OH YES....

I'm going on a cruise! One of my best friends (of many, many years) and I are going on a cruise over St. Patrick's Day...Of course it helps that we are both Dommes...mistrezofmre (for those who are interested)! Now if only we had a couple of toys. Living, breathing toys, toys we can use for fun and pleasure. Oh, so much fun!

Interested?

PS - I don't share well, so one for Me and one for Mre!

Thanks to everyone who has been so kind about my venting...I really do appreciate it!!

SICK SICK SICK...I HATE BEING SICK!!! I feel awful and I just want to be taken care of!  even get all whiney and I HATE being whiney!!!

J F'in C!!! Ok, seriously, yes, this is a specialty site, but shit, I'm not a skank, ho, whore, slut or anything else like that! I have a sex drive, sure, but come on! Do you REALLY think that I'm going to have a couple of converstions with you online and then go fuck you? play with you or do anything else?? Yeah, there might be other people who do that, but that's not me. If that's what you think will happen, move the fuck along. I'm sick to death of stupid pieces of shit who think they are worthy of my time! So far there might be 1 - ONE - that I'm willing to meet. If you suggest getting a hotel room, it's NOT YOU.

You want to know me....You find that I am very approachable, but hidden. I don't respond to you very often or when I do there is a tendency to rebuff your advances.

Ask your self why. There is always a reason. I like things to be a certain way. I like manners. I don't enjoy chatting on yahoo or aim or any of those sites. I don't like people who approach and beg. I enjoy a conversation, conducted by email to begin with. A conversation about more than sex. It might eventually turn sexual, of course, that is what this site is about, out sexual and lifestyle fetishes.

I am different than most of the women you might encounter. I do not want your money. I do not want your chastity. I do not want to cuckold you. I want a man who is submissive in his soul, someone who understand that it is not just sex, that it is who I am. Someone who wants to get to know the person that is Dominant.

My ultimate goal is to find someone I an marry. I am a loyal person at heart and demand the same.

There you have it...a small amount of insight into what will win my affection, if you truly seek it! 

I'm home again after 3 weeks in Maryland! A beautiful place, but I kept expecting to see it raining frogs. Earthquakes, hurricanes...it was the next logical step, right?

Travelling to MD again for work...lucky me! More planes with babies and annoying people who talk. I'll be stuck there over the weekend this time. What the HELL do I do???

Stress... we all have it, we all feel it, and we are all affected by it. Some of us try for a simple release. I bake and crochet when it gets really bad. But what do you do when it feels like your world is shaking apart? Do you just grin and bear it? Do you take it out on somebody else and hope it doesn't come back to haunt you? Do you become a sleepless wraith watching late night TV or do you sleep for hours and hours on end?

The world is what it is. We will always have stressors in our lives. Work, family, friends. It doesn't matter, they are all stressful in their own way, and I am not apart from it. I feel it every day, just like everyone else. Sometimes, when it gets really bad I cry because I don't know what else to do.

It's funny, there are times I wish someone could swoop in and save me from it all. Then I realize that it would just piss me off because I can save myself, dammit. And then I would try to control the angle of his descent when he swooped in and just how much lifting he was supposed to do. Does that make me too much of a control freak to let go of the insanity of my life? If it does, I am seriously screwed!

More than a Domme...

I think that you forget that while I am a Domme, I am also a human being with feelings. I don't exist in this world to dominate you. I am more than that...I am a woman, first and foremost. And like all women, I have emotions that need to be fulfilled. I canot enter this lightly. Where I give my collar, I want to give my heart. Those who truly know me, the friends I have shared my heart with, know that I am capable of the deepest feeling. I am more than you realize. I am a bright, intelligent woman, I am a soft, kind woman. I am all of these and so much more. I have not chosen many of you because you don't see ME. You see the Domme, the womn who is confident enough to control you, but you don't see beyond that to the woman who needs you as much as you need me. What I am seeking does not stop at the bedroom or one night. It is an extension of who I am...mind, body, heart and soul