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Hajimemashite! That means nice to meet you.
I'm studying Japanese with the hopes of doing translations one day. With that in mind, call me Momo for now, which means peach, for my perfect baby soft skin and lovely...peaches. 😉
It's fun to tease hehe. I'm a slave looking for her real master, someone who wants to own me forever, in the ideal. I did this backwards to most people haha. I started kinky 17-27 doing clubs, I was on boards of some of the biggest bdsm communities in NYC, going to the clubs every Friday, doing demos or, more often, being demoed on haha. I went on two week vacations where I did nothing but serve people. I say this to assure you that no, I'm not a newbie. But then it got harder to find sane normal doms my own age... and I wondered... what if vanilla? Long story short, nope. Haha.
My core desires to serve someone I love and who loves me. Ive recently discovered that I am very well suited for the DLG dynamic. I need a Daddy Dom, but I don't know how I feel about the outright age play or incest roleplay. It's new to me. Service is my favorite and most precious thing... doing a thing exactly so, precisely correctly, there is beauty in that. Having Him praise me, there is infinite butterflies in that that I haven't felt in way too long. But it's only right when He appreciates and respects my service, not someone who feels entitled to it.
So let's get to the meat of it. We are all kinky people searching for other kinky people on some level... but we are also people. So, here's a bit about me.
I'm looking for something real. I'm 31, so someone maybe 31-45ish, for practical reasons. I am hoping to get married and have kids and all that hearts and flowers fun stuff, I've known many wonderful M/S couples that have had successful marriages with kids, so I know I'm not looney for wanting this hehe. I want my Master(Daddy Dom) who I can respect who will own me and love me never want to let go of me. And I will serve him for the rest of my life, out of love and respect. That's what I want, in a perfect world.
So, I prefer no long distance, as you can't really get to know someone long distance, and trust me I've tried. Unless you have the means and intention to come visit me frequently and regularly, if you are not a traversable distance, I'm sorry I just cant go through that again. Local or at least drivable distance so we can see eachother is a must to develop a healthy relationship.
I'll be forthcoming with my emotional vulnerabilities a bit here, to say that I'm looking for someone to protect me, I need that protective energy. That's part of why a Daddy Dom sounds so perfect to me, protective and nurturing. I need that. A lot of shitty things have happened in my past, and while I'm largely over it, it's left my soul vulnerable, I feel. Some deep part of me is squishy and soft and needs protecting. I need someone who can be protective and nurturing and soft and loving in his domination, playful with me, but I'm still his little kitten, so to speak. ☺️ I'm a very loving person, with kind and nurturing energy, always looking to love, protect, and nurture people I love, so it balances out very well.
I'm immersing myself in the Japanese culture because I want to become an excellent translator one day. I believe in doing thing with excellence. I study and watch anime because I don't have much cause to speak Japanese sadly. I am always looking for that opportunity. But I do sing to my niece (she's a baby!) in Japanese and mumble to myself too haha.
I love video games and in my free time I'm often on my 3ds or my vita. I have a PS4, but I like having several sounds going on at once. :) I play a lot of different titles, I've been playing Final Fantasy and Pokémon both for 20 years now! Scary haha.
I'm also into most geeky fandoms, Doctor Who, Firefly, Angel, Miyazaki, most comics, Anime, Supernatural, Black Mirror, I can't think right now but if its nerdy and "alternative" I'm probably into it.
I'm a hopeless romantic. Gestures of sappiness or romanticness in any kind make me happy. I do them all the time. Little notes, song lyrics in a text, surprising him with lunch, anything that makes one feel loved, something significant, you can't always explain it, it might be just between you two. I really need sappiness and romantic gestures. I need to know I'm in his thoughts. It makes mrvfeel secure, and I recipricate all the time, whether its bidden or not.
I'm an avid reader. I have a bookcase that's 5 feet tall, after throwing out about 5 boxes of books,(that HURT me lol) those are my favorite books. I read about 3-5 books at a time scattered throughout my room. I love books.
I'm a writer. I'm working on a novel right now, but what I really do most of is study right now. I am a naturopath, but you cannot practice as a naturopath in NY, so I'm trying to complete my acupuncture liscence so I can have something to cover me so I can practice in NY. I'm very good at what I do, and I want to share it. I'm also trying to get my Japanese up to snuff so I can pass the first of the JLPTs as soon as I can. (Japanese Language Proficiency Test)
I dont often know or use slang, I'm kind of isolated in my study bubble. I speak rather proper, but I try to understand. I'm very curious about everything, the whole world. I ask questions when I don't understand something, and I'm not embarasssed not to know something. I love documentaries and text books. ❤
So if you're sappy, if you're a little nerdy, if you're curious, if you want what I want, and everything I've said about myself sounds charming, than please message me. I'll be happy to hear from you.
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"you have to watch out when someone abruptly changes their behavior without explanation. That's a bad sign."
My mom
You always hate it, but mother's have a wisdom and their often right when you want them to be wrong. 😣 |
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It's raining, and it sounds lovely outside. ☺️ |
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Sir and I fell asleep quite naturally and accidentally on the phone last night, listening to eachothers breathing, lulling eachother to deep restful sleep. When we woke in the middle of the night, he was just as pleased that that had happened as I was, and talked me down into deep sleep again. (I have trouble sleeping) before I knew it, I was sleeping like a baby. Hearing his breath in my ear, I could almost feel his warmth against me, his arm thrown around me... It made me feel safe. I miss him terribly already!
I have some awful yucky lingering virus with a lingering fever thats unrelenting. I want to run into his arms, but I can't really walk far, let alone run at the moment. And I would feel awful if I made him feel sick, so I have to wait until I'm well enough to be a normal person again. (well... As normal as I get lol) but it's driving me mad! I just want to touch him, hold him, nuzzle my face into his neck and run my fingers through his hair. I want to snuggle up on his lap and I can't wait until he starts to train me to be perfect for him. I'm so excited, and I'm growing resentful at my body for not complying and allowing me to recover quicker.
But today after waking up with him, my temp was slightly lower, and my heart was full of overwhelming feelibgs of joy and giddiness, security, and love. I felt safe and cared for, appreciated, and I was thinking from ear to ear thinking "he really appreciates all of me" and "he just wants the best for me" smiling, as he accidentally woke me from a midday nap, and lovingly admonished me for trying to stay up to talk to him. Sir sent me straight to bed, with soft living words, and promised we'd talk later. Which we did. Hes so good to me hehe ☺️❤️
I'd show you my temporary Protection collar, but it's nothing special. It's special to me because it's no longer "neutral" as it's connected to Sir. It's just a collar I've kept around since my clubbing days when I'd enter into a contract of protection with trusted platonic friends, a placeholder. Since then, it hasn't served much purpose. Now it had one, and since it's a bit big on me, it hangs and pools into the dips of my clavicle when I sleep, and it's uncomfortable, but when I notice, I dont know even care. I'm beyond myself with joy.
I just want to call Sir (that sounds scary, not because it's him, but because phones in general freak me out haha) and beg him to sleep with me again hehe. It feels like a high-school romance, but I loved it that much and more.
.Alright, I'm off to face my big empty bed... But it's less scary now, after he's been in it with me last night, to the best of our currently linited abikities. ❤️ Swoon! 😁 |
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Hate mail makes me cranky lol. I'm going to go back to ignoring it and being back in the afterglow fuzzy joy of Sir asking me to put "under consideration by my future owned" on my profile ❤❤❤❤ confidentiality, I can't wait until the "consideration" and "future" parts are gone hehe. ...ok it may need some grammatical refiguring so what! Lol. 😝
Oh but one more hate mail lol. It wasn't really hare mail, it was just a troll. I thought it was very funny. They were asking me how I could be owned since owning people is illegal in the us. I let them go for a while because it tickled me haha. But then they insulted Sir and I threatened to punch them in the teeth and blocked them lol. You don't threaten my would be Master. That's not ok.
I'm kind of scared to check my mail now lol
I used to work doing mentorship for people new to the lifestyle, mainly subs obviously. I wanted to get back into that. It's proving more difficult than I planned lol. I expected it to take a while to get some sort of reputation on the site, obviously, but yeah... Whole lotta nonsense.
Ok back to afterglow. *squeeze!* He did it! He totally did it. And he says I'll become his 😍💕 I feel so happy and safe talking to him, get the warm and fuzziest right in the heart chakra. Could it be something magical? I'm a hopeless romantic, so I dare to hope and dream all the time. Because this feeling is worth it. ☺ Hope is worth it. It's all worth it. You'll never get it all if you don't risk it all! 😉☺❤
So his words echo in my ears as I hug my teddy bear, and the warm and fuzziest spread out from my chest, and I go to bed. Goodnight! ☺️ |
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Lol wow got a lot of hate mail.
Ps, hearing things like "fuck you ugly cunt" from someone that looks like the spawn of a pig that got raped by a pelican, in an old sweaty T shirt, not that upsetting lol. Try looking more attractive, more successful, more classy lol. Otherwise, it's obvious that you're just another sad pathetic man taking out his frustration at not being able to get beautiful smart funny some like me, on the internet where he can run away like a cowardly crap dog when he's done. Oh I'm sorry, that wasn't fair to the dog.
Seruously, so much hate mail since I last checked my email?
Is it because I put that I'm taken?
how pathetic are these guys? Lol
Isn't it nice that cs put the "report" button so close and so easy to access?😄
Lets have a little clap for that button, and point and laugh at those cheeto-smeared fatass losers living in their mom's house looking for a slave so they can feel important and shouting at girls they know are out of their league to release frustration. dont give them your anger. Just "report" and ignore. 😉 Or have a laugh and write a journal entry if you get a lot haha. 😂 Wow. Puh-thetic. And you want someone to serve you? Be worthy of that first, little boy. Walk before you can run. |
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I've met awful people on here and one wonderful one, thank the heavens for that! One man tried to offer to use me as a "milk slave" and tie me up in barn and milk me 24/7... (doesnt this make him a farmer? I'm not a cow...) one man tried to act like we were master and slave before I'd even gotten to know who he was, and was demanding me to get up and entertain him bc he didn't believe I cared about him at all unless I would wake up and talk to him all the time, while I had a fever on 103 and was bed ridden and supposed to sleep... (needy much!?) one man tried to tell me he would "try" bdsm, but only talked to me about video games... (grow up much?) there's all kinds out there... a lot of them I want nothing to do with.
But I diligently checked my email. I wouldn't let one weirdo scare me away or do as they demanded and write that i was taken before I wanted to be taken. I'm not a slave until I agree to it, after all 😜
But now ive waded through the garbage and ive found someone id like to be taken by, and I hope it works out that way. someone found me, someone safe and sane and experienced, (like me haha! Oh well I dont know how many people would call me sane 😜 Lol) and quite lovely, and I've had dreams about serving him. Now he's asked me to place upon my profile that I'm "under consideration," and all my insides jumped up with joy as he did. Usually I'd take things much slower, but my entire being slowly bows to him whenever I hear from him, and I've had to bite my tongue to keep from calling him "Sir" until it was alright. It is my utmost wish to serve him, and please him, and make him smile, and only be his. So, from this day on, I am only his. And I ferverently wish to only be his from now on, so he may lay a collar on my neck, and I hope and wish that when he does, it never comes off; along with this big wide grin on my face. ☺ |
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