11/18/2017 8:09:04 PM

"On your knees." He calmly commanded. Without even a flicker of hesitation I dropped to my knees, wanting so badly to show him in these acts of complete compliance how much I trusted him. When I peeked upward at him a slight smile was enough to tell me my quick reaction had pleased him. His ice blue eyes were sparkling brilliantly, looking at me so intensely it made me blush. I wondered if it was because I was still brand new to this world as well as newly his and it was exciting to do things to me that shocked me, or because he enjoyed me in this submissive vulnerable pose. As he made me wait for what was coming next - after all, waiting is half the mind- fuck and therefore half the fun - I could feel my heart beat a mile a minute, my face flush even more, the cold tile of the kitchen floor through my jeans, and every nerve in my body stand at attention, just waiting to react to his next demand as quickly, efficiently and gracefully as possible. What he did next was one of my many first firsts with him. He stepped in front of me and unzipped. Certain he was going to shove his cock in my mouth, I started to rise up slightly to meet him and anticipate him. But that's not what happened. He peed on me. Urinated all over my white tank top without a bra underneath, all over my jeans, right there in the kitchen. I couldn't even- what in the world- oh my god. If anyone else in the world had done this to me without a second thought I would've stood and lost my mind. But not with him. The way he commanded my subservience with complete authority, I never felt even a remote need to challenge him. Instead I felt deliciously degraded; finally, a man who would put me in my place, exactly where I desperately needed to be, and keep me there. It was so liberating and eye opening. I felt violated in a way that opened me up and made me more vulnerable to him than I had ever been to any other. On what I can only think of as a deep primal level I felt claimed. Owned. With that act I felt the powerful 'this is mine' ownership being established. I knew right then in those few moments he deserved to own me and hell or high water I would do everything in my power the rest of my life to stay owned by him.

11/16/2017 5:30:00 AM

*Tickle fights that turn into sex. *Being Flirted with in a way that's original and refreshing. Partners talking dirty to me. *Flirting and talking dirty. *Being told after sex they can still smell me on them and they are pleased by that. *Being told by my partner(s) that they want me 😍 Telling me I turn you on in ways that drive you absolutely crazy turns me on more than anything else ever will. *Spend the hours we may be apart telling me things you're going to do to me when you get your hands on me. "I'm going to kiss, lick and bite your thighs little girl, because I love the way you quiver and writhe when I do." "I'm going to make you cum all over my fingers baby girl, then make you suck off all your cum because you're a dirty little fuck toy." The art of dirty talk as foreplay and during a session is an absolute must for me. *Days my partner(s) can't seem to keep their hands off me for longer than 10 seconds, preferably in sexual ways, but nonsexual ways are ok too 😊 *Mornings my partner(s) stay in bed with me and wake me up with their hands and mouth all over me. *Long physically demanding and mentally challenging scenes that leave me completely clear headed with my Sir. Bare handed Spanking (personal favorite), flogging, having a blade dragged lightly all over my body, use the riding crop or paddle, humiliate me, treat me like the dirty slut I am, make me cry, try and break me. Fuck me hard, spit on me, tell me what a bad girl i am, put me through my paces until I'm a crying babbling sore sticky mess of a girl who can't think straight. *Being dominated to the point I'm kept on my toes and I'm so focused on what I'm doing and doing it well (like being made to kneel at his feet dressed in lingerie and heels and being ordered to crawl to retrieve items for him) when I can't anticipate what's coming next from my Sir is sooo good for my head, it quiets all the "noise" for hours. *Being forced to be the center of attention, because even though I act super confident, in reality I'm actually pretty shy about my body and humble. Being forced to be the center of attention (someone turned on enough by me to focus that much energy and thought and lust on me) makes me feel like I have reason to be confident. This includes Sir requesting a pic of me and when I start to make the excuse I'm not wearing makeup for it to turn into an immediate demand. An order to remove my panties in the bathroom and hand them over to Him in public. An order to place my panties in his pocket before he leaves the house so he can show them off. Also pics of me being shown off to His friends. And definitely being ordered to dress in a way that's pleasing to you - heels, lingire, naked, whatever. I don't care if I worked double shifts every day for a week straight and I'm tired... these things I can find energy for. *Time spent on me sexually. I have no idea if I'll like anal, but I love the thought of all the time it would take to stretch me enough to have anal sex comfortably and be a 3 holed slut for Sir. It makes me anxious as hell to get started, even though its kinda scary. *Being under scrutiny and being "approved". Seriously. Make me strip slowly for you, Stare at my naked body, look me up and down slowly, make me spread my legs and show you then say something like "you are so fucking hot" and my vajayjay is a slip n slide. "I love that tight little pretty pussy", "I have such a lovely little fuck toy", etc. *Tell me exactly what I'm doing that you like during playtime. Hearing you tell me what I'm doing that you like encourages me to keep doing it and makes me soaking wet, because I'm a pleaser and take great pleasure in pleasing. If you don't tell me then I'm only guessing I'm doing a fairly good job (remember, the shy and humble thing?) And that's not nearly as much of a turn on. *Daddy/baby girl role play is my favorite fetish, but only with my Daddy and probably the quickest way to get me turned on. *Being used by anyone Sir wants These are the things I cannot live without for longer than a couple weeks max non-negotiable since this world has been opened up to me, some of them before yet since this door has been opened it's a stronger more intense need. I crave them constantly. Beg for them. I love that their are others here like me, and that I have a Sir who matches me so well to give me everything I need. What are some of the things you cannot live without since entering this dark world?

11/13/2017 12:41:48 AM

Russell (47) straight and Tara (32) bi, from northern Illinois, planning to relocate south in 2020, possibly sooner (I'm in school full time and need to get my degree before we move). We make it a point to enjoy what life has to offer. Sometimes that is just a date here and there with couples or ladies, sometimes it's a play partner, and sometimes it's a good friend we hang out with, play with and date. I tend to lean toward preferring to add women to our dynamic because I enjoy the way women add to a home and our relationship (and sex life *giggles*) more than men. [I might be jaded toward men after years of the same messages of lines of crap over and over- I would love to find time to make a blog answering the same 15 questions I get messaged hundreds of times a week to just nip the lack of originality in the bud-, poor attitude when turned down -I've been called every name in the book for a simple "no thank you"- and the copious amounts of general douchebaggery that has become the social media male norm 😑]. However, if we found a needle in a haystack we'd be willing to give a guy a shot. Our ideal is a girl who is sick of people giving up on her just because things get a little rough. We need a hell or high water kinda girl. A girl who has been knocked around by life and is not only still standing but is asking "is that all you got?"... If you want partners who will be there for you when this happens and do everything in their power to make it better, if you want partners who will put you first above all others outside of our home, if you want partners who work hard and play harder, who are well rounded and intelligent and kind hearted and as kinky as they come, we may be what you're searching for. We are 24/7 D/s, with DD/lg and M/s flavors. I am an alpha sub. Dominate is who he is, not just in the bedroom. If you want to chat ladies, please feel free to message us. Cis females are our preference.

8/5/2017 9:36:31 AM

This 1 went further than most. Remember people its not real until its real. In this case it wasnt

6/21/2017 9:26:52 AM

Last night I was his stupid pathetic whore, Sir sent me out to be used, Then when I got home he spanked me and fucked me until his cum was dripping out of me. today I'm still nice and sore and lightly bruised and he's promised more today <3

6/18/2017 10:48:29 PM

Last weekend my Daddy took 2 days off to have a 4 day weekend atter working a month and a half with only 2 days off, and those 2 days he used to help family move. *He used his only 2 days off in a month and a half to help family move* To me, that speaks **volumes** of the man he is. Last weekend I managed to organize a completely kid- free weekend, so that we could spend it however he wanted. That happened to be wanting to do things with me, to reconnect with me, share some new experiences with me, and partake in adult fun we generally don't get to do due to children. We packed a whole lot of food, traveling, adult fun, laughs and wonderful lifetime memories into one weekend. From Thursday night until Monday afternoon we spent almost every minute together, even turning the mundane into a fun adventure. I have no specific rules on how I'm to dress daily generally, but I wanted very badly to dress sexy for him and keep my makeup and hair done, so Daddy would constantly have the sexy little blonde he loves to show off on his arm. Mission accomplished :) I wore short low cut summer dresses, heels or cute sandals all weekend, with very little inclement weather getting in the way... air conditioning, on the other hand :/ Saturday night we decided to go to one of our favorite local spots for saganaki (I tried that with him for the first time EVER almost 3 years ago, I LOVE that he introduces me to new things all the time since the beginning) and I was **freezing**. Literally shaking. Daddy saw that I was so cold and asked right away if i wanted to leave, but of course I didn't. I was having so much fun with him, enjoying the food, etc I would tough it out. Normally if he's wearing his sexy leather coat- that's about 5 sizes too big for me lol - he'd give it to me without hesitation. It being a warm night he wasn't. Instead, he called our waiter over and asked whar it would take to buy me one of their t-shirts. The kid laughed and said he had to ask a manager, he'd never been asked that. When the kid returned he said the manager said they couldn't do that, unfortunately. I couldn't help it; I teared up. Daddy asked me why. To have a Daddy who would go above and beyond to make sure I'm taken care of... to make sure that I'm warm and comfortable... makes me feel so loved and treasured. It touches the deepest recesses of my soul. It makes me constantly strive to be the best I can be, and relish every delicious second of serving him and pleasing him. That's not the first time, or the only time. This is a regular occurrence on his part. Going above and beyond in our daily routine to make sure I'm cared for and shown appreciation. The whole weekend he paid for everything. Whenever we go out, or order in, he insists on caring for me by paying. (LOL, boy did the feminist in me have *huge* issues with this in the beginning.) Whenever I'm stressed out to the max- 4 kids will do that sometimes- he insists on ordering food so I can sit with him and de-stress, or he will give me money and send me shopping. *thrift store addict here*. Sometimes he'll just hug me tight. Sometimes it's tickles and cuddles. He comes up with ways to make me feel better. To help my mental, spiritual and physical health however he possibly can. In return I work to be the best girl to him possible. Always. No matter what that entails. This, to me, is all about what bdsm is about. Having a Dominant that constantly makes me desire to serve him in every way, by taking care of me. The sex part of bdsm is wonderful, don't get me wrong. And his darkenss goes as deep as my own on that level. Which is pretty much bottomless, and THAT is rare to find. But, the emotional part... the bond through caring for each other every day... the incredible amount of intimacy that comes from the openness and honesty and communication... the deep, yearning, powerful need to serve him and make him proud of me that come from him caring for me so thoroughly and thoughtfully... words can't even explain the depths of this gorgeous lifestyle. If you've got that part down it'll open doors of the sex part you've barely even dared to dream about. It'll take you down a rabbit hole you never have any desire to come out of again. He is my prefect fit. The one no other man will even come close to. He's my first Dom, and I couldn't have chosen better. We've been searching for our unicorn for quite some time now. Many- **MANY** unicorn hunting naysayers say that couples look for girls to use, that Doms make their subs look for a 3rd and the sub will do it because she's told and not really be happy about it, as well as an overabundance of negative things. I share this glimps into our lives and say to the naysayers this- there are surprising and sometimes beautiful exceptions to every rule. I see so many women in this lifestyle who have fake Doms, or have had horrible, tragic experiences and I cannot help but think of how amazingly lucky I am. I'd love to share this with another. Daddy and I could easily meet another woman's needs and desires. {Real love is ever-flowing. Just because you love 1 person doesn't mean you don't have enough love in you to love anyone else.) Not just any woman of course; but *Her*. I know she's out there. And in return I know she will want to serve him and make him proud of her just like I do. And because we're connected in that way we'll have a special bond too. It'll be a lovely chaotic adventurous circle of love and trust and caring for each other. Xo

6/11/2017 1:26:42 PM

Sunday Funday! Oysters and Bloody Mary's at our favorite spot for breakfast, now off to the Dell's for shopping and gambling, yay :)

3/15/2017 1:23:31 PM

Much needed trip to the Dells this weekend.  If you see us stop and say hi but be polite. Daddy doesnt tolerate stupidity well. :)