she pointed at the wardrobe. "Take out what you find in there and put it on."

It was a set of bright pink sweats. There was a piggy face on the front of the sweatshirt. They were baggy, a bit big for me. There was also a pair of bright pink panties, and bright pink exercise socks. I put them all on.

She pointed at the bathroom. I opened the door. There was a round tub with a shower over it, and a squat toilet.

"Those clothes you're wearing are your piggy clothes, pig," she told me. "You're not allowed to take them off, or even pull them down to use the toilet. You're not allowed to use the bath by yourself, and if you want to use the toilet, you have to find a human who will pull down those piggy pants for you, watch you squat, and then flush the toilet for you afterwards. Other than that, you can use anything in the bathroom or this bedroom without asking special permission." My owner smiled. "You'll find that there's less and less for you to use, of course, as we go on."

She snapped a pink cuff bracelet around my wrist. "My slaves wear collars, but you're not my slave. Slaves are human. You won't ever take this off." She snapped a leash on to one of the D-rings, and walked away, tugging on the leash to make me follow.

The four slaves were sitting round the table in the kitchen, clearly about to have lunch, when my owner walked in. "This is my new project," she told them, unclipping the leash from the pink cuff. "Pig will be staying here in the house either until it uses the safeword," and she told them what it was, "or until I can move it into the pen we've been building in the barn."

They all nodded. Evidently they all knew about the pigpen. I squirmed a bit, blushing, and felt the loose sweatpants start to slip, and clutched at them.

"Pig is wearing its piggy clothes. The pig isn't allowed to take them off, which means if pig wants to shit or piss, it will have to find one of you and ask you to take those piggy pants down. If any of you decide the pig's getting a bit smelly, you can strip the pig naked and scrub her. Ellen will have fresh supplies of piggy clothes as required."

"The pig isn't allowed to eat except what one of us humans feeds her. It's important you all understand this - pig isn't a slave like you, pig isn't human. It's here to become a pig, and you're all free and encouraged to treat it as a pig - feed it, slap it around, play with it. At the moment, pig is allowed to use human speech, but the less it uses, the better."

"Are we allowed to take the pig out of the house?" the gardener asked.

My owner shrugged. "If you make sure to keep it on the leash. I don't want it to get too much exercise, don't think you can use it to work the garden." She pulled at the waistband of the piggy sweatpants. "Look, these are far too loose on the pig. The pig is too skinny. I want all four of you to make sure the pig gets fed enough that these piggy clothes are tight on it. I want to see the pig flesh bulging out of the piggy clothes. It can eat your leftovers, and mine, but I want you to make sure it gets big pans of nice fattening swill. Put some recipes together and we'll discuss them."

"Is the pig allowed to eat at the table?" Ellen asked.

"For now," my owner said. "And it can use a spoon to eat with. Ellen, I'll see you in the office at three." She walked out.

Ellen sighed. "Pig, sit down." She pointed at a chair at the far end of the table. "Frannie, you open a couple of tins of beans, and put some bread in the toaster." The maid jumped up and ran to do as she was told. I went to the chair and sat down. "Nicola, do you mind?" she said to the cook. "Would you grate some cheese, we'll put that on the pig's meal. Gill, would you get one of those big mixing bowls down, we'll feed the pig out of that as long as it's allowed to eat at the table."

"Shall I butter the toast?" Frannie asked Ellen.

"Yes, plenty of fat," Ellen said.

The slaves were eating a simple lunch of salad and cold meat and baked potatoes. In the big mixing bowl Frannie layered eight pieces of buttered wholemeal toast and two whole tins of baked beans, heated in the microwave, and covered the top with a thick layer of grated cheddar cheese. She put the bowl down in front of me, and handed me a big soup spoon, before she went back to her own place.

Ellen nodded to me. "You eat all of that before we're finished our meal, pig."

I dug in with my soup spoon. It was hard at first, but as I ate the warm beans and toast, beginning to feel comfortably full, I realised that I needn't try to be tidy or neat, or eat slowly. I was here to become a pig, everyone knew it. And they obviously approvd of anything their owner did. So I ate quickly, making grunts of pleasure, squirming a bit at the enjoyment of being able to fill myself and go on eating.

I felt full long before I had finished. Surreptitious glances told me that the slaves were almost done eating lunch. Frannie jumped up to brew tea for all of them and coffee for Ellen in a French press. Ellen opened a biscuit tin and they all helped themselves to one biscuit. I still had two pieces of toast and about half a tin of beans to eat. I wriggled, feeling my bloated belly shift, stuffed full of food, and went on eating.

"Pig enjoyed that," the gardener said, nodding to me.

"Everyone scrape their leftovers into the pig bowl," Ellen said. "Nicola, for now we'll feed the pig four times a day. Pig, you go lie down somewhere out of the way."

I got up, planning to waddle back to the bedroom and lie down on the bed and enjoy feeling so fatly stuffed. I got halfway there and realised I would need to take a shit soon: foolishly I speeded up and got to the bathroom and only then realised I would need to ask one of the humans to pull my pants down. My guts were churning inside me.

I waddled as fast as I could, clenching my sphincter muscles, back to the kitchen, and found it empty except for Nicola, preparing vegetables at the sink.

"Please, Nicola, I need to take a crap."

"Well, you'll have to wait, I need to finish these."

"Please," I squirmed, "I don't think I can wait."

"Well, you'll have to, pig. Down on all fours, that should make you happy."

I dropped to all fours instinctively and knelt there, my belly fat, udders dangling plump and round beneath me. I kept squirming my fat bottom, trying to hold it in.

Nicola laughed at me. She slapped my bottom as she passed on the way to the fridge. "We need to fatten you up, pig. Here, these cream is just on the turn, and this butter is almost at the use-by date." She put them both in a flat bowl, and added some bits of stale bread and some vegetable scraps. "You take your mind off how much you need to crap by eating these up."

The bowl of beans and toast had been huge but it had looked like human food. This was just a mess of scraps, a big pat of butter and a mound of cream and bits of bread and scrapings from potatoes and carrots and some pea pods. I put my head down and took a mouthful of cream and scraps, and realised as my mouth was full and I swallowed that I was very happy: one of the humans was feeding me, properly like a pig. I'd got to do this only a few times before, eat food scraps like a pig, and always before I'd had to go back to being human. But now I wouldn't. I could just gobble this up. I was a pig being fattened. That was all I was.

I got a big mouthful of butter next time, and as I swallowed it with the food scraps, I felt my anal sphincter give way: a rush of soft crap started to fill the pink sweatpants. It was a great relief. I went on eating,

"Are you crapping yourself?" Nicola said, sounding astonished. "Fuck. Dirty pig! Where's the leash - "

I went on shitting myself, feeling the crap just pour out of me, and went on eating, until  Nicola clipped the leash on to the cuff and pulled me away, out of the back door of the kitchen into a wet muddy yard. She left me belly down in my filth while she cleaned the kitchen floor and got a fresh set of pink sweats, I suppose, and then she came out and stripped off the dirty sweats and hosed me down with cold water that made me squeal and cry. She spanked me when I was clean, very hard, telling me I was a dirty stinking pig, and then she dressed me again in pink sweats and led me back into the kitchen by the leash on the cuff.

The half-eaten bowl of scraps was on the floor. Nicola added more vegetable scraps to the bowl, and spilled three teabags and some coffee grounds into it. "You eat that and lick the bowl clean, dirty pig."

I thought she was rewarding me, and ate eagerly, but she moved to stand behind me with a big spoon, and my fat bottom got paddled hard as I ate, filling my belly with the scraps and grunting as she hit me.

I spent a  lot of time in the kitchen with Nicole, being fattened.

 

this has never happened... yet

6/16/2011 4:17:48 PM

Cooking control

 

"Tonight you get to show off your cooking skills, piggy," my Owner told me, before I could go to my hands and knees and be stripped naked. She tapped my mouth and pushed a ball-gag in and strapped it on. She pushed me against the wall, placing my hands against it, and pulled my skirt up and my panties down to slide in a fat, lubed buttplug, and fastened it in with a harness. Then she pulled my panties up again and smacked my bottom. "Come along, don't be lazy."

Sometimes my Owner makes me cook huge meals and she eats a portion for one and I have to eat the rest, till my belly is stuffed full and then she paddles me until I eat more.

Sometimes my Owner just feeds me her scraps from through the week, cooked into pigswill with plenty of oats and water.

Sometimes my Owner makes me cook huge meals and then freeze portions for her to eat later in the week, and only lets me eat her leftovers.

Tonight she was very specific and detailed about what her piggy should cook, and what size of portions. When everything was done, she put me down on the floor on all fours and stripped me at last, and led me to the cage, set up in Her bedroom, near the door. She filled the bowl with drinking water and sent me into the cage with a big slap on my bottom.

Then the doorbell rang. My Owner flung a cloth over the cage - a sheet I think - and told me to be quiet, and then she went to let the guests in. She showed them into her bedroom and they put their coats on Her bed, and I think there were five of them, and Her of course. They would eat the food I had cooked. It smelled good, delicious, I knew it would taste good. I had drooled a bit, cooking it, careful to hold my head back so I wouldn't drool on the food.

I was so hungry. Fat greedy piggy, locked naked in the pig cage. I squirmed quietly, feeling the plug fill me, trying to think about my Owner's enjoyment of me, hoping she was pleased by the food her piggy had prepared, hoping she would come in and enjoy the sight of me. I squirmed and wriggled, enclosed in the cage, wanting my Owner.

I held still whenever the guests were near. I could hear their voices in the distance, not hear what they were saying. Sometimes I heard them laugh and wondered if they were laughing at the fat piggy in the cage, so hungry and greedy.

The guests left and the cloth was pulled off the cage. My Owner opened the cage door and let me out, rolling me on to my back and slapping my fat belly as she often did, laughing when my belly rumbled and I lay there whimpering through the gag. She encouraged me up on all fours and let me trot through to the kitchen at her side. She put the food bowl down just in front of me and began to fill it with leftovers, scraped from the plates and the dishes. I whined through the gag, so hungry-greedy.

When she took the gag out and let me eat, I gobbled the food down greedily, filling my belly with the scraps. Tasted so good. My Owner fed me well.

This has never happened.... yet.

3/19/2011 8:13:51 AM

"Well, girls, this is a party with a difference," she told them. "This lady - " she pointed to me " - is really just a fat pig. She knows it, and she's agreed we should make her act like one."

 I looked round. They were all smiling. They were all thinner than me, and they were dressed smartly - I had known with a feeling of delightful dread what was going to happen once I accepted this invitation, and I'd dressed in clothes I knew I wouldn't see again. As She'd told me, the Lady who would own me after tonight,  the panties I was wearing - and the bra - were both too tight. Billows of fat were wobbling under them. I knew I'd be marked.

 Across the other side of the room was the cage and the trough. The buffet - I'd be eating the scraps - was laid out, looking attractive and appetizing. I said out loud, nervously, "I changed my mind, I'm not really a pig."

Several of them looked disappointed. She only grinned more widely, and nodded to her best friend. "Go lock the door. She's given me a safe word - " she told the group what it was " - and if she really doesn't want us to make her be what she wants, what she knows she is, she can use it."

"No," I said. "I really did. I'm not a pig." My voice was getting high and nervous as they all turned towards me again, all of them looking pleased now and amused. "I'm not. Please don't do this to me."

I knew I could use the safe word. I knew in my belly I didn't really want to. I knew it was going to take all of them to make me.

She knew it too. That was why she set up the party. I was grabbed from behind and I tried to pull away and I heard the cloth rip, and as if that was a signal they all set on me. I was stripped without dignity, the women laughing as they pulled at the clothes, slapping at my fat flesh. I struggled and fought and cried but there were too many of them. When I was naked and crouching on the floor, trying to cover myself with my hands, four of them grabbed at my wrists - two each, and pulled me over on to my back and held me down, laughing as I kicked and squirmed and wailed.

"Look at that fat belly on her! She's such a pig. Let's get the collar and cuffs on her."

They all prodded and handled my bulging plump belly, slapped at my pig-udders, squeezed them and told my owner she could get me in milk. They got the cuffs on my ankles and wrists and locked ankle to wrist, so I was helpless on the floor. My new owner put the collar round my neck, a pink leather one "good for a pig," she said.

"Please," I whimpered. "I'm not, I'm not a pig..."

"Fat pig," one of them told me, slapping my belly hard. "Look at that porky flesh jiggle. I bet you'd beg to be fed, wouldn't you?"

My belly rumbled, and I heard them all laugh at me. They went to get food, and dropped bits in my mouth, laughing at how greedy I was, how I squirmed and wriggled.

They got the electric razor and shaved me, all over, my head now bald as a pig's. "I'll keep her this way," my owner told them. "She'll be easier to clean when she wallows. She likes mud."

"Can we watch that?" one of the guests asked her. She was feeding me a piece of cheese on a cracker. "I'd like to see her gobbling her food out of the mud, getting filth over her face."

"Next party," my owner promised her.

When they'd all eaten their fill, they started scraping the leftovers into the trough. When it was full, and the table was empty, they got me up on to my hands and knees, lifting me by force and turning me over to crawl like a pig. They fitted me with the pig tail my owner had told me I would wear except when I was being emptied, a plug that slid into my asshole and ended in a little curly tail.

I squealed as it went in, and lifted my bottom to it, loving being filled. I felt the weight of it inside me, and squirmed, feeling it shift. "Please," I begged out loud.

"What have you to say, pig?" my owner asked me.

"Please let me eat?" I begged.

"We'll put the pig in the cage first," she decided. "That'll help her work up an appetite for her food."

It took all of them to get me into the cage. I begged and struggled. I wanted to be at the trough, gobbling down the swill. My owner and her friends set up the plasma screen, and I heard her explaining to them that there were cameras in the pig sty, they would be able to watch me settling down for the night. She could switch between angles to get the best view.

They drank wine and talked and nibbled and watched me squirming in the cage, dripping and eager, impaled on the piggy tail. Finally my owner opened the cage door and clipped the leash on and let me out. She opened up the laxative and let each of her friends sprinkle some on the food - a big dose.

"Now little one, you're going to eat all of this. Anyone who likes can paddle you to tenderise the meat. And then I'll take you to your sty and leave you there for your first night as my fat, greedy piggy. We'll all watch as you empty your guts in that pig pen."

I put my head down eagerly to the pile of multicoloured swill and scraps, gobbling it eagerly at first, needing the paddle to encourage me as I was eating my belly full, feeling the food stretch me. I wobbled and lurched, belly stuffed, as she led me to the sty, feeling the first crampings of the laxative.

I knew they would see my face, turning from human to pig, as  I lost myself helplessly in the pen....

 

this has never happened... yet....

2/13/2011 6:23:52 PM

One of my dreams had come true: she was going to make me into a pig and then show me off in public. She instructed me to wear my best suit and high-heeled shoes when I came to stay, though as soon as I walked through the door, she instructed me to strip them off.

"I'm certainly not going to waste any time," she told me.

I stood there naked: she walked round me petting and prodding my flesh. "I'm going to treat you completely as an animal," she said, looking me in the eye. "That's what you keep saying you want, you keep begging for. Now you're going to get it. Down on all fours, pig."

I was excited. Obediently, still just a human pretending to be a pig, I crawled as she directed. I let her blindfold me and I didn't suspect even when the floor changed to metal. Then the door closed on me and I realised I was in a cage.

She locked the door and laughed at me. "You're going to spend a month in this cage. I want you fattened up, pig."

When I spoke human language, she used a cattleprod on me that made me squeal. Soon I learned that a pig only grunts and squeals.

She fitted a mouthpiece between the bars of the cage. She fed me through it, effiiciently pouring high-calorie liquids into me, filling my belly. She made me press my fat bottom up against the other end of the cage for her to plug my ass or empty my gut with enemas. Unable to move or speak, I ate greedily, I squirmed my plump carcass on her impaling buttplugs for her amusement, I even loved the warm enemas she flooded me with. The human who had crawled into the cage became pig, and all pig knew was pleasing her Owner.

Pig hardly knew what to do when the cage door opened and Owner pulled her out. Owner bathed her and pampered her, prodding the billows of plump flesh. Owner put her in strange clothing, not for a pig, and made pig balance on her hind legs, in high-heeled human shoes. Owner tethered pig by the door and made her wait.

Owner took pig out of the house. Pig looked around at everything wide-eyed. Owner was holding the leash and smiling with pleasure to see pig teeter along. Clothes didn't fit pig, pig had too much plump flesh spilling out. Owner led to pig to another place, and ordered cakes and a coffee for Owner. Pig knelt down on all fours in front of Owner, hoping for a treat. Owner laughs and puts pieces of cake on her shoes, and pig puts head down happily and gobbles them up, licking the sweet treat off her Owner's shoes.

Deep inside some part of the human remembered this was the coffee shop she used to have her morning coffee in before she became pig: before she left her human life behind her forever. She knew and she left it behind.  

Owner takes her time finishing her coffee. One of the baristas pours pig a bowl of water, and laughs to see pig snort and snuffle as she drinks it up. Now pig was only pig, and everyone who saw her knew it.

 

This has never happened... yet!

7/22/2010 7:23:10 AM
After the pig has spent so long on all fours she doesn't think she could ever get up on her hind legs...

After the pig has spent so many nights asleep in her cage, she doesn't think she could sleep without cage walls keeping her in, the feel of metal bars against her porky flesh....

After the pig has learned to eat from a trough, face down and mouth open, gulping down the food her Owner chooses to give her, until she doesn't remember being able to eat any other way...

Owner tells her, "I will brand you now."

Pig is fastened into stocks, strapped down. Pig is kept immobile while the branding iron is heated. Pig can smell it, the hot metal. Owner chooses the spot on pig's meaty buttocks to mark. Owner cleans it off, prodding and stroking, admiring the fat flesh that will soon be marked as property.

Owner plants the white-hot iron on the pig's buttock. Pig squeals. Worst pain pig ever felt. Pain goes on: iron brands pig deeply. Pig squeals and squeals, unable to move. Pig pisses herself. Owner laughs.

The brand mark heals. The pig is marked. Forever.
7/18/2010 1:52:37 PM
Being fattened

The food is poured into the trough. Litres of it.

Put your head down, girl. Mouth open. Gobble. Grunt as you eat.

Let yourself squirm. Feels good, hot food filling your piggy belly. Naked pig gobbling at the trough.

Fat pig being fattened. Gobble your food. Squirming with pleasure at being a pig at the trough, on all fours in the sty.

Home in the pig sty.
2/14/2010 9:45:52 AM
(This is sort-of Part 4, previous parts posted on 11th and 12th Feb)

By the time the car arrived home I was myself again: shivering, feeling rank, wanting a hot bath.

I climbed out of the car without waiting for her help, thanked her for the wonderful time, and headed into the house - the garage floor was cold.

"Where do you think you're going, pig?" she said briskly.

"I need a bath!"

She'd gone over to a corner of the garage where... a garden hose was rolled up. I started shivering even harder. "No," I said, pleadingly, but I didn't use the safeword.

"Pigs don't use the bathroom," she told me cheerfully. "Or stand on their hind legs. Now what do you do, pig?"

She sounded quite kind and cheerful, and she was grinning, but she said it like she meant it. I went down on all fours, feeling awkward, and crawled over to where she pointed.

She had to go into the house to roll the hose to the connector tap, and I knelt there alone for a few minutes, not feeling like a pig at all, minding the cold, minding the dirt, just wanting to get clean.

I looked down at my hands and knees and udders and belly: I was filthy, and the dirt was dried on. I could feel the sticky food and dirt on my face.  I knew my hair was matted and dirty. It should be shaved off. Then I would look more like a pig than a woman, I thought, and this was comforting.

"Pig," she said, coming back, "I'll let you transform once you're clean. Right now you're a dirty pig, and until you're clean again, that's how I'm going to treat you." There was a trickle of water coming out of the hose: I looked at it and hoped it was warm. She was wearing heavy gardener's gloves and carrying something. "Stay exactly where you are, pig, don't even think about moving." She walked round me, squirted something cold and greasy up my anus, and without further preparation, she pushed in a buttplug. It felt good and thick, and I squirmed a bit, enjoying the feeling of being impaled on it.

"I like how that looks on you, pig." She caught hold of my filthy hair in one gloved hand, jerked my head up, and pushed a gag with a heavy mouthpiece between my lips: she strapped it on behind my head. "That is staying on while you're a pig. I can't have you squealing too loud."

Then she turned the hose full on and aimed it at me. The water wasn't warm - it was cold, straight from the mains, high pressure, and I was squealing high and crying from the cold, feeling as if she were literally sticking knives in me, as she walked round me, pointing the water-jet at me, over my udders, between my hams, at my back and sides and buttocks. I pissed myself. I would have shit myself except for the butt plug. But I stayed on my hands and knees, lifting my head and squealing and shuddering as she hurt me and went on hurting me with the cold water.

Even when she rolled me over in the puddle on the floor and went at my foretrotters and hindtrotters with the water, I didn't struggle or resist her.

She used the jet on my hair, but not my face.

When she eventually clipped a leash on and let me follow after her, I didn't even think of climbing to my feet. She had put a bathsheet just inside the door, and pointed me at it: I stayed there, but she tethered the leash to the bannisters and went into the kitchen to turn off the water to the hose, and roll up the pipe, before she untethered me again and urged me up on to my hind legs and took the gag out from my mouth.

"Thank you," I said to her.

"My pleasure," she said, amused. "Do you want me to take the plug out?"

I glanced behind me: the plug was decorated with a little piggy tail. I blushed. "Please?"

"Upstairs in the bathroom, and you can wash it before you come downstairs again."

She didn't take the collar or the leash off me, and I didn't think to ask her to. But I did ask about the cold water bath.

"I'd like to do it to you sometime with the gag out," she said. "Even with the gag in, I could hear a bit of the noises you were making. Beautiful."

"It was just to hurt me?" I was okay with that: but she hadn't shown any sign of being sadistic. Even the thrashing - I could see the marks quite clearly now my butt was clean - had been done with a clear disciplinary intent. Climbing the stairs, the buttplug inside me shifted with every step, arousing me even though I knew it was coming out in a minute or two.

"No," she said. "I don't think I'm a sadist in the ordinary way. But pigs squeal when they're washed like that, and I wanted to hear my pig squealing." She smiled. "And I wanted to see if you'd let me do it, of course. But mostly - you were so filthy after that wallow, I wasn't going to let you back into the house until I'd cleaned you off."

She had bubblebath for me in a cute cartoon pig bottle. She ran a hot bath with lots of bubbles. "You looked adorable in this buttplug," she told me. "It's not really suited for a real pig, but I'll probably have you wear it again when you're playing for me."

I wanted to get into the bath for a soak, but she was looking at me like she still wanted something from me. And she hadn't taken the plug out. "I can bring your clothes upstairs from the car," she said, "and you can change into them and we can have dinner together like two friends: or you can come downstairs as a pig, and I'll feed you your swill from a bowl as usual." She turned me and made me look in the mirror, wiping it as it was covered in steam. "I didn't use the hose on your face because I didn't want you to get water up your nose when you were gagged: and I wanted to make you see what you look like, pig."

The naked figure standing next to the clothed Domme was pink and swollen: her udders hung down and her face was clotted with dirt and food. From her fat behind produced a piggy tail.

I was crying as I looked at myself in the mirror. I had been transformed. She handed me a couple of wet kitchen rags, and I mopped at my face, rubbing at the dirt. When most of it was off, My Owner bent me over and eased the plug out: she put it into the sink. "Wash that before you come downstairs," she instructed me.

I lay back in the bath, tingling all over. I felt warm again, and strangely happy. Pig.


(This has never happened... yet)
2/12/2010 2:32:49 PM
I used to think THE most boring start-up question in the world online is "are you shaved?" because, oh for god's sake: I'm at the other end of the Internet, what do you care? If this ever turns into RL, shaving is something very easily ordered or carried out, so what do you care? It's a boring question.

Now I think the most boring start-up question in the world is "Give me a pic!" Of course anyone dishonest can have a pic or two to hand to share, so it's not as if that will ensure that you actually know what the person on the other side of the Internet looks like.

All it does in my case is ensure that there's a dull, dull dialogue while the Domme tries to convince me that I really, really ought to break my usual rule of "no pic on first chat" while I sit there getting gradually more and more irritated, because instead of asking interesting, useful questions and getting to know me, the Domme is wasting her time and mine for something that will be of no use if she got it, and that she won't, in any case, get.

Admittedly I suppose she finds out that I'm a stubborn pig when my limits are set, but "no pic on first chat" is a reasonable enough limit - why does it have to be this way?

I only want to share pics with women who are interested in me. To know if she's interested in me, I want to talk with her. If she opens the dialogue with "give me a pic" (or "are you shaved").... it's pretty likely that she's just lost my interest.

2/12/2010 11:41:05 AM
I'd never got to play pig with the same person so often, so regularly. Every week, usually on a Tuesday evening, instead of meeting for coffee, I'd go over to her place. She'd cook me a meal. She'd bought bowls. I'd strip off when I got there, and spend the next couple of hours on hands and knees. I'd eat what she gave me to eat - porridge with bits and scraps of her leftovers, never exactly tasty but always warm and filling - and she'd stand and watch me. Then she'd eat her own evening meal, usually sitting on the couch watching TV, while I lay on my belly on the floor in front of her.  I could get up and trot about the room on all fours, drink from the bowl of water she provided. This went on for weeks, and I was happy: looking forward to each evening, missing it when she occasionally cancelled, rearranging every other appointment to make sure I could be there on the evening she had time for me.

She rang me and asked if I'd like to come round on Sunday afternoon - come for lunch, she said, stay for the afternoon, I'll see you get your dinner before I take you home.

She made me wait - on all fours by an empty bowl in the kitchen - till she had had her Sunday lunch before she fed me mine, and my swill included scraps from her plate that I saw her scrape into my bowl, as well as a fresh teabag from the cup of tea she made, to sit and drink while she watched me gobble my meal.

"If you want to stop this," she said, and gave me a safeword.

Then she put a collar on me, and clipped a leash to it, and led me to her garage. I followed her, wondering what would happen. She opened up the boot of her car and tapped inside it. "In."

I looked up at her.

"I'm going to pack your clothes in the car," she said. "If you change your mind, safeword and we'll stop."

I trusted her. She'd put a blanket in the boot of her car. I curled up on it, naked, and she unleashed me and closed the boot down: I was locked naked in the dark.

A few minutes later, she drove off. I curled up tighter around myself, wondering if I'd been a fool - but finding it hard to think at all. Some part of me was thinking that the only wrong thing about this was that she'd given me a safeword and told me  I could end it any time: I was really just a pig being transported, she shouldn't have told me anything at all.

When the boot opened, we were outdoors. It was a quiet clearing at the end of a forest track: the road had been very bumpy for the past few minutes, and I saw why: it was just two mud lines with a grass line between them.

"This is private ground," she said. "I know the owners, and they're away this weekend. No one will be here but us." She said all this as she helped me out of the car: I went to my hands and knees, and she clipped the leash back on and tethered me to the car bumper.

I had never been a pig out of doors before, except for a few minutes at a time and alone - but always I had loved being naked out of doors, especially knowing I would get muddy and dirty. It was quite warm.

She picked up a picnic hamper with a blanket, locked up, and untethered the pig from the car. She walked down the road and pig trotted after her.

I wanted to go slow, to enjoy all the sensations of being a pig outdoors - the squelch of mud against my foretrotters and hindtrotters, the brush of grass against my udders and belly. But she tugged on the leash, impatient, and I had to follow.

There was a good big mud puddle near where she dropped the blanket, on a dry patch of sunny grass, sheltered by bushes.  She unclipped the leash from my collar, and spread the blanket out.

"You run off and play, pig," she said. "I'll whistle when I want you." She showed me the pink whistle, and blew on it. She lay down on the blanket, taking out her book, and I realised I really was free.

At first I just trotted round nosing at things, enjoying being naked as a pig out of doros. But the mud puddle kept calling me. I'd played in mud, in paddling pools, but not like this: this looked rich and squishy and filthy dirty. I went in. Not that deep - I could roll over on to my back in it and the mud didn't come too high to be uncomfortable - but splashy and cool and comfortable.

Something in pig changed. Pig went belly down and squirmed in the mud, wriggling and rolling over, getting mud well in. Pig squirmed and splashed and rolled, enjoying piggy wallow so much pig heard the first whistle without realising it, and only answered to the second.

Pig trotted out of the wallow and over to the human who sat on the blanket, watching pig. Human gave pig a piece of sweet cake as a treat, but tethered pig to a sapling with the leash to stop pig coming on blanket or touching human.

Kind lovely human put down a bowl filled with tasty swill, and pig ate greedily. Human refilled the bowl and pig ate more. Pig full and happy. Pig wanted to wallow more, and tugged at leash and whined. Human put down more swill and pig ate greedily, belly full. Human rolled pig over and prodded pig belly where grass had rubbed mud off the porky flesh, handling pig firmly.

Pig wanted to shit and whined to let human know, squirming piggy bottom. Human took leash and led pig off into woods: when pig felt urge, pig stopped and spread hams. Human waited as pig pissed and shit, then covered the mess up with dead leaves and led pig back to the clearing. Pig tugged on leash and whined to go back in the wallow: human ignored pig, tethering pig to sapling and beginning to pack up basket and blanket.

Pig realised that the afternoon was going to end and pig would be taken home. Pig tugged hard at leash and broke free, plunging into wallow and rolling, squirming happily in the mud. But came to whistle, hoping to be rewarded with another treat. Human stuffed a whole bar of chocolate into pig mouth, gripped pig's collar, and began to thrash pig's bottom and hams with a stick human had picked up.

Pig dropped the chocolate and squealed. Human was angry. Pig didn't try to struggle or get away, but the thrashing hurt pig and pig writhed and squealed. When human was done, she pointed to the chocolate on the ground, and pig picked it up in her mouth again and trotted back to the car obediently, leashed and good pig. Chocolate tasted good.

Human helped pig back into boot of car. Closed boot down. Pig lay in darkness smelling of mud and tasting chocolate, belly still full. Pig happy.

(This has never happened... yet.)
2/12/2010 5:07:34 AM
The next time my old school friend contacted me for "coffee", she suggested a Starbucks. We found a couple of chairs in a quiet corner, and talked as we usually did, until she said "Are you... closeted about being a pig? Who have you told?"

"No one except people 'in the life'" I said, blushing.

"Really? Well, you know I wouldn't tell anyone." She looked at me. "Why did you tell me?"

"I guess I wanted to find out how ... an ordinary person would react."

She laughed. "I'm not sure it worked," she said cryptically. "You know I'm basically straight, right?"

"Yes."

"Well... I still am. But ... I'd really like to watch you doing that again."

I went bright red, all over - I could feel the heat under my clothes.

"You - you would?"

"Yes." She met my eyes. "I don't find you attractive sexually. I don't want to have sex with you. But I liked watching you ... eat the food I gave you. Do you always wear clothes?"

"No," I said in a very small voice.

She'd bought a muffin, but hadn't eaten it. She broke off a piece and held it out to me, waving my hand back. I reached forward, understanding what she wanted - what I wanted - and took it from her hand with my mouth.

"I'd like to meet you more often," she said, sounding more confident. "At your place. Or mine. Feed you... the kind of things you like. You want that?"

I nodded. I was afraid she'd laugh and tell me she was joking, but she held out the rest of the muffin to me, and smiled when I took it in my mouth.

"Okay. Next week. My place?"

We settled a time. She still looked pleased when she left.

(this has never happened... yet)
2/11/2010 7:41:02 AM
There's a cage in my bedroom. A big cage, made for a big dog. Mail-order, not that expensive. I put a folded blanket inside it, and that's where I sleep.

During the day I have to be human. At home, I can eat meals wherever I'm happiest.

At night, I can sleep naked in my cage.

A friend from school was visiting, we were drinking tea in the living room, and she asked to use the bathroom. She was always nosy even as a kid, and on her way back from the bathroom, she peeked into the bedroom... and I know what she saw: a nice tidy bed that hadn't been slept on, and a cage with a blanket inside.

She asked me about it. "Do you have a dog?"

I blushed. I went pink as a pig. She looked at me with real interest.

"What's embarrassing about having a dog cage? Where's your pet? What sleeps there?"

I sat there and I thought, well, she was nosy but she wasn't a gossip. I want to tell someone. Maybe I can tell her.

"It's my cage... I sleep there. When I'm being a pig."

"What?" She thought it was funny.

"All my life I had this need to be a pig..." I explained how I like to be down on all fours, naked, eating from a bowl. How I feel more comfortable now sleeping naked in the cage than in the bed.

She nodded and we went back to drinking tea. She didn't say anything for a while. Then she said, "So if I wasn't here - if you were alone - what would you be doing?"

I went red again. She'd asked the question just right, like a kindly Dominant. As far as I know at school she wasn't into girls.

"I'd - "

I went bright red again and looked shyly down into my cup.

"Tell me," she said.

"I'd be on the floor," I told her. "I'd probably crawl. I'd be naked. I'd drink from a bowl."

"Even with no one there to see?"

"It's not totally a sex thing," I said. "Not even mostly. I just want to be a pig."

She nodded. "Can I see the bowl?"

I keep them in the kitchen, two big deep bowls that each hold two pints.

She held them and turned them over in her hands and looked at me and then sort of smiled. "Do you know, I was going to ask you to let me see?"

I went red. "I'd - probably have shown you."

"Would you feel more comfortable like that?" she asked me, sounding quite concerned.

I nodded.

"Go on then." She filled a bowl with water and put it down on the floor.

I went down on hands and knees and drank from it. Can't drink like a human: big greedy gulps of water, snorted up.

"And then you eat from this bowl... why don't you stay down there and I'll fix you a snack."

She chopped some apples, and broke up some pieces of bread, and put the bowl down. I ate them, quickly.

"That went fast." She sounded thoughtful. She bent down and put her hand on my back. I felt her fingers dig in a little as if she were prodding my fat, just for a moment. "Of course you probably eat more than that. And it's not a very big meal for a pig. Would you like me to fix you something better?"

I looked up, startled. She looked nothing but sympathy and concern... and curiosity.

"I'd really like to see you eat something that was a bit more like swill," she said. "And you must be quite hungry. Why don't I fix you up some porridge - and I'll add some scraps to it?"

I nodded, speechlessly. She patted my head.

It didn't take her more than two or three minutes to cook some rolled oats in the microwave and prepare some scraps. I keep a bowl of leftovers in the fridge. When she put the bowl down in front of me, I saw she had broken open the two teabags and mixed them into the swill.

"Can you eat that?" she asked curiously.

For answer, I put my head down and began gobbling at the food - big gulping mouthfuls, grunting as I pushed my face into it. I heard her laugh, with eagerness and delight and curiosity satisfied.

"You really are a pig," she said. "Now... why don't you show me how you sleep?"

(This has never happened... yet)
2/6/2010 6:12:59 PM
She seduced me with food.

I told her all about my fantasies about being a pig. She loved them, or she seemed to.

She would ask me round and get me to eat big swill meals out of a bowl from the floor. Macaroni and cheese was her favourite for me, lots of it, and she would sit and watch me eat and rub my belly and encourage me to go on.

she would play with me, making me wear a pig mask and a pig tail. letting me sleep in a cage. she wanted me to move in. to let her own me for real.

when i agreed i thought it would be paradise.

she stripped me naked and put me in lacy underwear, too small, so i bulged over it, she put me down on the floor as i whined and smacked me hard and prodded my bulges and put a belly-strap round my plump belly. i squealed and she slid a gag into my mouth, with a tube mouthpiece, and as i squirmed she took my forelegs and fastened them into a set of stocks.

"I don't like pig play," she told me. "I like fattening pigs. now I've got you where I want you."

she fastened my head up to a frame and showed me a bag of liquid food. "I know what your belly can take and I'm going to expand you. You're getting this through the gag all the time." She hung it up and fastened the end to the mouthpiece. A dribble of liquid food filled my mouth and i swallowed. the tube went on dribbling. She prodded my belly with firm, hard fingers, rolling the fat between her hands and smiling.

"You'll only have the gag taken out to sleep - or when I want to handfeed you. I'm not interested in your pig games. I'm just going to fatten you. Ready for showing. There's a pig fair in a few months. Forcefeeding will get you fat enough to show, pig."

(I once met someone who threatened to do this to me. I wouldn't take her up on it, but I can't pretend it wasn't an exciting thought.)

2/6/2010 5:02:29 PM
"Fat pig," she says, almost tenderly. Her hands explore my body. "Oh yes. What a fine plump pig you are." She looks at me and raises her eyebrows. "What is a pig doing wearing clothes?"

Hastily I strip, fold my clothes, stuff them away. I know we arranged i would be naked and a pig all the time this weekend, but somehow i wasn't expecting it. Somehow it hit me in the gut. Wristwatch. All the contents of my pockets. My specs fold up and go in the case.

I go down on all fours. The garage is cold. She walks round me. I spread my hams wide. She chuckles. I hear her putting on gloves.

She stuffs my asshole with grease. it feels cold. she pushes a buttplug in.

i grunt as the plug fills my hole. she fits pink pads on knees and elbows, strapping them on, lifting each pig leg in turn. i can't get up when she's done. i follow her at an awkward four-legged gait. she lifts my head and cuts roughly at my hair with barber's scissors. she uses a barber's clippers to cut the hair more closely.

a whack on my piggy bottom tells me to move. i crawl as directed. she takes me from the garage into the garden, not the house. she whacks her pig into the pen.

there's swill in the trough. i trot over to it. porridge with scraps of leftovers. i put my face into it to eat, gobbling and gulping, taking big piggy snorts of air as i lift my face out of the food, wanting to fill piggy belly...

i hadn't known she meant to be this real...

(this has never happened... yet)
1/17/2010 6:14:05 AM
Photos I don't believe in.

What is it with people who demand a photo before anything else?

Before I agree to take anything anywhere serious, I want to be convinced that someone is real.

Not only that this is really a woman, not a man, but real.

That while they get off on treating me as a pig, that they get this is fantasy/fetish, this is not real life. Read my journals, they're fantasies, eroticized daydreams. They have not happened.

Photos have nothing to do with that. Conversation establishes it: long-standing interaction: being willing to come back and back and be the same.
1/9/2010 5:37:43 AM
"I'm going to show you how I don't have to strip you to make you an animal," my Owner said.

She was smiling at me. She could say "You're a pig" to me at any time, and from then on until she released me or pig safeworded there would be nothing but a pig slave.

She hadn't said it. She had me sit down on one of the human chairs in the kitchen, still fully clothed, and she handed me a pint glass of cold water. "Drink it all," she said.

I drank it. She nodded, took the glass back, and refilled it - this time with juice from a big jug.

"Drink it all."

It was salty-sweet - I just realised, finishing the last drop, that it was  the rehyrdrating mix.

The next glass was water again.

Three pints of liquid sloshing in my guts. I felt bloated and full.

She handed me another glass of the rehydrating mix.

I hesitated. She looked at me smiling.

"Permission to speak?" I wasn't a pig right now.

"No. Just drink it."

I drank the pint of liquid. I was squirming in my seat, my gut felt full and swollen.

She bent down and prodded at my belly through my clothes. "Good," she said.

She still hadn't told me I was a pig.

"Just sit there," she added. She leaned back against the counter and watched me clinically as I sweated and twitched.

"Another pint of water," she said after a few minutes. She filled the glass at the tap and handed it to me. "Drink it."

I whimpered: I wanted to be on all fours, being beaten as I drank from my trough, or head held and mouth gagged open with a tube feeding the liquid into my stomach.

I drank. My hips jerked. I could feel the pressure building up inside me, in my gut and bladder. I should be on all fours for this, my Owner had told me to sit here, I couldn't disobey her but I wanted, needed, her to tell me I was a pig.

She leaned back against the counter and watched me again, as I sat and squirmed and sweated.

"Good," she said, after a little while. "Now, another pint."

I cried out. No words, just anguished squealing. She chuckled a little, but pushed the glass into my hands, and waited till I lifted it to my mouth and drank obediently, crying as I felt the cold liquid go down into my already-swollen gut.

When she leaned back against the counter to watch again, I could barely see her. I was jerking and twitching, mouth open, crying, hips jerking back and forth involuntarily as if my Owner had put my tail in, but I was clothed, sitting up, and I was still human... still human...

...until I felt my bladder begin to let loose its load. I farted and pissed myself, and my Owner smiled.

"Good," she said, sounding pleased.

I squealed, mouth open, letting loose piss and shit, helplessly...

...and was lying sideways, off the chair at last, unable to help myself. I felt my Owner's hands on me, tilting my head up to make her pig look at her.

"I told you there would come a time I didn't need to use words to transform you," she said, and petted my pig flesh through the human clothes.

Pig lies on her belly, tangled in wet, smelly clothes, feeling her Owner cut her loose from them before Owner drives pig out to the pen where she can be hosed down...


(This has never happened... yet)
1/3/2010 12:17:20 PM
Thinking about the most time-consuming part of being a pig... being penned or caged.

A pig is just an animal. When the human who owns the pig doesn't want to play with it, she will keep the pig clean and watered, feed the pig as needed, but otherwise, the pig is left alone.

Never done it to this extent that for hours or for days pig was alone in pig's pen, noticed only when feeding time came around... but think about it...

...how it would be:

in a pen, hearing human voices over the pen walls, always hoping the humans would walk over and give the pig something to eat, prod the pig's flesh, or decide to play with the pig. Very isolated, very much an animal, pig can move around, sleep in the straw, find scraps in the trough. Going beyond boredom into animalhood, a mindless state of appreciation of piggy contentment.

pig in a cage: much more closely confined, comfortingly unable to move, able only to squirm when touched. Ignored but probably with humans moving within sight or sound. Endlessly excited, because caged, endlessly frustrated: going beyond excitement or boredom into the mindless state of complete helplessless: pig in a cage.

Being left alone is part of being controlled and owned. My Owner would have other things to do: would play with the pig only when this suited her plans.
1/1/2010 7:42:33 AM
Hurting me

not for the sake of pain
but to see your pig's flesh jiggle

Caning me

not to hear me squeal
but to see the lines drawn across your pig's rump

Spanking me

not to hear me grunt
but to see the red marks your hands leave
to feel how the pig flesh shakes under you hands

Gagging me

open mouthed
not to let me scream
but to smell my fear
as you push the tube into my mouth
and fill my belly with your food

Plugging me

not to hurt
not to fill
not to watch me squirm
but for your pleasure
knowing you own me
inside and out
12/31/2009 7:29:18 AM
Happy new year to all with the same respectful honesty you extend to others.

...if that sounds like it might be a little sarky, it's probably because I'm holding back. :@)
12/2/2009 4:20:29 AM
Thinking about this again, about the same thing... the transformation, the real life existence with someone who can turn me into a pig.

On all fours and naked. Gagged to teach me not to try to speak. (Being gagged puts me into pigspace faster than anything else, except maybe being caged. And being gagged is a lot faster than being caged.)

I own a ballgag just the right size for my mouth. I wear it sometimes, alone, just to remind myself where I want to be. What I want to be. Like thrashing my fat hams and rump myself, it feels good but it's at once so close and so far away from being where I really want to be.

On all fours. Naked. Just a pig, handled and prodded and fed, squealing and grunting, gobbling swill down to fill my fat piggy belly. Whacked to make me move where you want.

Discussed with the other humans, maybe, but pig is just an animal. One of the reasons I love contacting non-English speakers on this site is that I think about being naked in their house, penned and tied, and they're talking about me and, no more than any pig, i don't understand what's being said: only the tone of voice and the handling.

11/29/2009 6:46:00 AM
Didn't have time for anything fun over the past month or so. But, it's coming up to Christmas... who wants a Christmas shopping story where the Mistress comes home with a pet she didn't mean to buy? :-D
10/5/2009 1:03:41 PM
The Fair

The big annual fair in Baguio City has nothing quite like it. There is buying and selling - not only of human animals, but of toys, trinkets, food, collars, whips, carts, cages - but the crown of the fair are the competitions.

I had heard of the competitions before - they are famous all over the world - but I had never thought I would see them.  On the second, third, fourth, fifth, and sixth day of the fair, the prizes are awarded for the fattest pet, the fastest pet, the best-groomed, the best-costumed, the most obedient (this rests on the pet's behaviour from the first to the fifth days, as well as the obedience trial on the sixth), and on the last day, the best pet for 2009: open to winners/runners up from the first five competitions.

I knew my owner was going to the Fair: she said nothing about taking me along, but I hoped she might on at least one day, walk me on the leash at her side, allow others to admire her plump pink piggy.

The first I knew she would take me was on the first day of the Fair, when one of her human slaves dragged me from the pen where I slept when my Owner did not require me in her bed. I was muddy and dirty, and I was hosed down with cold water before I was leashed and led up to the patio where my Owner was enjoying breakfast.

She directed her slaves to dress me. Pads that bound my legs were fastened on to my knees so that I could crawl distances over rough ground: pads that made my forefeet look more trotterlike were fastened on.

Usually one of the slaves gives me an enema before the butt plug is fitted. This time my butthole was greased up without being cleaned out and the fat plug was eased into my ass, and fastened on with the pink harness. Finally, the earplugs were fitted and the hood was slid on over my head, and the tube gag fitted into my mouth.

I was on all fours, hooded and stuffed and gagged, deafened to human speech, just a pig.

...and I knew I must be going to the Fair.

This has never happened... and there's no such Fair...

8/18/2009 3:57:29 PM
I wake up in bed next to my Owner: I am curled on my side naked, still with the pink butt plug up my plump bottom.

My Owner is eating her breakfast, brought to her on a tray by one of her human slaves: I smell the food and oink to be handfed, a greedy pig.

My Owner pulls the covers back and puts her hand on my belly, prodding me and petting me. "My pink piggy," she muses. "Slave, is my piggy getting a bit skinny?"

"It's not for me to comment, Mistress," the human slave says.

"I think my pig's tummy needs to be fatter." My Owner  prods me firmly and I grunt. I am beginning to feel a bit anxious. My Owner's fingers fondle and pinch at my porky flesh. "Oh yes," she says fondly. "I think it's time for piggy to be fattened."

"I couldn't comment, Mistress," the human slave says, very correctly, but I can hear in the voice that the human slave is going to enjoy this. That means I won't.

"Leash piggy and take her to the pen and feed her," my Owner says. "Your sister slave can run my bath for me." She smiles down at me. "Piggy will need to have her butt cleaned, and you can do that before you feed her, slave."

The leash is clipped to the collar round my neck and the slave tugs at it: I get up on all fours with a squealing grunt, and my Owner slaps my bottom, laughing. "Good piggy."

The human slave takes the butt plug out when I'm in the pen, and holds me with a knee in the small of my back as a two-pint enema is forced into me, then emptied out of me into the drain of the pen. I squeal, and the slave slaps me.

The human slaves of my Owner are allowed to slap me all they like whenever my Owner isn't there, but they're not allowed to leave bruises. Only my Owner is allowed to mark me. Sometimes I provoke them to try to get them to hit me harder, so that I'll bruise and they'll be punished, but not today. I don't know what the slave will do to me today, but I'm already scared.

When I'm emptied out the slave puts the leash on again and takes me from the pig pen to a cage: I have seen this cage before but never been in it. The side walls and the front go into the house - into the kitchen, I think - and are made of one-way glass, and the top and back are made of wire mesh. The floor is padded. All I can see when I'm driven into the cage is my own pig reflection, and a tube with a mouthpiece fixed to it. The top lifts off, so the slave can reach down and fit the mouthpiece into my mouth and then strap on a head-harness to keep it there. It's a gag and a feeding tube combined. The floor is padded: it's quite comfortable.

The top is fitted back down. I see in the glass the slave bending over me, sliding a plug up my bottom, guiding me into a comfortable all-fours position, and then closing the wire back and fixing the butt plug to the door.

"We'll be able to see you," the slave tells me. "Pig. As we work. The food tank for this cage is in the kitchen, and we'll keep making swill for it out of the scraps." The slave prods my bottom, hard, not affectionately as my Owner would. "You get fat on our scraps, piggy. We're going to watch your belly getting full. Mistress wants you fattened." The slave moves away, but comes back. "This cage is made so it can get wider, pig. You won't ever get too fat to fit into it."

The gag fills my mouth. I squeal. I stare ahead through the dark glass, working my mouth around the gag, not knowing which of my Owner's slaves are watching me and laughing at me. I'm hungry and want my swill.

Soon it comes: liquid filling the mouth, running down into my belly. Can't stop, can only swallow. My belly fills, I can't even squeal. I love the hot food filling me. I squirm on the fat plug filling my bottom, excited by being fattened like a pig.

This has never happened... yet. Thank you Mistress Midnight Manor for telling me what would happen to me when You were busy.

8/14/2009 2:17:43 PM
My Owner has other human slaves she makes more use of, but i am the pet pig she plays with and cuddles.

She has fattened me to make me more useful as a bedwarmer: she enjoys having a fat pink pig to cuddle and pet on cold nights.

She has me washed to make me clean from the dirt out in the pigpen:

first of all one of the other slaves hoses me down outside, to clean off most of the mud and bits of hay

then she has me washed down more thoroughly, more intimately, and scented with lavender or cinnamon. i am led into her bedroom on all fours of course, naked and pink and plump, and she coos over me and slaps at my porky flesh and giggles to see my fat jiggle as she slaps me. she's tired, so she takes out the bedtime pig tail and fits me with it: a pink plastic buttplug with pink leather straps that she fastens on carefully, clipping them tight.

I grunt and moan as the buttplug penetrates me, and she laughs, clapping her hands, calling me her piggy, and rolling me about the bed to watch me squirm on the plug. She smacks my fat white belly, until all the white plump flesh there is red and stinging, and she rolls me on to my belly and fondles the curly piggy tail that falls from the end of the plug, tickling the backs of my hams.

"Such a good piggy." She loves to prod my flesh and play with me in this way: she doesn't often use me sexually when she wants me to cuddle at night, leaving me squirming on the buttplug in a state of frustrated pig arousal, but this time she decides she wants to fuck herself on me, so she fastens the strapon to my groin, the pink toy she prefers when she uses me in this way.

She guides me to embrace her with my forelegs and my fat hams, and calls me her sweet piggy as she guides the strapon into her cunt. Then she begins to smack at my bottom and play with the buttplug, pushing it deeper into me and twisting, making me squirm and jiggle, fucking herself on me. I'm squealing with excitement and frustration as she bites me on my ear and my neck, jerking my hips, grunting with pig arousal, but my Owner is playing with me as a toy. She controls my movements, and soon she comes, digging her hands into my flesh hard at the moment of her climax, and biting down on my shoulder. She can smell and feel how excited I am, and she fondles me, laughing at me sleepily, petting me and calling me her good piggy.

If I squirm or wriggle too much once my Owner is asleep, I might wake her and she will have me sent back to the pen. So I lie still, a good obedient pig, listening to my human Owner go to sleep, knowing I am owned and branded her animal and she will never let me go.

This has never happened... yet.

8/11/2009 8:27:48 PM
Being a prisoner...

I read recently on a Domme's profile that she wants a willing volunteer to be her prisoner for "one to three weeks" - locked in a room, bound, gagged, and blindfolded.

It's not piggy farm captivity, but it would be a similiar kind of discipline, and it is awfully appealling - held prisoner, denied speech, restricted movement, fed at the will of my captor.

8/5/2009 6:42:53 PM
Is it mean to play games with male Doms who don't bother to read the full profile before they write a message or send a chat request?

...yes, it probably is.

I should be punished for it. Unfortunately, there probably isn't a female Top or Domme or Mistress on this site who would be willing to do so... given that we all seem to get pestered by men who don't read the profile!
7/25/2009 7:11:04 AM
"Here's the deal," she said. "Whenever I want, I can turn you into a pig. I do it by telling you 'You're a pig' and from then on, you are just a pig - just livestock, an animal. You can stop me by using the safeword, but once you're a pig, you're a complete pig - no rights, no limits, no choices, until I tell you you're no longer a pig, or if you transform yourself back into a human by using the safeword - or by taking out the gag. I'll never tie you so you can't take the gag out of your own mouth. But if you do that, we'll stop for a day at least, until you can explain to me why you wanted it to stop - because you really want to be a pig, don't you?"

"Yes," I said.

"You have to trust me that I won't transform you into a pig except when it's safe for you to become one. Because I won't allow any exceptions. The moment I tell you that you're a pig, you do what a pig does - nothing else. You understand?"

"I go down on all fours," I said. "I should be naked..."

"If you're wearing clothes, I'll remove them," she told me.

"I eat only swill, as a pig eats... I won't be allowed to speak..."

"You won't be able to speak. You're a pig."

I swallowed. I slid down from the chair on to my butt, rolled over and was on all fours.

She cut my clothes from my body. She took her time about it, using a sharp knife, careful not to mark me. She fondled and slapped me, saying out loud - as if to herself - how plump her pig was, how nicely the porky fat jiggled.

Later she cleaned me - using a scrubbing brush - and she fed me a mass of pasta and scraps from a bowl, paddling me when I didn't eat gluttonously enough.

Later still, as I curled in the cage, trying to sleep, spoiled pig not used yet to sleeping in an animal cage, she prodded me through the bars with a cane. "My pig," she said softly, fondly.

This has never happened... yet.

7/18/2009 8:07:39 AM
Waiting.

On all fours.

Naked.

It's cold - there's a draft under the door - and the hard floor hurts my knees.

On all fours. Head down. Naked. I drift, opening and closing my mouth, letting out small grunts, entering pigspace: no longer wondering how long it will be before i'm let in, because all i am is an animal, and all i need to be is here: naked because animals don't wear clothing, on all fours because how else would an animal be, penned here because my owner has no need for me to be anywhere else.

By the time my owner opens the door to let me in, no longer an impatient human, with thoughts and will... all that is waiting for her is her pig.

This has never happened... yet.

7/7/2009 11:35:38 AM
"What is this?" My owner's girlfriend sounds mildly amused, maybe a bit sarcastic. "Been visiting the pet shop?"

"She's a pig," my owner says.

I'm kneeling, naked, in the middle of the floor. Whipped cream is still smeared round my mouth. I think the plug in my asshole has a tail on it. The gag in my mouth is pink as a pig.

"Well, I can see that," my owner's girlfriend says. I can just see her moving, walking round me, with my peripheral vision. "A nice plump pink pig. Well, well. What made you think I wanted one of those?"

"Well, you know the masochist I've been playing with - a bit of bondage, a bit of paddling? That's her - turns out she has some quite extensive fantasies about being dehumanised and made into a pig. Which she shared with me over a cup of tea and a scone. So, I thought..." my owner's voice trailed off, and she chuckled. "Come on. You've talked often enough about wanting to fatten a slave - dehumanisation, caging, force-feeding. This fat pig wants just that. She's begging for it."

"I was thinking of beginning with someone thinner. What kind of status does she have?"

"Oh, we'll have to let her go at the end of the weekend. There's no permanent arrangement. But there's the shed out back - we could put her there, with a sandbox. She's docile and eager - and I can tell you, a little bit of pain makes her all the sweeter."

There was a pause. Finally, the other woman said thoughtfully, "I'd want to try that out. Can we leave her here for now?"

"Sure."

They went away and left me alone. Not for long: I heard footsteps, and then the sharp tip of a cane prodded me in the bottom. I gasped and moved forward.

"Good pig," the other woman said, and, as if she were getting the range, tapped me with the end of cane. She was directing me - all I had to do was move away from the taps of the cane, sharp little blows that stung.

From the sitting-room to the hall to the kitchen - I smelt food.

"Can we manage it between us?"

"Oh yes, I think so."

One of them took hold under my shoulders, the other gripped my legs. They didn't speak to me, but they lifted me, and landed me belly down on the kitchen table, covered with a plastic sheet.

I squealed through the gag.

"Good thing we're vegetarians," one of them said, "or piggy would really be panicking," the other said, and they both laughed.

They took out the gag and the plug, and left them on the table beside me. With slaps and tugs, they got me up on to all fours. My new owner pulled my head back by the hair, and looked me in the face. She had a pleasant, smiling look.

"Delightful. A real pig," she said, and paused.

I knew the pause was if I wanted to protest. I didn't want to. I wanted this so much. To be owned by someone who wanted to fatten me. Make me into a pig.

I opened my mouth and whispered "Please" and left my mouth open, wanting her to feed me.

She smiled. "Not very piggish, is it? No speaking, pig." She picked up the gag. "This is no good. Darling, would you get the open-mouth gag from the chest? Thank you."

She stood there holding my hair, staring into my face. "Oh, I'm going to enjoy this," she told me. "You're going to be fed till your belly is big and swollen. I'm going to fatten you - " 

I squirmed.

She smiled wider. "Oh, I saw that. You like that, do you? Being fattened. Being fed like a pig. Being force-fed. I'm going to enjoy that, pig, and so will you..."

The new gag had a tube instead of a ball. It slid into my mouth past my teeth, holding my jaws open. I couldn't close my mouth, and I would be unable to refuse whatever was pushed into the tube.

I wore that gag a lot, the first few weekends I was a pig...

this has never happened... yet
7/5/2009 4:53:30 AM
I always end journal entries "this has never happened... yet" (a pig never grunts and tells!) but this one COULDN'T happen.

So....

I am at home on Sunday afternoon, chatting recklessly to a pig-fancier in Australia. We've talked before about how she wishes she could import me, and I've told her that I wish it was possible.

Little do I know about the new legislation that both our governments have passed....

She tells me I can fill out an application to have myself declared pig... to have my humanness taken away from me. I can then be exported to her like any other animal. She sends me a link to the forms. I fill them in. I put her name and address in Australia down as my new owner: she stands guarantor for the cost of shipping to Australia.

With surprising speed, the forms are processed. I find myself going through a series of examinations, in a big government building, and as i am passed from place to place, gradually they treat me less and less as human. I am on all fours, naked, collared and leashed, when i am led into a final office and allowed to kneel up. A form is presented to me. it is the final consent to become legally a pig, not a human.

i sign it.

i am shoved into a packing crate, a cage with barely room to move: water is supplied through a tube, no food. the crate has opaque walls and a little window in the roof. i'm shipped to the airport, and then loaded on to the cargo hold of a plane.

i lose track of time in the crate. i'm barely aware when it's unloaded, and taken to a truck. there's a long ride from the airport. i get very thirsty.

when the crate is opened, i crawl out. there is a trough with water and i drink deep. another with food, scraps of human leavings mixed in with porridge. i gobble it greedily till i'm full.

i am in my owner's pen, a true pig at last...

never happened... couldn't happen. Thanks to MistressSarahAus for giving me the idea, though. (And happy to chat, Mistress Sarah, if you ever let me send you my phone number...)


7/4/2009 9:31:13 AM
I just got complimented on my writing... by a straight male dominant.

It was very nice to get the compliment and it was lovely to get a polite / friendly note from a male on this site for a change (because normally the only ones i hear from are the rude ones who decided not to pay attention to what my profile says i want!) but oh, how i wish for a woman who'd write to me... take an interest in me... take me in hand!

7/3/2009 2:14:42 PM
I always arrive on Friday evening. Usually at eight pm.

the mask over my face is shaped like a pig's face. the tube fills my mouth. i can taste the liquid food from the last meal.  i can't see. i can hear the people in the room, talking, laughing, eating.

I always strip in their hall. I've never worn clothes in their house except in the hall and once in their sitting-room.

i can feel the metal bars of the cage against my flesh. the bars are wide apart. sometimes people's hands come through and handle me, prod me. below the cage to right and left are tables with bottles and glasses, i can hear the clink of glass and the sound of liquid being poured.

I always assume position as soon as i'm naked. i'm just a pig then. it's normal for me to be on all fours. to be naked. speechless.

they don't talk to me. they don't need to gag me any more.

they usually don't keep me waiting in the hall for very long. one or both of them come into the hall and they put the tail plug into my bottom.

at the rear of the cage there is a plug fitted so that it goes directly into my bottom. the plug is fixed to the cage door. the cage is just exactly long enough that i am fixed there,  plugged by the gag in my mouth and the plug in my anus. i can't even squirm. i can't move. the hands that prod me and squeeze my flesh excite me, but i can only shiver when i'm touched.

then they take me through the house out through the kitchen and into the pigshed. they used to drive me with a paddle but now i'm a well-trained pig, i only get paddled if i dawdle when i smell the food in the kitchen.

they take the tail plug out in the pigshed. i don't have to wear it in the garden or the pen or the pigshed.

i hear the sound of a bell. helplessly, i know what will happen. liquid fills my mouth from the gag, i'm hungry for it. i swallow the liquid greedily, desperately. the liquid is warm and i feel it filling me. a hand on my belly. a voice says

"Look, you can actually see her stomach beginning to swell. How delicious!"

when i don't have a tail plug in, i am allowed to go when i need to go. i'm a pig, i don't control myself. when i have a tail plug in, my owners control me completely.

i swallow and swallow. the liquid keeps coming. it tastes delicious to me. i am being filled. i cannot move. my bottom is plugged and my mouth is filled. when at last the liquid stops, i am full. hands prod and slap at my belly.

"Quite a show," a voice says. A thin hand exploring my stomach, a ring and long fingernails. His fingers tap. I think I'm going to burst.

"We'll feed her once more this evening," one of my owners says.

"Can she take it?" another voice asks. "She looks quite bloated." There's no compassion in this voice: she just sounds curious.

i always spend time in the pigshed. sometimes they just drive me in there and leave me there all night. sometimes they come and take me out again after a while. i don't know and they never tell me. but i always go there first of all. when i was first their pig i spent a week in the pigshed, sleeping in the straw, eating only their scraps.

"Oh, she can take another feed," my other owner says. "We know her limits quite well. Look at her cunt, you'll see how wet she is."

tonight they came and got me out again. they took me to the big room they call the playroom.

most of the humans went away. one of my owners was talking to someone else. She sounded younger than my owner. i didn't know her.

"Does she really like it?" the younger one asked. "I can see she's excited."

they paddled me up a ramp to a high platform on wheels. there was the framework of a cage, but just an arch, no door at front or rear.

"She's just a pig, remember," my owner said. Her voice was filled with a rich satisfaction. "She may look human, but she's all pig. She's caged and fed, and she's happy as a pig."

They fitted me with a mouth gag - the sort with a tube that they use for force-feeding. They like to do that to me sometimes, to fill me up with liquid food. I watched as one of my owners fastened a mask shaped like a pig's face to the door of the cage. They spent some time adjusting the door, so that the mask fitted on to my face exactly. They fed the gag through the mouth of the mask.

"I don't know," the young voice said. But I felt her hand on me, not prodding but feeling, petting me. "I can't imagine doing this..."

I could not see what was going on, but I could feel how they were playing with my anus: they fitted me with a long butt plug, that filled and stretched my anus, and then i think they fastened it to the rear door of the cage, at the right angle so that when the door was shut, the plug would go up my bottom.

"You're the one Brad told me about," my owner exclaimed. "The young lady with ambitions to be a pig yourself." I could hear my owner smile. "My dear, we've owned this pig for several years: we only began this process - keeping her caged and feeding her through a mouth gag, plugged and caged - a few months ago. We took her through all the different elements of it separately, before we began putting it together. No one would want to do something like this to a fresh young pig like you - if you were a pig, of course."

"She'll be nicely spitted," one of my owners said.

"Just right for a luau," the other said, and laughed.

I was cold all through. I was not excited any more. I wanted to say my safeword. I wanted to stop being their pig.

"Do you want to be a pig?" my owner asked her.

I quivered. Both their hands were on me: my owner's pressed down over this new creatures.

"Everyone here is a pig-fancier. We're going to put our pig in the pen for the rest of the party after we take her out of the cage. You could join her. Just for an hour or two. Would you like that?"

They were fitting a tank on top of the cage. They were talking about how many litres it would hold. Water came through the gag into my mouth. I wasn't ready for it and it made me choke.

My hands are always free. I lifted my hands and began undoing the straps that held the mask.

"What's the pig doing?" one of my owners said.

"She's taking the gag off," the other one said. There was a note of panic in her voice. "Quick - "

"Would you like to be forced?" my owner asked.

"No - Yes," the pig girl said. "I don't know."

They could not get the plug out quickly and safely. I heard them unfasten the door. I could get loose, when the plug came out, and pull my head back, and I said the safeword.

"Do you know the party safeword?" my owner said. "Say it to me quietly."

"Marmalade."

"Okay," my owners said, almost in unison, and then Mari said "Don't worry - " and Syl said "We'll get you out, don't try to talk just now - "

They know I can't talk well when I stop being a pig. They took me out of the cage and put me in a bathrobe and took me upstairs to the spare bedroom and put me to bed, and I cried because I had failed.

"If you change your mind, or if you want to stop earlier, say the safeword. But if not, then at some point this evening, we'll have you stripped and in the pen with our pig."

When I stopped crying, they were still sitting with me. The rule is that once I say the safeword everything stops for 24 hours.

"You should go to sleep," Mari said. "We'll talk more in the morning."

"I 'm sorry," I said.

"What will she do?" the pig girl asked.

"Our pig?" my owner said. "She'll sleep. You can play with her if you like, but she'll be tired. Mostly, the pig fanciers will play with you."

They would lean over the wall around the pen and tap her with paddles, make her run: i would please them if i caught her and held her for the paddles. her hand felt light on my flesh. she might roll me on to my back and try to distract the pig fanciers by handling me, playing with me as one sow with another.

"Nothing to be sorry about," Syl said. "You're just a pig. Go to sleep, piglet. Don't worry."

I slept. And in the morning, I could tell them: they said luau. They said spitted. I was too deeply into being a pig and it was too much: I hate Dolcett, all of it, and I couldn't tell myself it was okay, I just knew I had to stop it.

"Good pig," said Syl. They were sitting on the edge of the bed, drinking coffee. I was curled up under the covers, still inside the bathrobe. "I'm proud you could stop it and tell us."

"It was the words. And the water, I wasn't ready for it, it made me choke," I said.

"We can ring a bell to signal feeding time," Mari said.

"A pavlovian pig," Syl said, amused.

"I liked the cage," I said.

"We could tell," Mari said. "We'll do it again next weekend. For today, I think we'll loose the pig in the garden. The sun is shining, and I think we can have some fun with the hose."

Later they fed me again, and when i was full and wobbly, they loosed me from the cage and paddled me to the pen. i crawled with belly and udders brushing on the floor. i got to the pen, and felt the mud of my wallow with relief; i could lie down on my belly in the mud, and roll and wallow, and sleep, a tired muddy pig.

i was petted and praised by the humans. the new pig was squealing as she was stripped and driven to the pen. i hoped we would both sleep together in the pigshed, soon.

Syl smiled at me. "When we get the cage just right, piglet, we're going to put you on display at a party. With all our pig-fancier friends. You're going to make us proud, aren't you, pig?"

I crawled out of bed and out of the human bathrobe, and crouched at their feet, looking up at them with animal eyes.

This has never happened... yet.
7/3/2009 1:45:29 AM
We were sitting in her house having afternoon tea with scones. Very proper. Cream and jam and butter.

"You've said you want me to make you into a pig," she said finally.

I nodded.

She glanced over the table at me. "Our safe word is 'marmalade'" she said.  "If you try to say anything else when you are told to be a pig, I will gag you. You can always remove the gag. Removing the gag or saying the safe word stops it all for 24 hours - is that clear?"

I nodded. I was mid-way between squirming with excitement and shivering with fear, held quite still. "Yes."

"If I decide you don't really want to be a pig, I'll stop. Forever. Is that clear?"

"Yes."

"I require you to say this out loud: tell me you want to be a pig. Then beg me to make you into one."

"I want to be a pig," I said.

She nodded, watching me. "Yes, my dear."

"Please, Ma'am - will you make me into a pig?"

She looked at me, and sat back into her chair, drinking her tea. "Not very enthusiastic, my dear."

"Please, will you make me be a pig?" I could hardly speak, I was so on edge with longing. Surely she couldn't turn me away now.

"Oh, do you really want it, my girl?"

She sounded amused, and she had called me 'girl', not pig or sow.

"Please!" I said frantically. "Please, I want it so much - I want to be a pig, I want you to make me be a pig - I can't bear it, being like this - I want you to make me be your pig, your animal - I want this - " I snorted suddenly, a grunt I make usually only when on all fours being fed, which this lady had not yet done to me.

She smiled.  She took up a scone from the table, and broke it into pieces on a plate. She got up gracefully and put the plate down on the floor, a few feet from where she sat.

I was fully-clothed and we had negotiated no scene this afternoon. I stared at her.

"If you really want to be a pig, down on all fours now and go eat that, and lick the plate clean."

I slid off my chair on to all fours, crawling across the carpet to the plate. I take longer to go into pig headspace usually: but this was right.

I put my head down to the plate and ate the scone. She hadn't ordered me to move, so I didn't, I stayed on all fours.

She came to me and caught at my hair to tug my head up, letting go when it was clear I knew I had to lift my face to her. She was holding the cream-dish in her other hand. Without a word to me, she tapped on my mouth to make me open it, and began to push cream into my mouth with her hand: she got cream around my mouth, and wiped her hand on my face and hair.

"Good pig," she said, when she was done. "You'll never eat any other way in my presence again. Either on all fours, or I will handfeed you. You will open your mouth only to be fed, or to be gagged, or for sexual use, if it pleases me."

She took the plate and herself away, and I stayed on all fours, feeling awkward in my clothing, very aware of how my state had changed. I was a pig in her room. She came back a little while later.

I felt the cold edge of the knife she held cutting my clothing away from me, and let out a grunt of relief and misery. Her knife did not cut me: her hand petted and prodded my pigflesh. She slapped my bottom several times, to see the flesh there jiggle I suppose. When I was made naked, I felt her fingers at my anus pushing in something cold and greasy, and then the pressure of a buttplug. 

"I will have you stay like that to be examined," she told me at last. "My partner will be home in a couple of hours, and she will want to look over our new pig."

"What - ?" She had not mentioned a girlfriend.

The ball-gag in her hand went into my mouth, almost mid-sentence. "You will wait here to be examined, pig. You may lie down on your belly or get up on all fours, but you may not move from this spot." She strapped the gag on: I remembered what she had said. To take it off would be like using my safeword. Stopping the scene.

But... a girlfriend?

Then I thought: I'm a pig. Not a human. She's my owner. My owner has a human partner. Two humans have a pig pet.

I leaned my head into her hand, and looked up at her with animal eyes.


This has never happened... yet.
4/19/2009 11:01:34 AM

You know how they always say, meet first in a safe neutral place with witnesses? Well, this is how a Domme can test and claim a piggygirl like me even in a restaurant.

The place we met is a nice Italian restaurant - I suggested we meet there because I know it well and because I knew the service is slow; we'd have plenty of time to talk. Of course I was there promptly. She joined me a few minutes later, and leaned across the table to take my hand.


She didn't shake my hand: she held it, running her thumb over my plump palm, and said so quietly I don't think anyone else in the restaurant heard: "You want to be my pig, don't you?"



I could hardly breathe. She let go of my hand.



"Answer me," she said, still quietly.



"Yes," I said. "Yes I do.


"Then you'll do exactly what I tell you, won't you?"



"Yes," I said, breathlessly.



"Good," she said, and smiled at me. She had a lovely smile. "I've never owned a pig before, but I'm looking forward to it ever so much."



I squirmed. I couldn't help it. She smiled still more. I was so relieved when the waiter arrived with our menus and the pastis that she had ordered at the bar for us both.



She took both. I had expected her to order for me, of course. She glanced down the list of dishes. "Now, my pig is vegetarian, correct?"



"Yes," I said.



"Pigs don't use cutlery," she said. "So what I order for you, you'll eat with your hands. Of course I should have you put your snout in the bowl and have you gobble it up, but not here and now."



"Yes," I squeaked. I was shaking.



She smiled. "Now, let's just talk. What do you do for a living, dear?"



We talked of nothings for ten minutes - and the waiter came back.



"We'll both have a bowl of minestrone to begin with. I'd like a glass of Barbaresco: please bring a carafe of tap water for my friend. I will have the braciole di maiale, and my friend will have the risotto ai funghi porcini."

The waiter went away: I knew he would not return for fifteen minutes or so. We had our aperitifs:  there was bread and olive oil on the table; he would think there was no rush. I was terrified and excited.

She smiled at me and raised her glass. "To pig farming!" she said.

I lifted my glass and drank. I was blushing all over.

"Do help yourself to the bread," she told me. "You can eat freely, without asking permission. But remember: you can use only your hands."

I ate the bread nervously, dipping it into the oil provided, sipping at my pastis.

"I have a shed in the garden," she told me. "I'm going to fit it up with a stall for my pig. Plenty of straw to keep her warm, and water for her to drink, and a big trough for her food. I know some people let their pigs into the house,  but I don't think that's appropriate, do you?"

"No," I whispered. I stuffed more bread into my mouth.

"My, you do like to eat," she said, in a pleasant tone. "I do like to see you stuff yourself. I'll feed you very well when you come to stay with me.  Very well indeed." Her voice dripped relish. "I'll really fatten you up."

When the waiter came back with the wine and water, and two bowls of minestrone, I was so excited I could hardly sit still.

My owner ate her soup delicately, watching me, as I lifted the bowl and tilted it to my mouth. It was difficult, but not impossible: the restaurant here served minestrone in deep bowls, like cups, which she obviously knew. I sucked down the hot soup into my belly, wishing there was more. I had eaten all the bread: the soup was filling me. There was still the main course ahead.

"Good pig," my owner said quietly, when I had finished the bowl. "Very good. Next time of course you will eat this on all fours."

I quivered all over. "Yes."

"Beg me," she said.

"What?" I stared.

"Oh, you don't like to beg?" She smiled. "I'll make you. You won't have any choices any more. I saw a gag in a catalogue that I think is exactly suited for my needs: it holds your mouth open with a kind of tube. When you first come to stay with me, you will be gagged with that tube and caged, not kept in a sty."

I hesitated, staring at her. "Why? I want this ... you know I want it."

"Because I want to break you," she said simply. "I want to keep you in a cage so that you cannot move, and gag you so that you have no choice about accepting the liquid food I will fill your belly with, and plug your ass so that I control you completely - what goes in, what goes out. You want to be a pig. Good, because I want to make you be a pig. Completely. No playing around. No games. I think I can do it with my cage and my gag and my plugs - I think that a piggygirl like you will break quite fast under those conditions. What do you think?"

I sat still, the idea filling my mind: that I had found someone who wanted what I wanted, so much she had ideas of her own about how to get it.

"We would need safe words," I said hesitantly.

"Of course, I'm not a barbarian," she said impatiently.  "And you will have a panic button - something you can use when you're gagged. If I hear it, we'll stop for 24 hours. Even if you beg."

"If we had the safe words," I said, "and the panic button..." I swallowed. "I could fight you."

"I'd like that." She smiled. Her voice was still quiet and even. No one but me could hear her. "I'd like it if you tried to resist me. But I don't think you could do it for very long, could you? Locked in a cage, with a gag holding your mouth open, and a plug filling you, and your owner filling your belly with hot, liquid food any time I had a mind to?"

"No," I said.

She rested her chin on her hands and smiled at me. Neither of us said anything till the waiter came back with my risotto with porcini mushrooms, and my owner's plate of pork chops.

I ate the risotto with my fingers, scooping it up and pushing it into my mouth. I knew that I would have loved it if my owner could put the bowl on the floor and watch me gobble it up. I ate gluttonously.

Like a pig.

Sadly, this has never happened...

3/1/2009 4:35:51 AM
So: still looking, though chatting with some lovely Ladies who seem like they know how to handle a pig girl...

hope soon to find myself on all fours and naked in a pen...

i love it when someone tells me she knows i am just a pig... that she won't interact with me as a human... that i will always be just an animal to her...


12/23/2008 10:41:56 AM
She makes me squeal. Like a pig. We both know it's true.

She makes me squeal when she thrashes me, using a bundle of canes. She calls this tenderising the meat. She does this often when i'm in the display cage, the steel bars cold against my skin.

She makes me squeal when she spanks and slaps my porky flesh, calling me her pig, her sow, her piece of meat. She prods my hams and belly hard with her fingers.

She makes me squeal when she feeds me, begging wordlessly for the pig swill, the mess of scraps and porridge. She likes to hear her pig squeal for the food, and then she likes to see me eat, head down, gobbling her leftovers and scraps, likes to hear me grunt and moan as i fill my belly.

She makes me squeal if i try to stop eating before i'm done. She beats me then hard, with a paddle or a belt, makes me eat and eat and lick the feeding bowl clean.

(These are the things our conversation today made me think of and hope for....Ma'am.)
12/2/2008 5:37:30 AM
"YourLilSubby" is the alternate female identity of supposedly-male Dom: SlaveWanted4Xmas. I found this out the sadly obvious way: after having given this silly wannabe Dom the brush-off, I got the following abusive e-mail from "YourLilSubby", in very similar grammatical style to SlaveWanted4Xmas:

"FUCK OFF YOU STUPID DYKE GET YOURSELF SORTED OUT AFTER ALL IF IT WASN'T FOR A MAN YOU WOULD'T BE HERE NOW TO REBUFF THEM FUCKING TWAT".

I had never been in communication with "YourLilSubby" before, and certainly won't be now... Wonder how many male "Doms" on this site have a "female" alternate identity who's a raving sub?

9/14/2008 2:29:47 AM
Thinking about cages....

Being locked into a cage. I look at the big cages pet shops sell for transporting big dogs, and I wonder how it would feel to be inside one. Or better yet inside one purpose-built for humans (or pigs) - just big enough to hold me, so my skin pressed up against the hard cold metal. Perhaps my owner beat me before she put me in the cage, reddening my plump flesh, making me squeal. My body is exposed through the bars of the cage, available to be prodded or explored, and all I can do is squirm.

I love to be locked in. Large cage or small. Perhaps a room with a squat-toilet in one corner, and a trough with running water in another. I enter the room on all fours, and am not allowed to rise from all fours in the room. It is where I am kept as a pig when my Owner does not wish to play with me. It is where I am fed and watered. Pigs are penned.

But a pig on display, caged... yes, that's even better.
7/15/2008 3:34:29 PM
Make me squeal. Like a pig.

Keep me on my hands and knees. Crawling, naked, plump pink hams spread wide. Completely vulnerable and avaialble.

Caged. When you don't want to play with me. Keep me in a cage.

Fed like a pig. Make me eat swill from a trough.

Make me beg for this.


6/28/2008 6:34:05 AM
Okay, what am I looking for?

A woman who knows what she wants. Who's fairly verbal/communicative - I don't want to be owned by someone where I have to guess how she feels / what she wants.

Who's looking for a woman whom she can own - shut up in a cage, feed from a bowl on the floor, collar, leash...

...but not 24/7/365. Yes, if you're out there, I want to be your pig. I will beg you to let me be your pigslave.

But not 100% of the time. I don't want that and I don't want to be owned by someone who wants that. (Because I'm sane, that's why, thank you very much.)


Let me be owned by someone who wants a submissive/slave 24/7 - and who will let me beg and plead to be her piggy-girl at least some of the time.
6/5/2008 12:23:15 PM
This pig hopes to be spending some time on a farm, properly penned, if she's accepted by a human Owner.

The number p598716 has been stamped on the pigslave's flank, and is her identity from now on...

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Well, except, didn't work out like that. :-(
6/2/2008 3:53:23 PM
Hello. First journal entry. slave

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Well. Looking for a woman who will look me over, know i was born to be a pig, and gently and thoroughly and oh so completely reduce me to animal status.

Or if not, at least make room for me in her life at weekends...

I'm a lesbian, not interested in men, very interested in total power exchange, being caged, completely controlled, dehumanised...