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I AM COLLARED

!!!NO Chat Requests!!!


well I went back to my former Master SlaveSeeker1.. I am going to stay here till my baby goes up for adpotion.. but I have my old shiny collar back.. I was amaszed that Master place it in a felt lined box to take care of it, as he has taken care of me.

Well I must say can ANYONE out there have the same caliber as My dear friend SlaveSeeker1 .. When I needed help he was there, when I was lost in my mind he was there, when I wanted to go back to school he supported me. I called him Daddy but the bond we had was more then a Daddy, a Master, a Lover.. I just miss his touch so much, a night we would sleep in the same bed naked and I would NOT have to worry about him wanting sex all the time. I have lusted for this Man and I know over the 2 & a half years we were together we had sex only 4 times. I was completely in service to him.. and the point is.. I don't want another relationship that involves sex more then once a month. I want you to use your mind to penatrate me, caress me.. make be feel A LIVE.


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10/3/2006 11:06:05 PM
i want to let you all know i am NOT looking at the moment for a new owner.. and MASTER has been checking my profile with my consent.. so if you have writen you will have to wait fo rme to reply.. i only have 10 min on line daily.

10/3/2006 2:38:15 AM
WELL i CAN SAY THAT  i STILL KINDA FIT IN..mASTER HAS A NEW PAIN SLAVE AND i SEE THAT HUNGER FOR MORE WHEN THEY ARE TOGETHER.. i AM TRING MY BEST TO DO AS I AM TOLD.. AND i LOVE IT WHEN MASTER LETS ME SNUGGLE IN HIS BED....

LOOKS LIKE MY STD TEST CAME BACK CLEAR..WHEWW THAT WAS A RELIEF.. BUT i AM DYING FOR JUST A SMOKE. 

i SAW THIS CIGGY BUTT IN THE STREET THE OUTER DAY AND THERE WAS ALMOST HALF THERE.. WHEN MASTER WASN'T LOOKING i PICKED IT UP.  WELL TWO NIGHTS AGO i SMOKED IT AND LIED ABOUT IT WHEN MASTER SAID HE SMELLED SOMETHING OUT OF PLACE.. WELL HE BOUGHT A FREAKING NICOTINE TEST AT CVS LAST NIGHT.. i MEAN HOLLY SHIT THE SELL OVER THE COUNTER TEST TO SEE IF YOU ARE SMOKING..

i AM REALLY SWEATING NOW CAUSE i AM CRAVING THE CIGGY BAD AND i KNOW IF i FUCK UP AGAIN i AM GOING TO BE TESTED... NOT A WISE THING TO DO.. CAUSE i WAS ALREADY WARNED THAT IS I AM CAUGHT SMOKING THAT i WILL BE PUNISHED WITH 50 HARD STIKES OF THE CANE.. 

i WILL PREY BUT i WANT A CIGGY SO BAD.. MAYBE THERE IS HOPE FOR ME YET.. MASTER TOLD ME THAT IS i WAS GOOD THAT WE COULD HAVE SOME SEXUAL TIME TOGETHER.. 

i HOPE MY WILL IS STRONG ENOUGH. 

9/25/2006 12:42:31 AM
I think I will go back to my former Master.. at least he is stright and he is a real man.

9/21/2006 1:53:59 AM

Before my relationship with my former Master the thought of being open, needy, known and vulnerable was completely and utterly horrific. I was strong and independent. A very private person, not given to sharing my inner most feelings, even with close friends. I don’t think you’d find one who would use the words vulnerable to describe me. Then again, in a self-description the word would have been conspicuous by its very absence. So imagine my surprise when my Master told me, quite early on in our relationship, that his goal was for me to become completely dependant and vulnerable. My Master has been open and explicit in nearly all his goals for me. This one was no different.

I welcomed the idea of that complete dependence but was unsure how it would happen, if it would happen. Now, a little way down the line here I am, my Master’s slave, vulnerable, dependant and completely owned and I still have no idea how or when it happened.

My transition from novice sub to trained sub to enslaved collared pet was a speedy one. I think I both surprised and pleased my Master. I had so much to learn in such a short space of time. I honestly think most of my independence disappeared while I wasn’t looking. Even though my Master guided me through many changes, in the way I thought and the way I acted. Nothing felt wrong or out of place. It was only through reading my journal that I became aware of them. The way I thought and acted was completely different from the way I thought and acted a few short months before. I honestly thought who I am now was the person I had always been. It all felt natural and normal. My Master being the centre of my world was, well, just how it was supposed to be. On the whole my loss of independence was a passing that was neither noted nor mourned.

Then as so often happens you have an OMG moment, a moment of crystal clarity that underlines the changes and all they entail. Mine came as a result of a punishment, one that was nearly a week away. The reason for the punishment no longer matters. It is over and the lesson has been learned. Rather, it was my reaction that made me think ‘oh my god’.

Master has installed an anxiety response to underline and make tangible his displeasure and control. He can activate it and deactivate it vocally. I have to explain at this point, my Master is a psychological Master. He is very knowledgeable in his field and very, very good at it. So please be under no illusion here, just one word from my Master can reduce me to a quivering, wrenched and pitiful sight. This will only stop when I apologize, on my knees, before my Master and accept any punishment that my Master deems suitable.

This particular situation began with the activation of the anxiety response. Master left it to run for the next couple of days, then as we were to see each other the next day He told me I had experienced enough angst and could let go of it. The only problem was, I couldn’t. In my head it wasn’t dealt with. I hadn’t begged forgiveness, I hadn’t accepted punishment. The disobedience I had exhibited was so bad, in my own head, that even with my Masters permission I could not let it go.

This may not sound like a big deal. But it was what it signified that is important. My need for my Master to make it right was so strong that even with permission I could not give it up. It was then that I began to realize how vulnerable I truly was. How much I needed my Master and just how much I depended on him. This came as a bit of a shock to a once independent mother of two. When you have children you understand that their vulnerability and innocence have to be protected. You put ‘the mummy head’ on and look after your children. Now here I am, just as vulnerable as a child, only not so innocent. I am now completely, for the first time since I was a small child, dependant on another. That was the, ‘Oh my God’ moment.


9/17/2006 11:53:49 PM
WOW how rude can you people be?

I found someone and all you do is asking why my profile is still here.. I didn't read anywhere were I had to remove it. Piss off and go harress someone else.. that might be why you don't have anyone, your ego is so far up your ass that you don't know what is fact or fiction anymore.

I am NOT a step stool, I am not your puching bag.  I am a FEMALE. And if you think I am less then that. let me bend over so I can fart in your face.

I AM PISSED OFF and I have a right to be. You people think because the word SLAVE it there that you own me.. YOU DON'T

You are not my Master, you are not my Father.  Time for you ro crawl back into your cave!

9/10/2006 3:15:52 PM
ok a bad kinda update.  i am preg!! so if you are looking sub or a slave that is knocked up, willing to cover my healthcare cost till i place the child up for adoption.. we can talk

and NO i will not keep it so you can abuse it, a child does not need to know what a slut her mommy was, you you don't have to worry about raise it and another mouth to feed.

8/31/2006 4:57:42 PM
HELLO OUT THERE
DID I SAY I WAS LOOKING FOR SADISTIC? NO

8/31/2006 4:51:34 PM
ok one liners your are BLOCKED
Dick Pic BLOCKED
RUDE to me or rude about my former Master BLOCKED

I have gotten 3 pages of email in less then 2 hrs.. I think it safe to say it will take me a while to get to know some of you.  So I am guessing by the amount of them that between 3-5 days after when read you should have a few questions, a no thank you, or my IM chat ID...  My Former Master is helping me pick my new owner.  You didn't all think I was really going into this blind, did you?

8/31/2006 2:04:44 PM
tell me about you in a short email before you send a request for a chat.. I what to know were you stand first.  if you lie to to me you will be blocked period

NO COCK SHOTS

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sammygirly
 
 Switch, Age:  54
 Toronto, Ontario, Canada
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