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Hello to Everyone! I hope that all is well with all of you! I know that it has been a while since I have written last but everything has just been very hectic around here! For those who have been interested enough to read my profile, you have found that I have joined this site to meet others that are also into the same things that Master and I are and to learn from others.
Well, today I am seeking some advice, guidance, and knowledge from those of you who have the wisdom, the experience and the willingness to help a new sub to better understand the act of "Breath Play".
I have always enjoyed the normal pleasures one gets from being choked but the other day my Master took me to another realm of the whole experience. For the first time I passed out and it was only for a second or two but I totally panicked when I came back to reality.
I didn't know where I was, what I was doing, or who I was with and I panicked. It seemed like several minutes but just seconds had passed and I realized that all is as it should be. Knowing the answer but still needing to ask I looked at Master and asked to know for certain if He had been choking me.
He was very concerned for me and I could tell so I made sure that He knew that I was okay physically and mentally. I tried to explain to Him how I felt when I first came back down but I truly could not find any words to describe the feeling.
I want to say that I enjoyed the experience but in the same breath I didn't because of my feeling lost and out of control. As a sub I know I am to give all control over to my Master and to trust Him to keep me safe and I do. These feelings that I had are very confusing to me and I have been trying to work through them myself but I just haven't been able to and I think a lot of my problem is because the experience is so new to me.
I am now hoping that with some guidance and answers from you that I will be able to work through everything and get back on the path of becoming the perfect pet that my Master deserves.
Since I have made this as long as I have I will just ask a couple of quick questions and then discuss further through mail and I want to apologize to everyone also for the long entry but hope that you understand.
Will the feeling of being lost and out of control subside with the more experience I gain or is that the thrill of "Breath Play"?
Is there any helpful tips or advice that can help me overcome those feelings and be able to fully enjoy the experience?
And of course the most important question of all! Are the climaxes that one has during as awesome as they seem?
Again I am sorry for the long entry and thank you to those who are willing to help.
I hope everyone has a great day! Until next time...
Shalee
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Today is a free day for writing because Master didn't give me an assignment to write about this week.
So I get to write about what I want to this week!
Master and I are going out of town this weekend! I am so excited! We are going to spend the weekend with one of my best friends! We will have so much fun! We always do when we all get together!
The best part is that we will be kid free this weekend also! I love my babies but a break from them now and then is always greatly appreciated! LOL
Now on to something else... It has been a while since Master and I have had any play time and I am missing it really bad! Sick kiddos have to come first but they are better now so maybe it wont be much longer before Master ties me up and does as He pleases with me! Hehe
As for this website I still like it so far. I just wish there was more time in my days to where I could read everyones journal entries and profiles.
There are so many people with so many different experiences that I want to be able to read everything about everyone so I can learn and get ideas on how to be a better pet. How to better please my Master. Maybe one day!
Well, I am off to get other things finished so I can be home and waiting for my Master when He comes home to me!
Have a great day everyone!
Ta-ta for now!
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Today my assignment is to write about something that is very personal. Normally it would not bother me because I am a very open person but putting it out there for EVERYONE makes me a little uneasy. I apologize to anyone who may be offended by this entry... I am a squirter.
I know that a lot of people think that they are myths or just in porn, as I did before it happened to me. There are a lot of women out there that can and they can relate when I say they have to be the best orgasms ever! Down side there is a puddle/lake after. Upside it is the best orgasm!
The first time it happened to me,which I am sure a lot of women had the same experience, I thought I was urinating instead of cumming but it felt so good I did care and didn't stop! LOL After I realize that it wasn't urine. My Master said that He had never had a squirter before and a lot of porn we watched together He would get excited over them. I always wanted to become one and now that I am we are both very happy! Hehe! There has been times were I thought I would drown Master and there has been many more times that Master has been swimming! We can't complain though nor would we ever! It is one of the best feelings in the world!
I am not sure what else to say on the subject that I haven't already said so I am going to close for the day. Until next time... Tata
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Today is my second time journaling on line. So far everyone has been very nice and I thank everyone for that.
My Master is out of town right now and it is so lonely without Him. I am always so lost without Him here to serve. Some people think that I should take this time to relax and focus on myself but what they don't understand is that when I serve Master that is my way of focusing on myself. When I care for Master needs He takes care of mine. I live for taking care of Him and taking care of His needs. When He isn't here for me to care for, I am lost the whole day and I completely lose my routine.
I just can't wait until He comes home and help ground me again. I love Him and miss Him so much!
So until next time... Ta-ta
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This is my first time to ever journal publicly.So please be patient with me. My Master has requested that I do this once a week in order to get on here and start meeting new people.I am new to this site and still learning the D/s lifestyle. I am not sure if there is an end to learning all the different styles and aspects of D/s. I do know that I have truly enjoyed learning all I have this far and I can not wait to see what else I can learn.
I am hoping to meet other female subs that can share their thoughts and experiences with me so I can become a better sub for my Master.
That is all I will say today as not to bore everyone with blah blah but I hope that as time goes on I will get more comfortable and have more interesting things to say.
Hope all have a great evening!
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