Have you ever really wondered why we feel the way we do? I do this a lot. Why do I crave the things that “Normal” people would find demeaning, disgusting, or downright unthinkable? Even as a young one I was amazed by Captain Kirk on Star Trek. He was so cool, sleeping with anything and everything he could, not caring about race or even species. The wants that drive me seem to fall farther from my grasp as time moves forward, yet I still have this longing to experience so much. My mentality and personality allow me to see the beauty in everything, even the things “Society” would view as freaks are intriguing to me. I want to experience these things in every way I can, yet with my life half gone I have yet to have these experiences. The question I ask myself is “Should I give in and stop seeking these things, or take a more direct approach?” And what is the next step to finding these things. Maybe I should just sleep and enjoy them in my dreams since reality is such a cruel and heartless mistress.