shaved last night under Mistress orders. I have shaved certain body areas before , maybe it was just she gave me a new way to do it, or maybe it was just better doing it under someones control, but it was great and feels much better than other attempts. there is a deep lesson somewhere about what submission really is.

Wonderful time last night. I got to talk in a Bdsm terms with a Mistress. She said I was a bit rusty, and I was, but that's ok. Very enjoyable being called slave and Having to begin every thing "Mistress".

Great moments of submission, most done in real life:

-Getting/making Mistress coffee and bring it to her in her favorite mug

-as Male, this one is highly submissive. Handing her the remote control (very fruedian)

-having Mistress tell you , were the blue shirt today

-going to a nice resturant, the Mistress orders first and then says "And he'll have ..."

more to come

This entry goes to something I see as a strong dislike and hard limit on a lot of peoples profiles. And that is fine, as I explored this I found I wasnt going places where most people think if they mention "Diapers".

I was same way, but I found myself bored and looking at an adult baby site and found a free sample site. The stories wernt really doing anything for me, the pictures were ,well some of them were a turn on. And thought why not, so I got the sample. Doing #2 was just gross, I'm not here to judge what turns people on, but the thought of #2 just was not going to work for me. I found out when I got the sample and put them on, that wear them was fun, not necessarily a turn on. For some reason I did have a great nights sleep. I couldnt bring myself to #1 in them. Eventually I did , and of course needed to change them and thought , the was a waste of money and I couldnt imagine going out to the store in wet diapers.

But in dry diapers I made a wonderful discovery.the tape comes off it you try to loosen them , as in to put your hands in them to jerk off, the tape will rip off and it's hard to get back on, so it becomes a wonderful chasity device. Not quite the feeling of being locked in,with the little lock, but effective none the less, and I kinda liked the feeling of being locked it so to speak.

I read some hopeful journal entries. For my part I am going to try not to be so complaining, but in can be hard when you get the type of responses I have been getting.

Based on quailty of replys and non responses here. I wonder if a long drawn out profile that was meant to say : Yes, I am kinky and think I am reasonably intelligent and worth a conversation , was not a bad move.

It should have said something like " Boring, dumb ass with brain between the leg will be of no benefit to you or me unless tied up."  maybe that is the best approach here.

Disgruntaled, Disappointed .... and sighing because I used to know such interesting people in the lifestyle....

I really appriate someone who bothers to read my profile when I write them. I do wonder why we are not a match, so much better than "I worked 3 weeks on this profile" and then deletes email unread and never even looked at my profile. Yeah right ? Nothing ventured,nothing gained, even less on the part on the Goddess. Finding someone in this lifestyle is so freaking difficult. Never really understood why. It in no way reminds me of the early days on the munch group, we were just so happy to find some one who thinks like we do.

Nearly endlessly amusing ebanned. I wonder when I see the ads, drink my mans cum for a week , what sort of condition it's in when it's been shipped from half way around the country. If I had money to burn , I'd find out. giggling.

I have had a recent interest in Cuckholding. I have to admit from a previous Domme she gave me a rather romantic view of the situation. I would actually dress her (or help) for the date. Have household duties to perform as she was on the date and afterwards she would either come into the bedroom or if I was still up sit next to me or on my lap , put her arms around me and tell me all about the date. It was never verbal abuse, the verbal abuse stories are cute " He had the biggest dick, to bad all the pumping in the world and you'll never get that big of a cock." Cute,mildly interesting but we existed on a plane that said we actually like either , she had the best of respect toward her property and my levels of submission went to that level.

I never met the men,I didnt need to, when Mistress first explained this was the way things were going to be, she said "It's a part that completes me. As you do. If you ever get down about the arrangement. Remember I come home to you." A comforting thought to a submissive/slave because she needed what I gave, just as I needed what she gave.

Now that romance does not mean I dont like other aspects of Cuckhold where the slave is in attendance for the sex, those stories are fun as well, I'd like to do that. Part of me wonders how many would be cool with the guy watching , being forced to watch... oh well I'd like to find out

just to say where I am going with this . I want to build a profile right, a person viewing this should know I am serious and as they say "I am real". Pictures will come, I filled out a fairly complete list of interests.

 Pictures will come, It will likely be a vanilla one, not objecting to take a non vanilla one or two if that helps. Future journals will tell in detail what I am looking for, where I have been on my journals. Thoughts that will help you see I am what you are looking for. Because I am what someone is looking for. Find me.

 I expect the profile to be under construction for a while..... anyone looking now will see it incomplete,but again I want to build it right, put it out there and leave no doubts who I am and why I am right for you.