I've realized that being a submissive ultimately isn't about what I thought or wanted. I can't and won't do anything that isn't a reflection of my Dom. It's about my complete obedience. I've learned over time that it is about allowing myself to surrender my needs, wants, desires, and control of self to my Dom, entrusting my welfare in the hands of my Dom. I, as a submissive, want to kneel and sit at the feet of my Dom, until instructed to do otherwise, as is my hopes for any future submissive that may join us. I, as a submissive, also seek discipline, structure, rules, and complete authority over me as I need to broken of my ways and be only that of what my Master molds me to be. I want to figure out my personal motivators (rewards) and what I consider punishment (negative reinforcement). I want to learn what my hard and soft limits are. I ask consistency from my Dom to mold me into all that he expects of and from me. I want my Dom to be proud of me as he watches me grow and learn all that he has to teach and offer me. I want to know my place as a submissive, and I would expect any submissive that comes to us to learn and know her place. Choosing to obey, knowing that I don't have to is my sole choice to make, but rather I ask you to handle my ups and downs, I need you to take the lead and make decisions that are best for me, instead of giving into what I think, want, or demand. Submission is something I choose to give. I want to be, how I see myself. It is not just about pleasing you, my Dom, it is also about pleasing myself, pushing myself to the limits, and going out of my way and taking it one step closer to fulfillment. I make myself available to learn from you, the person that touches my life in so many ways.

To me, the sense of breaking a submissive is taking someone you care for, breaking their spirit, their personality, and reducing them down to nothing more than a blank canvas so that you, my Dom, can imprint your wishes, desires, thoughts, influences, and actions on. I'm a painting in progress waiting to come alive to the eye. Helping myself veil after veil to find inner joy and balance that comes from knowing that with each veil removed, each boundary crossed, I become more of who I already am. In everything I do I see myself through your eyes who and what you want me to be. I am a creation in the making and I know that it is a process. I know in time that I will become the picture on the canvas oiled into all the beauty that I possess.

One thing I am trying to do is set the direction and find character in my life. I am in search of how I can best use all that God has given me - talents, passions, resources, opportunities, and experiences. I want to discover the unique contribution that I am able to make for the betterment of others. I believe in the providence of God. I believe every life has significance in the eyes of God, and whatever comes my way, good or bad, God will see me through to a fulfillment beyond my current circumstances. I don't want to confine myself to doing the expected, but I want my vision to be beyond myself, to live for a larger purpose, to fully embrace opportunities to share compassion. I want my vision to have value, so that it will resonate with what I believe God's purpose for the world, so that it contributes positively to the lives of others. I want my purpose to inspire others to reach beyond anything ever imagined. I've learned it's important to have a plan. A plan gives direction to life. I want the significance of my life to be measured by how I helped someone else find the value in his or her life. I want my commitment to be to a worthy purpose, so that I may apply my talents, knowledge, and skills to that purpose. I want to be able to go beyond where I've been and everything that I have done, and let my positive potential go forth. 
I value tough challenges. I reflect on past experiences. I learned to anticipate and solve problems before they occurred. Life is a never ending learning experience. I began to see my life's purpose was linked to the needs and desires of others when I was a young child. It revolved around helping others. My greatest opportunity to demonstrate my ability to solve a problem came as the result of an unpleasant situation. People approach problems in different ways. Over the years, my problems tended to defeat me, as much as I would try to ignore them, or tied to delay responses to them. Maturing into a young adult woman, I learned to look for the hidden pearl in all of my problems, and to tackle those problems with confidence, wisdom, tust, a positive attitude, and a willingness to obtain wise counsel from those I tusted. I believed in an optimal outcome. I've learned to have a willingness to perceive situations from different perspectives. 
I've learned not to have the mindset of failure. I try to have a spirit of tolerance, self confidence, self acceptance, honesty. I try to respect myself regardless of the circumstances.