You people who think you know how to use Photoshop, who post your face on someone else's body. I don't care how good you think it looks, it looks like crap and it's fake as shit.

As an artist who does this stuff for a living, it actually angers me that you think your inept skill is going to fool anyone but the most foolish.

Cut the crap.

I'm in that mood again.

This is not my first screen name here on CM. I've been here a while. I truly find it interesting how hard it is to find a reasonable match here when so many of us have the same interests.

So based on experiences I've had over the last six months or so, I've realized I really may be too nice. I'm a naturally empathetic person, and so sometimes it's a struggle to truly be commanding outside of the bedroom. I come across as too light-hearted, too friendly.

Not that I think I can change that. I suppose it certainly appeals to many submissives, however I find that when I really want to open up my darker side these same subs are not ready for that journey.

Perhaps I need to change my outlook. Perhaps I need to stash my empathy away when the kink comes out to play.

I was told recently that the first impression I leave is too nice, and that there's a feeling that I exaggerate my ability to do the things I say. Luckily that person's opinion has changed as she got to know me better.

I suppose I know that I don't look the part, and I may not even act the part on the surface. I find it fake and forced to show my darkness to people I don't know. Sometimes I'm worried about scaring people.

As we all get older I start to think about the future of things. It's amazing how most of us waste our time, fixating on the fear of stepping forward. Some day, you will look back and regret you didn't pursue your desires a bit more strongly.

We are taught to hold our sexuality close to us, to be leery of those who want to share it. That's a fucked up ideal. Perhaps you don't need to find perfection, but why are you sitting there with a mouse in your hand when you could be doing something that you'll remember when you look back?

I don't care how old you are now, time escapes us, and you might be sitting there doing the same thing next year.

So take a chance, be bold. Take dirty pictures of yourself (because you may never look better than you do right now). Go meet a naughty someone for lunch, or drinks. Kiss (or flash) a stranger. Be safe, but live your life, pursue your kinky desires.

Silence is worse than the words, it is not kind or safe, but cruel and harsh. I have never asked for silence.

Have you ever gotten that feeling that you're getting away with murder. Why would someone subject themselves to the things you do to them? These things that make Letters from Penthouse look like a G-rated Disney movie.

I highly recommend reading the ok cupid blog, very interesting insight into the statistics of relationships. A few months ago the post was about photos. The best photos to take, etc. One of the interesting points is that the less attractive you are, the older your profile picture. The fact is, we get older, fatter, etc. so our best pic could very well be months or years ago.

Think about this. If your best photo is six months old, you're doing it wrong. If it's a year or a few years old, then you're not being honest with the rest of us here.*

Yes I realize that it is very hipocritical of me since i don't have my own photo online here. One thing is for sure... I'm not attractive, but at least my photos are recent (lucky for me I get better looking as I get older... I figure I'm close to reaching equlibrium). Seriously though, my lack of photos is for privacy and nothing more. If you want to take a gander, just ask. I'm not really that shy.

*As a side note, I don't disrespect those with old photos, I understand that you want to show potential playmates/mates your best possible face. More dispicable is ripping off someone elses photo and using it for your own. Even worse is the people with marginal skill in Photoshop trying to cut and paste their head onto someone elses body. NOTE: You might think you're clever, but many of us can see a hatchet job from a mile away.