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I'll start out with the boring but important stuff. I am drug/disease free and very intent on keeping it that way. I very rarely smoke cigars, but I loved the picture so I used it. I'm well educated, well traveled, mentally and physically healthy, athletic, employed, immature enough to occasionally earn the austerity of a domme, but mature enough that you should never expect any drama with me.
I'm definitely not a simple person. A fearless and adventurous spirit; a skeptical, emotionally detached pragmatist, and a passionate idealist are all thriving together inside of me. I'm strong willed and indomitable to all but a very select few - a select few that I hope some of you will join. My normal style and my sexuality are very different, so don't expect me to be a supplicative wimp who's willing to do anything for the attention of a stranger. I'm not. I'm much more of a lion to be tamed than I am a lost puppy to be adopted and abused. That said, once tamed, I am yours to do nearly anything you want with, an instrument of your pleasure and the fulfillment of your fantasies.
I have always been sexually submissive and have fantasized about being dominated by a sultry, seductive and maybe even playfully sadistic woman for as long as I can remember. To me submission is about being both of use and used to fulfill my domme's fantasies. I have my own fantasies and preferences, but I have to know that I am satisfying my partners desires to get off. The more intense their desire the more fulfilling it is for me.
Authenticity is absolutely necessary to my sexuality, and I consider myself a very authentic submissive - despite my confidence and sense of self worth. "Topping from the bottom" completely ruins the dynamic. It makes submission inauthentic. I want to find a woman whose fantasies are somewhat congruent with mine, build trust and then give myself over to her and her fantasies. For the sake of authenticity, I am also very dubious about mixing money and sex. I've shared more of my thoughts on the subject below if you're interested but introducing compensation in to the mix implies that I am in control and that I am delivering negative value. Both of these things are the opposite of what turns me on. The gift of my time, my submission, love worship and adoration should be well worth the time and attention of my domme.
Realizing dreams, ideas and fantasies is one of my passions that ties my kinky and vanilla sides together. As such, I really love building things, and I'm pretty good at it too if I do say so myself. Woodworking, welding and leather-working are all hobbies of mine, and I would love to put my skills to work for a compatible domme.
More about money and sex
If I pay a woman for a kinky "service" it degrades the dynamic of my submission in two ways. First, she is seeking money from me. Whoever has the money has the power. This concept has been reinforced over and over again by my experiences in business and it's not something I can or would want to get around. That's just how the world works, and it puts me in control if I am the one paying. Second, compensating a partner implies that the experience has negative value to her. Delivering value is what turns me on, so paying for an experience is a non starter for me. Not only does paying money for a service imply the exact opposite of what turns me on, it also turns the interaction in to a transaction.
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