Gawd....what a boring day.  I had to replace the remote control to my cable box.  The FFWD button on the old one was shot to hell.  So, I get my new "universal" remote.  Open up the manual with all the codes in it, find my brand and set up the new remote.  It works, but its in an annoying way.  The old remote.... you hit the button and it did what it was supposed to do.  This one, you gotta hit the button for the device, then it'll do what its supposed to do.  I don't know how the old remote differentiated between devices, but it did.  Its annoying to have to hit an extra button.  lol.  That sounds terrible.  To fix the problem, I now use the remote for my stereo.  Instead of two remotes, I now use 3.  Universal.  pffffft.  Hmmmm, maybe there is a way to set it up like the old one?  I have not tried all the codes in the manual.  Or maybe I should just embrace change?  Change is a good thing.  Keeps one from becoming stagnant, getting stuck in a loop, or getting stuck in a rut.

Finding people to talk with on here is proving difficult.  I think the "honeymoon phase" of this site is wearing off.  Ya know, I do have 'friends only' listed on my profile as one of the things I am interested in.  So if I'm hundreds of miles away, we can still talk.  I figured its very I'm-not-wanting-to-put-my-cock-in-you kind of way to talk with people.  But I'm having trouble chatting up people from far away.  Maybe they are too concerned with people local to them?

Its hard to maintain a convo when only one person is doing the talking.  Some say, sure let's chat but don't really say anything.  It makes me confused.  Its like when my cat comes to me to be pet....then runs away.  It makes no sense.  I don't like things that do not make sense.  Prolly why I detest M Night Shamalama movies.

If you're reading this, hit me up sometime.

Its been a few days since my last post.  Its Saturday evening and I am without (kinky) plans.  Usually what ends up happening is friends come over or I go to a friend's apt.  You see, the neighbor across the hall and two guys in the other building.... we've been friends for years.  So most nights, we take turns hanging out at each others places.  It all depends on the night, who is home, and who already has company.  Some of our mutual friends do not get along.  There is an arts festival going on downtown.  That may be worth checking out, but parking will be a bitch.  Might be better to walk even tho its a far walk.

I just got a call from a friend.... turns out I'm getting a visitor around 12:30am :)  That will be nice, but that is four hours away from now.

Still have not heard back from ms x.  Its a shame too.  We were getting along so well.  I'm 50/50 on this topic.  50% thinks she is real and genuinely upset.  50% thinks its some faker.  Anyone can read my bloggins and learn that I have a cam and all about verifying if a person is real or not.  A faker will stay away from that because its going to eventually get to that point. 

I'm thinking about starting a list of users that have fake profiles.  If someone has pics on their page that are not of them AND they state that fact.... I can accept that.  What I can't accept are people that use amateur nude model pics or porn star pics or anything that can be found with a simple internet search.  Lying to people and fucking with their emotions are not right. 

Think its time to get going.  Gotta shower and make dinner.  Then who knows what?  Until 12:30 that is.  Then its happy fun time. 

If you're reading this, get in touch with me.

I saw this girl's profile on here earlier.  She's listed as a slave and wants to live with a couple.  She states in a journal entry "Here are the rules".  Then it goes on to explain a list of rules/conditions that she expects.  Since when does the slave get to make the rules?  I find it offensive.  She needs to be taught a lesson lol.  You know what I'd do??

Wrap a chain around her throat and padlock it.  She doesn't deserve a collar yet.  The other end of the chain is attached to 50 or 60 pounds of weights.  You wanna go somewhere, you gotta carry or drag that shit with you.  She'd then be bound, gagged with a dirty sock, get all of her clothes cut off, and be given a nice beating.  Stick a fatty butt plug up her ass and call it a day.  Well, maybe take a short break.  That's just off the top of my head.  I can prolly come up with better things if I took a moment to think about it.  

I bought a web cam today.  It even has a built in mic!  I cannot stress this enough.... I will not be jacking off on cam.  Ever.  That's not my thing.  This is for verifying who I am.  Wanna see that my pics match me or if that is really my tattoo?  Now you can.  I am real.  Besides that, video chatting seems like it'd be cool. 

In case you can't tell, this is my new place for my blogging activities.  I used to blog on myspace back when myspace was cool.  Then one day I posted a blog that got me fired from a job.  That's right.  I was fired over a myspace blog post.  It wasn't even that bad.  So, I took a break from blogging and sharing my thoughts with people.  Anyways, this is where my blogging will resume.

The way I see it... It will give people insight to my personality.  I don't use it as a soap box or say I'm such an awesome Master or Dom blah blah blah.  Most of the time its to vent frustrations and talk about the stupid shit in my life.  Don't expect any of my sexual exploits to be shared.  I may mention it in passing, but who I'm with and what I do will not be discussed in details.

Last night was my monthly DJ gig.  We were supposed to have bands playing.  Three of them to be exact.  Two didn't show up.  One of the two bands had the PA system all of them were going to use.  Everyone had to jump into crisis mode to figure out what to do.  Everyone except me....I was DJing while all this transpired.  By the time my set was done all problems were solved.  Then I got an urgent text from a friend who needed help.  Leaving early sucked, but my friend needed the help.  I was especially bummed because a girl that does not come out very often actually came out.  Guess I gotta wait until the next time.

Talking with someone earlier....we were discussing how to spot bullshit profiles.  I use a site called Tin Eye and it works well, but its not foolproof.  The person I was chatting with said the only real way is the webcam.  This is true.  I don't have a cam at the moment, but that will change tomorrow.  At first, my thoughts were... Don't get one until you need one....as in like maybe someday a woman will want to know if I am real or not   :crosses fingers:    

It will sound lame if I say, "Oh, I don't have one, but I'll get one"  If I were on the other side, I'd be thinking bullshit on that.  But if she's interesting enough, I'll give her the benefit of the doubt.  Once that 24hr period is over and she does not have a webcam....then I'll know it is a pretender. 

Its best to just get one and be done with it.  That way, when the time comes I will be able to turn the cam on and be like....see....I'm real.  Even show them my tattoo, so they know I ain't lying about that either.

Sitting here going thru new music for my monthly gig.  The amount of shitty music I have to endure in order to get the good tracks is immense.  Its worth it though.  I love music.  More specifically, industrial music.  It can lift spirits, change moods, create inspiration, and touch the soul.  I used to listen to music all the time.  When I was undeservedly removed from my first gig, I stopped listening to music.  Gradually, its crept back into my life.  Kinda like BDSM.  Getting back into the habit of listening to new music is a welcomed return.  Its rewarding to find awesome tracks and then share them with people.  The same can be said of BDSM.  Its also rewarding to fulfill a sub's need of discipline, punishment, or whatever she is desiring.  I'm a pretty open minded kind of guy.  Pretty shameless too.  I'll try almost anything once.  The same can be said of me when searching for tracks.  I will listen to a track at least once, then make a decision if it is club worthy or not.  

I've been on cruise control as far as being a DJ goes.  Recycling old tracks.  But this period is ending.  With the help of collarme, I am getting back in the swing of things.  Talking with people, looking at profiles, and forums are fun.  Having music to listen to while doing it makes it that much better.  It gives me a reason to spend a lot of time in front of my computer without making me feel like I've wasted a bunch of time.

People often inquire about why I am still single.  They think that just because I am a DJ, I get instant pussy.  This is not the case.  Sure there have been girls that were interested in me, but I am picky.  I'm not looking to sleep around with a bunch of people.  I've tried dating some of these girls....just for the subconscious desire for companionship.  But they are all vanilla and eventually hits a brick wall.  Sex sucks without any kink in it.  It turns me off and leaves me disinterested.  There is one that is into kink, but she is not the one for me.  Still, I'm considering playing with her.  She is the type that wants to get sexed after a good beating.  I do not really want to have sex with her.  I'm good at sex.  Really good.  If I sex her up, she is going to want it all the time.  Truthfully, the girl bugs me enough as it is.  Over a year ago, I sexed one of her friends.  I made her squirt all over my living room.  I know how girlfriends talk with each other, so I'm sure that came up.  It was around that time that I piqued her interest.

So I have one person that I am not attracted to that I can have BDSM activities with.  There just seems to be something wrong with all the girls in my area.  They act like they are into BDSM, but most of them think its a fad or fashion statement.  They don't get the dynamics of D/s M/s.....eh, a few do, but they are taken.  Not much I can do with them.  lol.  Thats why I am on this site.  To find someone real, but that is proving to be uber difficult.  There are so many fakes and pretenders!  Makes me sick.  And then when I do find a real woman, she has like 340 dudes trying to get with her.  I know I am a good catch, but its hard to convey that in an email.  And then have a long distance relationship?  idk?  I've always been against such things, but I am open to the right situation.....as long as it is not all the way across the country.  

Ok, so I found a woman on site that I click with.  That is not to discourage other women from talking to me.  I mean, nothing exclusive is even remotely close to being set up.  And there has to be more than one woman on here that I click with.

There is one that wants to talk, but has no "mental clarity" @ the moment.  Don't know what to make of that?  She must have some offline problems over taking her life.  I hope she gets well soon. 

There is another that I have messaged a couple times.  She has given my profile a look once or twice, but remained quiet.  Sent her another message, we'll see what happens.

All I want is just one woman.  Not a harem, a flock, or a stable...just one slave/sub that I can be with mind, body, and soul.  Sounds cliche but whatevs.... I'm too old to play games or fuck with anyone's head.  Mind games are the worst.  I refuse to play them.  I'm straight up honest and not shy about it.  My partner will be as well.

With that being said, I am curious about a poly household.  I've done it before.  Albeit short lived, it still happened.  But setting up something like this takes a superior amount of trust.  Its definitely not one of my main priorities of being here.  Its on my profile listed under Curious About, so I thought it best to address it.  That being said, my main want is one woman for a real time LTR.