A man once used the word esoteric to describe me.  I am very private and only let a few people into my world.  My mindset is very much like a little girl.  I love to challenge someone with authority.  I need someone extremely intelligent, who can always be a step ahead of me mentally.  I am very bad to disect people and that causes me to turn many men off.  I also bore VERY easily.  What I NEED is a man that will MAKE me be his.  I need someone who is gentle, yet firm.  Someone who will NOT let me back away.  When I am bad, I truely need to be handcuffed and spanked.  It is a type of "release" for me...if that makes sense I have tried vanilla relationships and they just don't work for me.  This lifestyle has become alot deeper than a "game" of something that is "bedroom" play.  It is a deep need and desire I have.  Guess some people would see me as twisted.  But, this is the core of who I am and what makes me happy.