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**LOCAL ONLY (with in an hour) Married need not apply.** There is a lot to read so if it makes it easier to feel like it is a challenge to do so please feel free.?-lol-
I am a fairly seasoned submissive. I have been in this lifestyle since 1999ish. I have met many desirable and not so desirable people in the lifestyle with in this time frame. I have dropped in and out and back into the community. Many of the years I was in the community took place in California (Mostly Sacramento/Bay Area). I have recently dipped my toes back into the community here in Grand Rapids Michigan Area and I am starting to meet some pretty great kinky people.
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Tidbits about me:
? I am an honest and a rather blunt person. I don?t try to hide the truth or try to avoid it. In my opinion not being honest about you or trying to hide the truth is the same as a lie. Although I try to be tactful, if you ask my opinion, that is exactly what you will get. So be careful what you wish for. lol
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? I am an "Introvert" that is working toward seeking outside of my comfort bubble socially. I am not a social butterfly so often you may see me standing alone observing or only speaking to a few. This does not make me unsociable or unapproachable so don?t be afraid to step forward and say hello; you might be pleasantly surprised of the person you will meet.
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? I have this whole Unconditional Love factor about me. I see that as a blessing and sometimes a curse. I realize people fuck-up and I have an understanding that we are all human so when you make a friend in me I do try my best to keep that. Everyone has feeling so if I get hurt/angry, I try to either work it out in my head or share my feelings and work it out with the person I am upset with. Forgiveness is always around the corner with me. I don?t harbor harsh feelings, usually I tend to forgive someone during the time I rationally discuss my feelings with them.
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? *l am a emotional masochist which means I have the need for humiliation and emotional abuse. I need an emotional Sadist in my life or at least someone with emotional Sadist tendencies. With that said, if someone breaks a person emotionally, they need to built them back up so that they can be stripped away again at another time. This creates an amazing connection between a Sadist and masochist.
I am a self-reflective person and sometimes think too much. I appreciate when I am told that I am doing just that, over-thinking, so the behavior can be corrected.*
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? In a D/s relationship I do my best not to be bratty or top from the bottom. I have done that before in a past relationship and found the outcome to be very undesirable.
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? Mistakes are made; I try to learn from them so that history is not repeated.
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? Currently I am single and free to go and do as I wish. I am a mother with 1 child that is coming up on adulthood.
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? I have a whole lot of kinks, things I desire or things I want to try. They are too lengthy to write here so feel free to browse my list below.
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? I am a strong submissive, there is nothing weak-willed about me. Although, I do feel as if I need guidance in my life and certain micromanaging is welcome.
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? I believe that good D/s relationship start from friends first and it is important to take time in that before it can evolve to a higher level.
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? I now have a Protector. He is someone that I have known in real life as long as I have been in this liferstyle. He cares about me and has an insight to the person that I am. He looks out for me and is concerned about who I see and the decisions I make.
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? I am undergoing big changes in my personal life. I am replacing bad habits with good ones and I am very proud of the decisions that I am making and the evolving person that I am becoming.
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? You don?t have to believe in a higher power but I do and I am a spiritual person so I am not looking for some egotistical -->insert colorful metaphor here
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What I seek:
? A strong, loving dominant. Someone that has the desire to know the person that I am and understands any difficulties I may have and is willing to work with them.
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? Someone that can challenge me, put me through my paces at times and find enjoyment in doing so.
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? I don?t seek a perfect person or devilishly good looks necessarily. What I seek is a nice ?flip coin? of Strength, controlling, mind fucking, mild to moderate humiliating dominance, mixed with a loving, nurturing daddy-dom like side of the coin as well. I believe there has to be a balance in order to keep a person from feeling oppressed or to also keep them out of the ?friend zone?. Being a friend first and being in the ?friend zone? are 2 totally different things.
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? Someone that has that Daddy quality. He has the nurturing side of himself that will take care of his baby girl and guide her to be a better person then she already is.
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? Rough around the edges can be a good quality, especially if it is sexually. lol Drool-sputtering throat fucking and the demanding harshness of owning all 3 holes can be a good thing, a really good thing. Pain and pleasure is such a delicious mix.
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? I can?t guarantee that I will ?fall in love? but I tend to eventually love my dom and become very devoted to him. I don?t expect my dom to ?fall in love? with me but I do expect for him to love me. I?m not a big fan when the feelings are not mutual but I do understand that sometimes love trumps mastery and that some dominants can?t be in love and master their submissive at the same time.
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? If you have a bit of a jealousy/possessive trait it can be a plus. I don?t try to say or get myself in situations to cause my dominant to be jealous but I don?t want to always hear ?I trust you? either. I take people as face value and can be vulnerable to and not actually realize that some give out ques of certain trickery. Trusting your submissive is great, trusting everyone else with your submissive, not so much.
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? ?No? can be a nice word. I expect to be told it from time to time. I don?t want someone who will just tell me what I want to hear.
There is so much more that could be added but if you are still reading at this point, you have won the opportunity to Kik me: angelstorment
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