I tried something on my own as is reflected in my picture here. I took one of those thick bands one uses on the wrist and stretched it so it would squeeze hard on my breast. No Dom/me has done that before but i wanted to know what it might feel like and also to be pro-active in putting myself in a position of some pain without being masochistic.

I found the band to give an intense sensation. Not a begging to stop.. just nagging ache, more than a throb.. I could not ignore it and it made me get to my knees to feel my place even though currently this one has no Dom/me.

Well, just another round in my explorations *s*.

As my journey moves along, i find i am draw to those who are unique and share their own needs and desires. Sometimes i cannot share their beliefs but on occasions i have found those who touch an inner cord, drawing out in me what i did not know what was there.

The journey in exploring a bi life is ongoing. I will say that perhaps my journey with the D/s lifestyle is beginning to focus more on Domme. The reason is that with all apologies to Doms, i have felt that to some degree i can flirt my way out of punishments or even create more of a level relationship with men. (yes, sadist aren't manipulated by flirts but i don't do sadists). i'm starting to think that a Domme would better suit me because it is often less about sex (even while exploring bi) than it is about submitting. To submit to a women would be more difficult for me than submitting to a man... just a thought. That's what journal's are about. 

Thank you to the people who have responded to my intitial post and question here.

I have had several other dreams about women, though I've yet to stop having a desire for males.  I guess I may be in the top of the "bell curve" going neither for all male or all female encounters. I like the bell curve reference because I believe there are some people who are toward the bottom right or left of the curve in terms of homo or heterosexuality. I think lots of us are toward the top and experiences push us one way or the other. "Gay/Lesbian" is not a choice for many. They just are that way and that's fine. I think for some (many?) people who consider themselves heterosexual there is still some room for homosexual encounters. That would make the top of the bell curve and most peeps bi. Just my opinion. *smile*