BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!! I got the BEST laugh today. giggles.

I got not one, but count em, two...that's right folks...two emails today from scammers telling me to watch out because I'm being reported for my "fake" pics. Well...the jokes on them I suppose. There are people here on collar me who can vouch for me. They've met me. You know, in actual "real life" outside the computer. Friends here...that know I am the girl in those pics. I don't ever reply to idiots like that but um yeah nice try folks. Good luck with that and lemme know how it goes...no, wait on second thought...don't.

Simply rolls eyes. Really???????

Ooooooo wait....perhaps this means I'm so popular and hot other people are stealing my pics and using them on their profile? busts out laffin.....snorts.... nah, that couldn't be it lol.

Why is it that men refer to themselves in third person???

"Daddy likes that."

" That makes Daddy very happy."

I mean I get it sometimes... and when it is someone you have a relationship with. But to use that with someone you don't know well... or to use it alllll the time, well it kind of stumps me. But perhaps that is because I do not refer to myself as lil girl or this girl or what have you all the time...

Lol...I will never understand men I think.

I recently met a man here from Collar Me. We went on a great first date. I thought things were going well. We set up a second date and he stood me up. We talked on the phone and I was told that he really liked me, wanted to see me, and that his work was just crazy. I believed him because up until this point, he hadn't given me reason not to trust him. Then all of a sudden, poof. Communication stopped. Numbers were changed. Profile shut down etc.

I just don't understand why men are like that.

If for some reason, I decide I don't want to see you anymore and we are dating/in a relationship, I have the common courtesy to at least send an email, text, or let you know in some fashion what I've decided and why.

Women think that something happened and worry over the breakdown in communication. A million things run through our heads. Usually the first is omg is he ok? Did something happen? Then our minds run maybe he was married. Then move on  to was it me??? What did I do wrong?

Not having closure sucks and I have a lot more respect for a man who has the balls to tell me he is no long interested for whatever reason. I may be upset at first, but closure is far better than not knowing. I will eventually get over it and more than likely will see reason for why things ended and more often than not, there will be personal growth and I will be introspective about things I can improve in myself. With no closure, all you are left with is a sense of wondering what the hell went wrong.

So my advice to guys.... Man up and tell her if you aren't interested. She will respect you a lot more in the long run. If you are a Daddy, you should have integrity, simply because it's the right thing to do. Lead by example.

Currently uninterested in meeting anyone. Thanks for all the emails but please excuse me for not replying.

Met a WONDERFUL guy who makes every day feel like Alice falling down the rabbit hole into wonderland.

So...... taking some time to get to know this guy and see where it goes. 

Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!

The power of positive punishment.

Is there really such a thing?

I read an article once by someone that I firmly believe knows his stuff. It was titled the power of positive punishment and can be found on www.ageplay.org, or www.unkabobby.org or com or net or something of that nature lol.

It amazes me how many on here view punishment as fun. Sighs. Spankings, yes, can be fun. But they can also purge as well as punish. The can also help us readjust. I don't really understand the philosophy of "maintanence" spankings and such, but I do understand helping your girl get awful thoughts out of her head by allowing her to cry them out with your help. I understand needing the pain.

I was asked recently if I acted out to be spanked. No. I don't. I act out sometimes because deep down, truly, I am a lil girl. That's what we do. Sometimes it's hard for me to say... I need...fill in the blank. Sometimes I get cross or out of sorts. I need a Daddy that will see this and understand..sometimes.. I just need him to take me by the hand and say, lil one I see that you are out of sorts but I am going to help you fix that. And promptly turn me over and soundly spank my backside until I cry it all out.

I don't brat on purpose. Sometimes life just gets too stressful or it all catches up with me when I try to carry the world on my own shoulders. Sometimes I need help letting go.

I spose for some it is roleplay but for me, it's more real play. Inside, yup I'm a lil girl. I like strawberry milk, cartoons, snuggling, my bear, overly sugared up cereal, and funky socks. I like play grounds. I love Disney. I truly see things from the eyes and heart of a child a lot of times. My laffter comes from deep down within and I am told it is contagious. I have to try things just to see if they really work cuz that's what girls do. I try to manipulate things sometimes to see if I can wrap him around my lil finger. I am shy and dark equally. This is not some act I put on. So for me, I'd never pretend to be bad to get a spanking that in the moment I don't want. Yes, sometimes I like sexy spankings. I like the effect of spankings, but in that moment, when it is hurting my backside and I'm a crying, blubbering mess, I hate them and will fight it. It's just my nature.
The article I mentioned likens it to giving your child medicine. You know they need it to feel better but you hate that you have to give it to them. That's kinda how it is for me.

So I'll never understand "daddies" who say... o lil girl do you need to be spanked?? For my answer will ALWAYS be no. Even if it's what I need the most in this world at the moment.

Just so overflow thoughts. This is what happens when i can't sleep lol.

Back to the drawing board.

I refuse to date a vanilla person ever again.

sigh.

Ok... I have two journal entries with links posted on them...

One of them has 3 websites that I think give a good representation as to what I'm looking for. If you want to learn more about what makes me tick...check them out. The other entry has a clip I just thought was sexy. There is more to me than that clip lol I just think it's hot.

Guys who check out all four links get brownie points. Just sayin.

I got an email on here today that just left my jaw hanging open. Wow.... I really had no clue how to respond.

Gonna have to ponder on this one awhile.

Trying to figure out why I like that link so much...it just is so hot.

She looks tipsy at first and seems to be kind of enjoying it. But as it goes on her tears seem genuine, and then towards the end she seems so drugged or something that she doesn't care. She just lets him do what he wants.

Why do I find this so freakin hot????????

Makes me wanna know what that's like...yeah I'm gonna open that door lol. No it's not an invitation guys lol. But it does. Makes me curious....what it would feel like to be in her shoes. Only difference I guess with me is, I'd like to know that after it's all over he'd pull me close and let me come down from it. Keep me safe. 

But I must admit, the idea is appealing. Noms.

http://www.xhamster.com/movies/892268/amateur_blonde_teen_gets_painful_anal_fuck.html

Holy cow that was hot.

I don't like sex like that allll the time but um yeah...occasionally, that just melts my butter shall we say... lolz.

hot hot hot.

That is all.

I'm all about rainbows n sunshine.

lol

Hi. It's me again. lol.

Just wanted to make sure everyone understood. I am into ageplay as more than a mere role play. Do I live a balanced life? Yes. I'm a nurse, a mom, a sister, a friend. All the things I have to be. But I do regress. I do ageplay. It IS A VERY BIG PART OF WHO I AM. Sometimes I regress to a very young age. Very small. If this bothers/offends you, I'm NOT the girl for you. At all.

I'm a very shy person. Just cuz I have tons of dark fantasies lurking inside my head doesn't mean I'm brave about sharing them. I'm not being coy. It is not an act. I am slow to trust and very shy. I am very open minded and want to try lots of things, I'm just shy about sharing... again...if this is not your cup of tea, cool. But it is who I am. So if it bothers you...not the girl for you.

Wouldn't it be nice if people came with an instruction manual????

So, in thinking that, I have decided to post some links, that explain more about me and what I'm looking for. Hoping they show up on here.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9n-6ZhfU3A

This first link is as close to you can get to what I'm like when I'm in lil mode...littlest lil mode that is.

Now, this second link..splains more about what I need from a Daddy person.

http://vanilla-not.com/basics/daddydom.html

And this last link, well that kinda splains my theory about spankings and more about what kind of Daddy person I'm lookin for. 

http://ageplay.org/GI/index.php?topic=7970.0

I need more than just kinky sex. Some people say I'm complicated, but I don't take that to be a bad thing... Easy books get read once and put down. A good complicated story makes you want to keep reading and not put it down. It's a book you'll read over and over again, each time trying to dig deeper and read more into the author's meaning.

Hope you like the readin....

Ok ok ...been getting a lot of flack about the Lo comment. Yes, I know the movie ends horribly. I know she exploits him... that's not what I'm talking about.

I want how they are at the being of the movie. The nurturing, the fun, the daddyness mixed with the sexualness.. mm mmm good. 

Brushing hair, tucking in to bed... like the rocking chair scene where they are sitting together reading the paper.. He the news,she the comics. Something so typically Sunday morning and sweet that turns into something so hot and steamy. 

That.. is what attracted me to this movie. I want someone who understands that dynamic.

Have you seen the movie Lo lita?

That's the kind of Daddy I'm looking for. Traditional Dad type role...but with so much more thrown in.

Someone who nurtures, guides, looks after me, the way a Dad would do. But also someone who will take the time to find out my darkest fantasies, make me squirm, and bring them to life. Find the things that make me blush and make kitty wet and exlore them with me..my hand in his.

Take me to the edge..but don't let me fall. Let me feel the fear, but keep me safe.

Lately, I've been getting some rude emails on here. Makes me wonder..I'm a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend.... essentially a stranger on the street. Would you talk to your mother, daughter, or a stranger on the street in the way that you approach me?

I'm looking for much more than sex. I have many varied interests..a lot of sexual kinks..not all of which are listed here.  But in the background of all of these is the Daddy/daughter dynamic. No matter what else is going on, this is always in the back burner.

I regress...sometimes quite small. If this bothers you..I'm not the girl for you. To me, ageplay is not role play. It is real play. If all you are looking for is some naughty school girl/ mean principal role play...again, I'm not the girl for you. Being lil is simply a part of who I am.

I blush. A LOT. I'm very shy, but that doesn't mean there aren't dark thoughts floating around inside my cute little head.

I think spankings serve many purposes. Funishment, punishment, adjustments for when a girl feels out of sorts, and as an outlet.

 I like pain and tears. I like welts...maybe bruises. This doesn't mean I like the means to an end lol or that I need it all the time, but it is part of what makes me me.

I'm not looking for a pretend roleplay Daddy. Being a Daddy should naturally be part of your make up just as being a lil girl is part of mine.

I am looking for a deep bond..a close connection. Far more than simply sex.