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Oneiros123
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I have been away long,
but here I am once again...
I am seeking dominant
men and friends. Oh I am
always seeking new friends!
I love meeting people and
learning from them and
whether they know it or not,
they truly help guide me to
being a better person, even
if it may be negative
encounter.
I am going to be very
honest and tell you
that I have a little girl.
Her father is gone, but
not forgotten. I realize
a lot of people don't
want situations where
there is a child involved
and I can respect that.
I'm not in any
relationships. More
about me, if it pleases
you to read on?
I do not have a photo
on my profile because
I am a bit on the camera
shy side. As I get to know
people I feel much more
comfortable sending them
my photo then. I do not
think I am ugly in the
least bit, and I don't
want to offend but if
I am not comfortable
then it will be harder
for me to open up
to you. I am in no
rush and want to get
to know people as
well as I can before
taking it further. The
very last thing I would
ever want to do would
be to hurt anybody.
I'm submissive, always
have been and always
will be! It is in my
heart, body and soul.
I have had some
Masters' in the past
and I hold nothing
against them when
things did not work
out. I have truly learned
from each of them and
thank them for the
effort they did put in to
me! To have a Master
is true bliss for me!
Every moment of my
day is spend thinking
of him and needing
him, wanting to hear
his voice again and
always, always waiting
for him. I wish only
to please him and be
accepted in to his life
and world, and cherished.
I feel this, among other
things he may see fit
to give me is a great
honor. With no Master
in my life there's a
great emptiness that
wants to be filled. I
am not one to sink
in to some void, in
a state of pining.
I will stay afloat and
wait, letting some pass
me by with some
sadness and regret
perhaps, until I find
him...and he finds
me. I only hope to
bring only pleasing
things to him. My
personality is rather
quiet, though I know
I talk a lot in my
profile. It's really your
first glimpse in to me
though and so when I
write this profile, I
write of me and would
be honored if one would
move towards better
understanding me. I
am shy and
sometimes I need
a little push. I've
been told this is
not a bad thing. I
simply don't open my
mouth unless I honestly
have something to say.
I will never, ever talk
for the sake of hearing
my own voice. I am
really soft spoken.
When I get angry, and
feel the passion of
anger overcome me,
my friends think it's
cute. I guess anger
really doesn't work
well for me, hmm? I
observe. I'd far rather
step back and observe
and learn before
involving myself in
something I might not understand.
A bit more about me,
though more I would
reveal on a more
personal level and
not here... I enjoy
online games! Yes,
another role player!
It has helped in some
ways actually, for I
take my submissive
nature in there with
me! In Second Life
I role play a kajira
and am always
expanding on the world
of Gor. I love the
books and while I am
not a real life 'life styler'
I feel natural beauty and
grace is very important
and it is a part of my
real life. This was pointed
out to me by a friend
who believes it comes to
me, in my movements
and speach though
sometimes unconciously.
I love meeting other
role players as well.
I am a slave, or
submissive. I understand
the difference between
the two and please if
you wish you are more
than welcome to ask
me anything you wish
and test my knowledge
and perhaps what I
would further need
to be more pleasing.
I enjoy and learn from
ideas and suggestions.
Really I have one limit
and that is, I do not like
sexual encounters with
women. I stick only to
men. I am not bi. My full attention is on a man,
and a man alone.
I love Anime! For th ose
who do not know much of
Anime, I simply say not
all of it is like Pokemon
and the like. I'm not
really fond of Pokemon.
I mean more adult-
themed Anime I like
political intrigue,
historical, echi, some
hentai, a lot of school
life or slice of life
because it goes in to
culture, comedy and
some romance. I am
not really a sci-fi fan
though I do not usually
clash horribly with
fans of sci-fi.
I enjoy reading and
adore writing! I truly
love creating stories
and bringing them to
life on paper
I think that is what I
wished to share here
about me. If you read
this far thank you!
I am honored and hope
if nothing else, that
this profile has pleased
you and brought some amusement to your day!
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My search continues once again...
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I am starting to wonder...
I haven't heard from my dom in quite
some time. I hope that he is all right.
Time moves on and with each passing
day without contact I worry and hope
that he is all right. Maybe I am being
silly for worrying so. Perhaps something
has just come up, but I still worry. I
cannot help feeling that way.
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Today has been very hard for me.
Events progress in ways that are
often out of my control, and though
I am submissive in nature, I still wish
to control certain events more. When
I cannot, I can only sit by and helplessly watch what happens. In these events
you can't turn back and the end result
is pernament.
It is with the events as of late that I
write this entry and to mention my
Dom. We're new together and we are
still getting to know one another but
already I feel so drawn to Him. When
I am happy, He is happy along with
me. When I am sad, He is there for
me with no words more true and gentle.
When I feel lost, He helps me to discover
and understand myself. When I am in
good humor and laugh, He shares in this
and laughs along with me. And when I
long, in my wildest hopes He longs with me. |
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I am starting to wonder. What do I do when
I feel there is no contact anymore? It seems
I have been getting that a lot lately from
people. Everything was 'peachy' and then
suddenly I've no clue whether they are
even interested in me, whether it be my
friends or other. Perhaps I should not be
so upset and look to it as 'there are many
out there in the sea and some friends you
have yet to meet' but even so...I miss them.
Friends and him... |
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I am not actively seeking anything but friends. I will continue to check my mail
here and respond to those friends that I
have met through here. As a friend, I will
continue to keep in touch. |
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At this time my profile says it all. I'm going
through some soul-searching right now
and I know that life goes on so I'd better
pick up the pieces and go on with it. I
know there are many different tests out
there and most are never easy ones
but they always give me the chance to
learn from them no matter which way
they may go. These days are no different.
I've learned that I can't stop being who
I am and no amount of pain inflicted by
myself or others is going to change those aspects of me that allow me to be who I
am, and through it all my desires to serve
in a close d/s relationship will not change.
It's my nature, who I am.
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So far I've met some very interesting people from here. It's been a pleasure to meet you and begin to get to know you. However, I realize that without intent some assumptions have been made. This is because I was not clear enough in my profile, and for that I apalogize and I hope to be more clear with this journal entry.
As of right now I am looking for friends from this site, and people from my area. I enjoy meeting people, enjoy their insight, advice and personality. Whether you are near or far away it is a pleasure to meet you.
The 'He' and 'Him' that I refer to in my profile is refering to the Dom who has been training me. Whether this is long term, complete will depend on my training and His and my feelings but I will say that I am truly hoping that this will be more than temporary. |
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