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Cenobite13
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Its not easy having a good time, even smiling makes my face ache.
Love isn't brains, children, it's blood...blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it.
I am an experienced Dom whos been in the scene quite a long time. I am also slightly less up myself and pretentious than that first statement made me sound. ViolentDreams and I live together and when alone we have a Master/slave relationship. However our relationship does not preclude the inclusion of others and we are always up for a few new experiences. While ViolentDreams is my slave she is Domme to everyone else we play with.
I have a serious interest in psychology, philosophy, sociology (especially devient sociology ... go figure) not to mention my rather less academic interest in horror and classic litrature, anime, music of the goth, ebm, classical, industrial genres.
Anyone that is interested in my slave or me needs to be aware that we are an item you dont get one without the other, thats about the only thing that is none negotiable.
If you are a serious submissive and looking for a walk on the more extreme side of the scene then feel free to drop us a line, if we dont respond just assume we havnt logged on for a few days, or that we are jolly rude, whatever makes you happy.
Ive been involved with the scene one way or another for about fifteen years now so there isnt much that can shock me anymore, though I do enjoy it on those rare occasions it happens.
Yes I said but is it art?
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11/1/2009 12:35:36 AM: Just a short entry this time to announce for those that are interested that on the 31st October I married ViolentDreams, she is my slave, my soul mate and now my wife. Most of this online stuff is nonesense, but every now and then it all works out.
4/22/2009 12:37:50 PM: Right my current list of pet peevs.1- People pretending to be something they are not. Do you honestly think me or my pet are so stupid we will give you your jollies before we have confirmed your id? Seriously anyone who cant make a 30 second phone call or get on web cam.....how hard is it?2- People who take themselves too seriously. You know the types the people, expect everyone to call them Sir or Master right off the bat and who have no sense of humor about themselves.3- Ok this might make me sound cold and unpleasdant but then I am at times so thats how it comes across. Fugglies, who keep messaging me or my play thing and wanting to play. Seriously folks, my slave is hot, I am none to fucking shabby myself. We play with others for fun, but dear god you think we are desperate or something?4- This links into number 3, subs who expect me and mine to dance around playing to their tune and chasing after them. Deal with it, like I said not desperate. You want to be all needy and play games, thats nice go play somewhere else. We are damn good at what we do, you stand to gain at least as much as we do, dont forget that.5- People not in touch with who they are or what they want. Im a sadist who delights in power and in others pain. My slave is my assistant in general when we play with others and frankly she is almost as nasty as me. You want that great talk to us. You want to play spank me and tickle games with furry handcuffs bugger off and bother the kinky nillas.
12/13/2008 3:21:51 PM: As I have said my partner in crime and I are looking for new playmates. Please if you want to message us though be willing to prove you are who you say you are. A quick phone call, waving on webcam, its all so simple really. If your not willing to do one of those things then we will assume you are a fake No matter how compelling your reasons or excuses are.That may sound a little harsh, but it saves everyone time it being said. If your a fake just move on by, if your geniune and have a reason for not proving you are who you say you are, again just move on by.Everyones happy that way.
9/18/2008 4:48:27 AM: TRIBUTEThat word is like fingers nails across a chalk board for me. Why do fem Dommes (no offence ladies) feel they prove their Dominance by getting sad lonley sub males to pay for the privilidge of being abused. Ive done pro Dom work, and I admit mainly with male clinents I took payment for those services I didnt call it tribute I called it prostitution. Its the hypocrasy that bugs me. Have you ever noticed how Male Doms persue their subs, and fem Doms are persued by their subs? Come on ladies if you want to call yourselves Dominant, why not challange preset gender roles? The Dominant partner persues, thats the way the game is played.I feel sorry for the male subs out there, you guys have a hard time of it. As a male Dom I accept that I`ll have to do the running but being expected to chase after the people to use you? Oh well no doubt this rant will irritate some people, so go me.
9/3/2008 5:21:37 AM:
I am constantly amazed by how few
people take the time to understand what they really want. Oh people
think they know what they want, but in general in my experience most
people are masters at self deception. At the risk of sounding very
cocky (ok with the certainty of sounding bloody cocky) I am damn good
at what I do. There is a reason I am able to effect the people I
play with so much. Its this simple I have studied body language and
the art of reading people quite seriously. Its not that people
consciously lie to you its that they instinctively lie to themselves.
They believe that they believe all the nonsense they are told they
believe.
Let me give you some none D/s examples
first then I will move onto the D/s side if anyone is still paying
attention, but as I am not claiming to be a cute girl I have my
doubts on that one. People say that they belive personal freedom is
important yet we still keep seeming to vote in governments that use
fear and insecurity to weapons to slowly remove out personal
freedoms. Hell both the UK and the USA voted in parties that started
a war that was at best morally dubious at worst illegal and based on
clearly fabricated evidence. Said war has made the world a more
violent and less safe place has been used as an excuse to erode out
fundamental civil liberties things our ancestors fought and in some
cases died for, you know little things like the right to trial,
concepts like innocent until proven guilty, the right to privacy, the
right to free speech and protest. Yet while all this goes on in our
name we still claim to believe in freedom. Another example is the
rampant fear and hatred of pedophilia. Now please don't get me wrong
I'm not defending it or coming out in support of sleeping with
children which sadly a lot of people seem to believe every time I
make this argument. Despite this rampant fear and hate we still
happily consume a media that blatantly sexualized youth. One of the
most hypocritical things I ever saw was a news paper (part of the
British gutter press) on one page talking about a sick pedophile
teacher who had consensual sex with a 15 year old student and on
another page showing a topless picture of a girl who's birthday it
was and had that day become legal to show topless. Now is it just me
or is the hypocrisy there so painfully blatant it makes your head
hurt? There are a thousand more examples I could give be it Britney
Spears dressed as a school girl singing hit me baby one more time, or
god alone knows how many teen magazines and fashion houses sexualized
ever younger people.
How about the people that say they
believe drugs are wrong, often while holding a ciggy in one hand and
a scotch in the other, news flash folks the truth of it is alcohol
and nicotine are just as dangerous and likely to cause social
problems as the vast majority of narcotics. Even if you were to
accept that drug use is morally wrong a position I find it hard to
defend as clearly everyone own their own bodies and we are not
property of the state and thus it should clearly be up to us what we
do with them, the simple fact is that prohibition is not working and
will never work. The governments own figures say that to wipe out
the drug problem you would need a sustained stoppage rate of 60%, and
that no western society has ever managed a sustained rate of above
20%. Now is it just me or does that make a total nonsense of the
whole thing?
Anyway now Ive finished my political
rant let me get to my point about D/s. Ive been in this game quite a
while now about 15 years. The Sadomasochistic, D's, bdsm scene (call
it what you will) has changed a lot since I started. Back when I
started it was much more underground than it is now, and frankly the
scene was darker and folks were happier with it. These says people
seem to feel the need to make it safe and nice. They sprout nonsense
mantras like Safe Sane Consensual like they mean something and they
really believe they do. News flash kids, nothings really safe, its
possible to die of a heart attack from too much pleasure or too much
pain, let alone things like undiscovered allergies to latex or god
alone knows what else. Lets not even get started on the word sane,
Ive been around a while and I frankly don't know many people in the
scene Id call sane and yes I include myself in that. The point is
you say the Mantra enough and you start to believe that you believe
it. You`ll fight and argue to defend these beliefs and if something
challenges them people will respond with anger and shutting down and
refusing to consider it. Yet despite all this I know so few people
that are truly satisfied they may tell themselves they are and that
they are getting what they want but the truth of it is they feel
unfulfilled. I play to the far darker end of the spectrum in the
scene, a lot of the things I do and enjoy are called edge play or
considered extreme. Yet dancing on the dark side emotionally effects
the people I play with. They want more, want to go further, its an
addiction. Maybe just maybe more people should challenge their
preconceptions of whats acceptable and what they believe in. Maybe
there would be a lot more satisfied happy people out there if we all
stopped pretending what we did was light and nice and built on mutual
respect and need. Stop using mantras folks, stop clinging to
beliefs so rigidly maybe the happiness your looking for is right
there in front of you. Know thyself, its a damn fine phrase to live
by.
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