Do you find yourself feeling something is not right? When I feel that way, I remember one simple thing.. trust your gut. Just over the weekend I was truly considering someone who might even fit into our dynamics completely. I was going to give it my all and set up a connection and take the time to do what I could to make things work. As I am Dominate in my relationship I wanted to bring in another man for my pleasure of doing the things my husband does not. This position may be very rewarding should it be done without hiding or avoiding.
If you think avoiding questions or tasks or even simple things like what's your favorite color, it does not help me to learn about you. If you want me to trust you, you must give me the same respect. I want to believe and trust in the person I am sharing my time with. It wouldn't matter if it was a love or a friend or a slave, trust is trust and you have to believe in the person you bring into your life.
With that said, sadly I felt that I was being misguided and lied to, should this person read this journal maybe he will understand I was asking because to much was the same.
I was talking to someone back over Christmas and asked that person to be patient since the distance between us was more then 15 minutes away there would be far more planning that needed to be done. Timing, working with each other and putting out other things for this to proceed. Then that person was under consideration and I told them that it would be in our best interest if we did not continue talking. If it was me who was considering a submissive/slave I would not want anyone else taking them in consideration as well for it is not loyal and first sign that they are not giving it their all. I want them to give me their all. Mind you that person gave me a picture.
Now I am talking to a new person who somehow has the exact name on Skype as the name here on collar me, he sends me a picture and the picture looks somewhat familiar, but I let it go. So we Skype so "he" can be sure I am real. As I told him I do not put energy into something I do not wish to proceed with. So I Skype for I truly thought this guy was going to be the one who sticks with us for a while.
When I asked about the other profile he denies having it. So I gave him 2 things to do. Write me a little essay about where he would like this to go, and to fill out a form that would give me ideas about what he has done, likes to do, will not do or wants to try... Very simple almost too easy to do. I am not asking him to spend money on something, I am not asking him to buy me lunch and bring it to me so to prove he wants to serve me... Just a simple task.
I think of the events that have happened over the weekend, how I explained that I had limited time and would not meet up with him until Monday. Now he's telling me how he needs to see me and wanted to drive up. Begging to come see me on Sunday (Mother's day, which I was spending with my mother and children) and I reminded him that I was busy as I was open and honest as I could be during our Skype conversation, touching each situation that might arise.
Sunday night I ask him what he was doing, and he tells me that he was trying to fix his car. Apparently it was not working after he wanted to go somewhere. Later that night I text him to see if he did the tasks that I asked of him and that I was going to bed, no response.
Well this morning I asked him to message me before a certain time to make sure he would be meeting up. I wanted to meet him in person with my husband whom is very aware of anyone I talk with, as we are more then Dom/sub relationship here. Since he ignored my message before I went to bed I started digging in old mails here on Collar me.
I have a picture, I have a name, I have a general location. Funny he's hidden his profile after I asked him about the other profile, so I can not compare the two, but I have enough information in my mails to compare.
So I log into Skype and I messaged him there. It showed him on line when I messaged him.
I look at the picture and put it in a program and take the other picture which I was sure was him as well and put them side by side... I snap a picture of it and I send it to him saying he's lied to me and refused to do the tasks I have asked. Next thing I know Skype shows him off line. But he's texting me now telling me he's never met me, and why am I posting his picture and how he was putting up his guard and this was why. I tell him that the pictures were from Collar me, from people mailing me and sending me pictures... one he fessed up to owning and the other he said was not him.
he then proceeds to call me and I am in the middle of telling him that he lied and refused to do the simple tasks I asked him to do. So I do not answer the phone and continue to reply my message. He then tells me if I can not pick up the phone, then do not text him and he didn't lie about anything.
By now he's called me and I answered and he is almost yelling at me telling me why he's guarded... here I am trying to tell him that the profiles are pretty damn similar and he should give a shit... but instead I hung up on him. A submissive who wants to yell at a Dom... well any man who wants to yell at a woman because he feels violated over a picture really blows me a way. He proceeds to text me after that and tells me his number is now disconnected and to leave him alone.
Now I am thinking this is not worth my time, my energy, I am telling him why I doubt him. So then I go to the mails I have received, that has the same name as his Skype name and take a picture of the mail with his picture in it... My final text to him was" you can ignore me but I am trying to show you... If it's not you, someone is playing you... using your picture, your name. I'm done, don't play the victim. Good luck in life.
Here I am giving him the proof that I have, his age is the same, his height is the same, his location is close, his picture... it's his picture, he told me so in his text. If he is trained, honest sub, who wanted to serve me, he would have listened, I did not raise my voice, I did not argue with him I wanted answers and I am sure if you had the same proof staring you in the face, and you had a doubt about it, you would know this feeling.
Dominate people are not always the one who is doing harm in the relationship. We are suppose to be responsible and considerate unless the dynamics are TPE, then there are fewer boundaries. But there are always boundaries.
If you've read this then you might see a piece of me not many do... I am not innocent and neither are you if you are on this site. You have a need or a desire, so do I. No one should be misguided, or taken advantage of.
Rose
