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About me as a slave:
My needs:
To know my limits will be respected at all times
To have sufficient confidence in the safety of a dom to be able to be safeword free
To be punished past enjoyment, to be pushed past where a safeword would be used
To have absolutely no control in a session once it's begun
No marks visible when wearing pants and a short sleeve shirt (for work reasons)
The first one is a given for all sessions, the rest will take time and patience.
My desires:
A dom who actually enjoys my suffering - someone who gains satisfaction in breaking me physically and mentally
A dom who is willing to work with me and have sessions on a regular basis
A dom who is creative and willing to improvise, preferably coming up with cruel and painful ideas
A dom who is at least willing to listen to suggestions I have before a session, but also not afraid to improve upon my ideas
To be tormented until I'm physically in tears and completely broken
BDSM interests (have experienced all except where noted):
Bondage (restrictive, inescapable)
Heavy CBT
Electro-play (such as with the ET-312 I have)
Lots of very rough anal penetration
Being forced to service someone
Being bound and used anally by several (haven't tried this yet)
Mummification
Being caged and kept as an unwilling slave for agreed upon time
Whipping / Flogging
Catheterization for long sessions
Soft limits (can be done on a limited basis if discussed):
Breath play
Being furniture
Blood play (with the exception of light blood from whipping)
Humiliation / Degradation
Hard limits:
Scat
Watersports
Sweat/Musk/Spit (that is, being subjected to these forcefully)
Strangulation
Piercing / Cutting / Branding
Sissification / Forced maid service
Openly public scenes (fetish parties or dungeon meets ok)
Before a session, I tend to have grandiose ideas and desires that I'd like fulfilled. However, I tend to try to backpedal when it comes to actually partaking in these ideas. I really DO want them to happen, however, I simply tend to be nervous and hesitant when I have a choice. THIS is key to my needs as a slave - I need to NOT have a choice in order to be satisfied in being a slave.
To give an example of a great session I had (not overly complex or harsh, but satisfying for all concerned):
There were 2 doms in the room, I was bound spreadeagle and gagged tightly. One dom was continuously swinging a weight on a rope at my bound balls while the other was whipping me in various locations. This continued for about 20 mins, non-stop... I went from pleading, to panic, to despair, to complete mental breakage. I was in tears. Afterward, they released me and I had to sit alone, quietly for about 30 mins to regain my composure. My balls were sore for the next 3 days and I felt great for the next 2 weeks.
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