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I am a sadistic sub--sometimes I wonder if my supposed "masochism" is not really auto-sadism. I believe I am a slave-type submissive--master means everything to me, his pleasure and ease are far more important than my own. I want to serve him and please him in every way possible. and if anything about me displeases him, I will strive to become "better". I desire his love and protection in return for my submission. Master is second only to God. I identify as a switch because I do enjoy being dominant, and sometimes will display a strong need for control, but I prefer to be sub, most of the time. For me, being a domme is something I only want to do in a committed relationship, I am not sure why, perhaps because I don't have any clue what I'm doing and I need to be able to trust my sub not to laugh at my mistakes T_T.
I am a Christian, and will not do things that will compromise my values--particularly my purity. I am committed to staying a virgin until marriage, and will not engage in bestiality, homosexuality, or having multiple partners. I will not participate in anything but the most mild forms of exhibitionism, and I do not like voyuerism (including the use of porn, though I am okay with hentai). I will not engage in physical things outside of a committed relationship.
Submissive 90% Experimental 89% Masochist 86% Switch 85% Bondage 82% Sadist 79% Degradation 70% Dominant 45% Vanilla 28% Exhibitionist/Voyeur 7%
In regards to my vanilla interests, I like tennis, music (I love to sing ♫♪), art, DnD, reading, puzzles, well, pretty much everything. I am currently a university student, studying social work. I don't have a very large social circle, since I tend to be shy and reserved around people I don't know/trust (which is pretty much everyone). I would really like to have some people who can teach me more about safe and sane BDSM practices and techniques, as well as to just hang out with, vanilla-style.
As for what I am looking for in a guy, he must be Christian, local, and close (ish) to my age. The last is the is the least important, the first is the most. But anyone over 30 need not apply. I like intelligent, mature people, who still have a sense of humor and patience for my sometimes childish behavior. I love love love to cuddle, and give/receive affection. I can be shy, especially around new people, and it can sometimes take a while to earn my trust.
One last thing, I like to talk. A lot. And while I can change/adapt most of my behaviors to the situation and the other's wants/needs, I can't control the talking. I don't have a problem with silence, I just love to share my thoughts and experiences.
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