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| Hello! (I'll be adding more details to this profile - also on FL)
Oh, where to start!? Like so many of us in the lifestyle, there's usually an elaborate, complicated history. The road of sexual discovery and evolution is often wrought with twists and turns, full of adventure, mis-steps, and surprises. But in the end, it's about the journey, not the destination.
So let me keep things relevant to the timely situation and anyone desiring more details, certainly feel free to message me.
I have been happily married to the most incredible woman in the world for 14 years now. We have always had a marriage full of BDSM, D/s, and kink while managing the daily rigors of "typical" suburban life like kids, family, business, etc.
About 2 years ago, after a boring dry spell, my wife and I got back in the scene. This time was different, however. Before the break, we had switched and she had played with one other guy - all good. But this time was different - she was coming out with her true colors as a FemDomme. But, she had no desire to Domme me! We had grown to close and I represented the stable grounding point in her life - how could she undermine that by tying me up, beating me, and fucking me!? Valid point.
So we tried a version of cuckoldry for about a year. It was my idea actually, I figured "Who am I to deny her her pleasures and limit her to only my cock by the conventions of "marriage?" Besides, I had no problem taking the submissive role.
Well, that didn't work so well either. Seems it just came too close to the nerve of undermining that strong, dominant image she has of me that helps her deal with the rest of the craziness in life. I respect and appreciate that dearly, but...
Over the past couple of years I developed an awareness of my own - I prefer being sexually submissive. No, I'll just admit it, I AM sexually submissive. I loved my role the submissive role of a cuck. Facilitating her sexual gratification was the most erotic head space I'd ever been in. Seeing the gleam in her eye when she comes up from the basement after a cbt session with her sub, the moans of ecstasy as she's getting pounded by her bull, the sweet smell of sex on her when she crawls into bed - it's all incredibly hot.
So, I had no other choice but to be completely honest with her and tell her of my newly realized sexual identity. I guess I secretly hoped she'd capitulate and take me as hers completely, but not at the expense of ruining our relationship and certainly if she truly didn't take any pleasure in it.
She took it with the most remarkable sense of honesty and love. She completely recognized and understood my needs, but held fast that her as my Domme was not a realistic option. But she did want to see me happy and suggested I find someone to play with!
The husband side of me thought "best wife ever!", but the submissive side said "bummer - you're a hell of a Domme!" (Maybe it's all for the best, she's can be one evil fucking Sadist, and I'm a wimpy masochist!)
So here we are! Happily married submissive looking for friends in the community and eventually a Domme to put me to task!
I'm pretty open-minded obviously - it's all about Her pleasure and I'm just a tool to that means. But obviously, there has to be some physical and intellectual attraction - that's just a given. I've experienced a bit, but I have always had this hypno-fetish thing - just an idea! ;)
Anyway, thanks for reading. Message me if you have experiences to share, questions, anything - always nice to chat with like-minded kinksters!
Cheers!
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