Been feeling frustrated lately !!! I'm trying to be as patient as I can be but It's very hard when certain things bother me and I have to just keep my mouth closed !!! HMMMMMM

I met someone who makes me feel so damn amazinling beautiful ! he sees my heart and takes his time to get to knoe me ! the real me !!!he asks questions  about me and i love that ! we have a deep connection !! instant connecion !!!!!!!! 

sad :( one of my best guy friends just died and i held his hand till his last breath ... traumatizing experience ......he was only 35 :(

im a functional mentally unstable human ! ha ha ... 

I got a visit from a Dom (I met off here ) at my work the other day , I hate personal visits at work , but he gave me the biggest hug and I returned the hug . I didn't realize how much I needed that hug . He made my day :) Thank you for that (you know who you are) .

I miss the dude who lied to me ! It's natural to miss him . But I am a strong female and I bounce back quick ! I miss the friendship I thought we had , the laughters , the being able to be myself and him not judging me . I want that friendship back , but then again I think to myself ( he is not your friend . He treated you like shit behind your back  and lied lied lied ) I have a gazillion friends that are not liars . And if there are there is a legit reason then so be it , I understand !

i didnt realize how many people read my journal post ..yahll want more ? lol i just speak my thoughts .. well i guess i will write more ...lets see i want to grow my bush out i want a fur puff ball lol :) my ex use to say let it grow so when im out with my girls im not tempted to fuck someone else and cheat , i was like wtf ? a hairy pussy will not stop a man from fucking it nor will it keep me from cheating lol ....

So I need to vent . I thought I developed a friendship with a man I met off this site , but to my surprise it never really was a true friendship . He totally lied to me and to my fucken face (not cool)( at that)  , I know i'm a very difficult female to get into a relationship with , but i'm very easy to have a true friendship with . Friendships are everything to me . When trust is broken between two people that care for one another , well lets just say its very hard and pointless to continue from that point on ! Sad part about my story he has no clue what the fuck I found out  :) . I let this dude stick his dick in me , and I am very picky of who I let do me ! Of course he stuck his dick in me before I know what i know .I gave this dude 100 percent of my honesty because I considered him my friend . Shit sometimes being to honest might bite you in the ass . I don't get why this dude would lie , If there was no reason for it ? I did not try and claim him as mine , I did not care if he hooked up with another female , all I wanted and deserved is respect and honesty . He could've told me he just fucked so and so and then asked if he can come over for me , and because of his honesty I would have said yes !He can be dating five bitches and I'd still let him come fuck me , only because he was honest !!!!!!! There is no dick in this entire world that i can get sprung off of ! I don't give a fuck if it made me squirt , cum , or made me crave more , that just doesn't spike my interest . The mind is what turns me on more than anything , and I love to sit in your head . I'm still debating on what turns me on more , physical or mental  ?? I think mental is winning :) . I have only met one guy in my entire thirty years of living who actually captured me ! He was my male version of me , and we had a wonderful 2 year relationship . Too bad his temper was as bad as mine :( , if not I would have married him in a heartbeat ! Ok so i'm done venting :) I feel good ! Day 1 of my 7 day detox from alcohol ! I WANT A FUCKEN DRINK !

got to much going on in my life . im an addict to alcohol ! im an addict to work . an addict to my manager . i hate dating , and hate boyfriends , i love to be single and have no feelings , im like a dude i like to hti it and quit it !i fucked up and caught these stupid ass feelings for a married man ! this is so?against?my fucken rules ?.. a rule Rosie ? i guess not !

mmmmmmmm there is a first for everything i totally made myself squirt tonight ! practice makes perfect ..............:) i think i might sleep ...........

I got lots of mail !!!!!!!!!!! I will respond 

I am a bitch but not your bitch so you have no right to start a conversation with me and the first thing you write is bitch ........

Second so what if I write i instead of "I" and doin instead of ''doing" and u instead of "you" are you fucking serious this is a website for adult sexual pleasure ! Not submitting a resume for work or school !!!" r u fuckin serious ? "

i choose to be be picky of who i decide to fuck ! maybe i shouldnt be . hmmmm... im very fucken sleepy this morning 

Biggest turn off , if your married or have a girlfriend .... i fucken hate that if ur wife knows then im all good if she is in the dark then fuck off ...............

im not ignoring anybody i have 2 pages of mail .........

good hygiene is a must ! and if ur going to have a bush please trim..................

Fake Ive been called :) its all good ! FUCK YOU TOO AND SRRY I DIDNT MEET ALL YOU WHO CALL ME FAKE SOONER ! I really missed out !  

lol my friends laugh at me cause im on this site ahhahaha i laugh with em 

ok so ....... im just not into the whole cock shot picture thing its fucken grosss to me ! no i will not send u a picture of my clit so no I DO NOT WANT A PICTURE OF UR COCK ! wut am i suppose to do with it fuck my computer monitor ????????big assssss turn offf

i hate tv and movies its all fake shit too mee ;/