10/21/2014 8:58:39 PM: The quiet Domme... at work...Hey,( insert coworkers name) how are you doing today. I think it's time to finally introduce myself to you & everyone else that has had their suspicion(s). You see I know you've been watching me... you've seen me..or least the part I've allowed you to see. But let me warn you, what you see is all a front.. I may be that quiet girl at work who keeps to herself in her little office desk. The one who tries to keep up a professional front & doesn't initiate contact outside of work context. Some of you have gotten frustrated with me that I don't say 'good bye', 'have a good weekend', or even 'good morning'. Some have even questioned why I walk so slow when I go & give the folders over to our transportation manager. You've even asked me if I was okay.. So I played it off with ..' Oh it's headache..' But to be honest... The headache is caused from lack of sleep.. from the weekend. You see while you spent your weekend either getting drunk, hanging out with friends, family or coworkers.. I've spent my weekend(s).. getting well acquainted with sex toys & spending time with subs.. So the slow pace in my step... is because my body is revolting from all the strenuous activities I subjected it to. I may look the conservative type & have more clothes on than most but to be honest.. I have an animosity towards clothing. When I'm not at work.. I am either partially or fully nude... You see, why I keep to myself has nothing to do with you. You shouldn't take it personal. I just simply can't relate to you. Where you live the life of work, kids & family. I live the life of an active Domme.. I can't be open about my weekend.. When you say, 'Got any big plans for this weekend...' Sure I can bluff the occasional bullshit.. but honestly you don't know..if you even had an ounce of what I did.. what I *really* did.. *smirks*...I don't think you would even want to talk to me... I keep myself hidden in the little corner of the office, just so I don't accidentally show my true self.. & the downfall is I already have.. The little details I do give is enough to cause you to think of me differently.. and I can't help it.. I can only hide so much... & the rest of who I am still occasionally leaks out.. I'm not blind. I watch everyone & hear the conversations that take place.. & I don't include myself in them. If I was just like you all, then I would join in but I'm not ... Hopefully you are satisfied with my introduction, which probably leads to more but just know.. The quiet ones are always the ones to worry about... Sincerely A quiet working Domme....

8/20/2014 5:39:46 PM: What's it like to be a female Dominant…I've been thinking. I was at work yesterday and I was explaining my life to a few of my coworkers. Now they know about me being a Dominant and it’s intriguing to them but after I got done telling them about what I had done over the weekend, it made me feel kind of different. Not particularly in a bad way, I know they don’t judge me for how I am, but it was more along the lines of is there anyone else like me out there. It’s like I’ve never been able to relate to someone of the same sex because they are not as kinky as I am. It kind of feels like I am the only one of my kind, which I know is probably not true, but I haven’t found another female dominant like myself. Never have met one in person, sure I have been approached on the internet by a few but they didn’t even seem real. So what’s it like to be a female Dominant… Well I don’t really know what it’s like for other Dommes but I do know what it’s like for myself. First is I am surrounded by dicks everywhere… Some are coworkers, friends, family, subs, strangers etc.. Now the truth is I can only torture just a handful of them. Like if I’m at work (which those dicks are all off limits) and I am getting belittled, I have to tell myself…”Self-control”…. I have to watch what I say… Because “Oh I would love to hang you by your balls right now…” doesn’t bode well with most men. The sad part is they probably wouldn’t take me seriously at first, and if they did… it’s because I would have been smiling the whole time saying it. Not many women can threaten to tie a man up by his balls and not even bat an eyelash.. So self-control and filters is a huge thing… Second… I don’t know half the time if I am being the “right” Dominant. Is there a book that says this is how a female Dominant is supposed to be? Am I doing all of this wrong, am I fucking up? I probably have messed up… I won’t lie. I am no “angel”… no matter how hard I try to be… (Insert pun)… I don’t have another person like myself to bounce ideas off of. I can’t just call up another Domme and say.. Hey is this how you are supposed to do it. Because that’s not how it is… What I know about myself and this lifestyle is all based on first-hand experience. Through trials, lies, tests, failures, laughter’s, hiccups… a crap load of high and lows…off and on arrangements with ( calculates some mathematical number) 70 + 30-20+10….= a very odd number that still is adding up.. subs… Honestly I have played, toyed, mindfucked, used, tortured (thinks about Red Room of Pain), mentored, trained, considered, sessioned, and only a select few loved… at least a 100+ different sub males and throw in a few females here and there. So daily questioning my experience, actions, wondering if I’m even a decent Domme.. Third the Male Dom population….I get approached by males all the time.. They think.., “Oh she’s just a lil girl… ” or “I bet you’re a slut…” or my favorite “Can I fuck you..” It’s actually quite humorous that they even think that I would even want to fuck them. Just because I am a part of an alternative lifestyle that is coevolves on sex or kink doesn’t mean I want to fuck you. There’s a lot more to this lifestyle than just “sex”… or at least it is for me… I also find it humors when they call me a little girl.. It’s okay. You can call me lil all you want, because one thing I have learned is that this lifestyle has nothing to do with “size”. I’ll even give you an example … a baby shark… is lil.. image But trust me.. Lock yourself in a tank with that “lil” baby shark.. And you wouldn’t notice its size… all you would think about is that it’s still a shark. And maybe that’s why I am drawn to the lifestyle… I am right now not even at my prime.. I have soooo much to learn still… Everyday I’m learning something new… Hell I’ve learned something new this past weekend….I don’t know what it is yet.. I can’t place my finger on it… well actually I could… It’s called my clit but that’s not really what I was going for… but back to my point.. This lifestyle to me has always been viewed like an ocean.. or a sandy beach.. A few months ago I wrote about how my life would change once I fully engrossed myself in the water (lifestyle). Looking back now, I still feel that I haven’t even reached the full depths of this… that I’ve just been playing in the shallow end. I want to sooo badly just dive right down to the bottom of the floor…. And just stay there and not even surface for days… I want to drown myself in it… and finally live…. So what is it like to be Domme for me… It’s my life… It’s not a phase.. it’s not something I’m gonna outgrow… It’s me.. plain and simple.. dark and twisted.. kinky and sadistic… me.. :)

7/11/2014 8:23:32 AM: Attention!!! Attention!! If you are a follower on my blog I am changing my blog site. The effective date will be in Aug since I have to transfer all of my posts over to the new blog site. If you want the new blog address just ask and ill send it to you.

6/5/2014 3:28:02 PM: Ughhh I want a female!!! ..... Please the gods of bondage send me my lil one.... Amen

6/1/2014 12:45:03 PM: So I can officially say I've tried fisting. What to hear about it. Ill be posting about it on my blog. Miss Angel