Taking a bunch of Vanilla friends to BENT at the SF Citadel Friday. I've warned them that's it's a kinky play party but they want to see "my world".  It should provide me with some degree of amusement, since I'm getting kind of bored of the Citadel. It's too tame. (Can a kink club be too tame?) I really want to go to this taboo event they do, it might be more interesting.

I have the worst insomnia. I find myself lying in bed watching the clock move toward the time i have to get up for work. I should be able to sleep, i've bought all my christmas presents, and i still have almost enough money in my bank account to cover rent at the end of the month. So what am i concerned about and why do i have so many thoughts?

Interesting that i'm continuing a journal on this site in particular. I think it's because i'm not that invested in this site, and i don't really care about who views my profile. It's a great way to put random thoughts down. 

There's someone singing outside my window. It's probably a crackhead, (yay,Oakland), but he has the most amazing voice. He's enjoying himself enough to sing as he collects cans from my recycling. I guess it's all a question of perspective, happiness is what you make it, right?

I'm in the process of moving to my new house but am still tempted to hit up Bondage a-GoGo tonight. As tame as it usually is i always like watching the tourists who have wandered in get all shocked when they see someone getting beaten. They go up to the rope and stare and giggle nervously and drink lots of alcohol. It's excellent. I like it when two entirely different worlds collide. It's like people coming to Burning Man for the first time and starting out all awkward. Then as time wears on they get used to it and are ok. (: People generally adapt to anything. 

I watched this video on youtube where a guy puts a condom on his entire head. (The actual one, not as dirty as it sounds). i find that when i try it it doesn't work, it breaks and leaves you in an akward position with pieces of broken condom all over your face. ):

In other news i find that there's a list of people (you know who you are) who i need to have coffee with as soon as my life settles down. I just had this job interview and should hear back on Monday if i got it. I really really want the job so wish me luck. In this economy it's so hard to find steady work. A friend of mine suggested being a topless maid, do people really do that? Apparently there's people rich enough that they pay hot girls to clean their houses naked, and don't even get to have sex with them. Sounds WAY too good to be true. 

Thoughts on online dating. 

As this is my first venture into meeting people online i find I'm kind of failing at it entirely. People have offered me good explanations for not having pictures on their profiles but what overwhelms me is the time needed to get to know dozens of name-less face-less individuals so as to maybe find one who is compatible with me. I find i don't have nearly enough time to respond to most of the messages i get and unfortunately most people take this seriously and personally. How am i to find the time in my busy schedule to get to know all these people, what's more, how am i to choose who i respond to when all i'm given is a fake name, an age and a location? Other social networking sites have actual information about the people, all most people have on this site is basic info and what they're looking for. Nothing else, so i got nothing to work with. It's unfortunate but i find myself a little put off by the barrage of messages that come from... someone? No-one? Someone who says they're someone they're not? Someone who posted a pic of themselves 20 years ago? Even the people i find interesting are so hard to keep up with (sorry). Does everyone on this site just have a rediculous amount of free time? What do you people do for work, cause i gotta get me a job like that!!