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I know that this is a long introduction but please read before contacting me.
Top things to know that may help you in deciding on continuing to read:
1. Interested in Caucasian Dominants only who are 30-45 (may waiver on the age for play).
2. Interested only in tall (5.10 and above) Doms.
3. No subs for play but can be your friend if you are someone that I met along my travels.
4. Ultimately looking for a Long Term Relationship with a 100% Dominant male. Basically not looking for a booty call, to fulfill your fantasy, to help you cheat on your S/O (for those who keep this a little secret from your wives or girlfriends).
5. Not necessarily looking for casual play but not ruling it out. If I choose to play with you, it will be because we have met offline and that is what has progressed.
6. Contacting me as if you own me already will not garner a response. Just because I am submissive does not mean that I am submissive to everyone.
I am a neophyte to the BDSM world but not to the desires. Physically I am 5.1 and thick, and I am also very shy, quirky, and intelligent. With the onset of sexual feelings as an adolescent was the need to share those feelings with a dominant male. I can remember watching movies or television shows—usually old ones—where the men would threaten to spank a woman, and sometimes actually do it. At the time, I did not know why that aroused me; all I knew is that it did. Four things about that scenario stirred me: 1) the sternness of the man- his being in absolute control of the situation and the woman, even when she was strong willed; 2) the man always was attentive of the woman’s well-being, it was always for her own good, and the intent was to curb some destructive behavior (being spoiled, temperamental, apathetic, selfish, etc.); 3) there was underlying sexual tension between the two- he got off from giving the discipline and she got off from receiving it; and 4) the sound (usually off camera) of the slaps themselves- it was resounding and beautiful—like a human drum—to my ears. Yes, old movies and television opened up my eyes to a wonderful world. Only problem was I was way too shy to act on my desires.
Since then, I have dabbled here and there with aspects of my submissive nature. The problem is not finding the right One for me. When I was 25, I was spanked soundly for the first time at a college party. It was everything that I thought it would be. The spanking was firm yet sensual but it was more than just the actual spanking that stimulated me. The Dom commanded respect from his presence alone. It was not what he said; it was just his way. More often than not, I have found myself in vanilla situations with men who claim to be dominant but only see it as a sexual release (which I do not look down on). I am looking for the sex kink to be combined with a Dom who can temper my own destructive behavior which on occasion does rear its caustic head from underneath my shy, empathetic, sensitive, passionate, and submissive core. These behaviors include self-doubt, trepidation, and an inability to let go of a grudge.
By no means do I only desire to be spanked but also tied up, teased, gagged, blindfolded, caned, whipped, participate in rape-play, cum and cock worship, deep throating, and dirty talk. Since I am a novice this list, as well as my limits' list, are subject to change.
I am submissive by nature. I am in my element when I am submissive to a Man that I respect as a Dominant and that respects me as a submissive. I am looking for someone who feels that there is more to a Dominant/submissive relationship other than sex. Don’t get me wrong, sex—I hope—will be a very integral part of the relationship but there are so many more things that I crave within the relationship such as power relinquishment, earned trust (from both participants), and physical and mental security. I do have limits, when it comes to the things that I will not do and will get to those in a minute.
As I said, I would like sex to be an integral part of the relationship. I like a Man who knows what he wants, when he wants it, and simply takes it. With that said, I would like my dominant to be sensual. I like to touch and be touched. Cuddling, kissing, laying in one another’s arms, and caressing are a plus. I want a Dom that can treat me as a cherished possession, but also keep me in my place.
My Ideal Dom is tall, light-eyed, naturally dominant but not a control freak, intelligent, sensual, caring, and stern. Basically, I am seeking the man who headed an atypical American style 1950s home with an extra kinky side. There has to be a mutual attraction between the two of us, and we must be open to communication, but I understand that his word is final. There must be mutual respect for both of our prediscussed limits. Other than white and tall, what I seek physically is not set in stone as long as there is a mutual attraction.
Aside from the lifestyle, I have many vanilla interest that I hope my Dom will share with me. These things include reading, writing, music, Gaelic and Eastern European culture. My favorite authors are Vonnegut, Eddings, Joyce among others. My favorite bands are Led Zeppelin, Kings of Leon, Cream, Ministry, KMFDM, NIN, Radiohead, Tool and more. I also enjoy some sci/fi-fantasy TV such as LOST, Doctor Who, and Battlestar Galactica. Museums, walks in the park, and just plain conversation are intriguing as well.
My known limits are fire, sharp objects, food play, animal play, scat, liars and wannabe Doms. At the moment, I am planning on entering graduate school so relocation and is not an option.
If my profile intrigued you, please drop me a line.
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