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8/22/04
I'll digress here just to make it even more clear for those who don't fully read profiles. I can NOT relocate, I am NOT bi, I DO like older men and invites to read empty profiles does nothing for me. O, and taller? I LOVE men 6' and taller. Yes, I may be only 5', and 5'7, 5'9 may be taller than me, but to make it even more clear...I prefer 5'11 and taller. whew. i hate sounding so demanding, but well, the emails you get here sometimes leads one to have to spell it all out. O, and just because I like somone old enough to be my dad doesn't mean I like EVERYONE of that . It all boils down to chemistry. Read on :)
Hello!
I love control outside as well as in the bedroom. I do all i can to please, especially when i feel appreciated. I do love pain, but more from physical than from 'gadgets'. i seek that intense passion from two souls connecting. i'm very much into wt loss and becoming that perfect girl for myself and the right person. I'm not bi and seek a single, not married or committed, NOR bisexual male. Dominant men only, please, as i do not switch nor can submit to a switch male.
07/01/04: I deleted my old pic as I look much more different and better now. Hopefully I'll have a new one up soon. I'll try to describe myself best as possible. I'm 5', short, dark blonde hair (for now, i miss my long auburn hair) with hazel green eyes and great lips. Men often compliment my lips and eyes.. I'm 150, 5' and still on a successful path to becoming that perfect girl. I prefer older confident gentlemen who like to dress well, enjoys humor and witty, intelligent coversation. There's just something about a gentleman dressed to the 9's, can out-debate you and who has wicked thoughts in store for you :) I especially love men much taller than me. There's just something about feeling so much smaller & weaker than him. I especially love dominant officers, their cold steel cuffs and warm words. Can you keep up with me? Can you capture my mind? That is the key.
If you've read this far, give me a clue. Then I'll know you're really interested and not just reading the first line and emailing. ty :)
7/25/04 I guess I wasn't clear enough. I am NOT into bi and NOT into submissive/switch men and have no desire to be a part of your submissive collection. I need that one on one now and always. If you desire a "house" of subs at one time, I am not your girl. Monogamy does not mean boring, if you don't understand that, then we are not a match.
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March 2, 2005
Another year older, a little more jaded. I'm still not looking.
What part of 'older', 'no switches', 'not bi', do some not get?
I may have a strong, outgoing personality, but I am most certainly NOT interested in any of the above, nor will i compromise.
I know what I want, stick to what you want. I think some men try to 'deal' because they are desperate. If that is the case, then you DO need to be alone for awhile.
I decided to do away with the blonde.
I think that was a divorced/suddenly single thing. I'm a dark brunette now and have been told several times it suits me and makes me look 'exotic' because I have green eyes, olive skin and tan.
I'll try to visit this site more often. I'd actually forgotten all about it until a friend of mine mentioned it. I've just been so wrapped up in things...........
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8/1/04
it's days like this when being single isn't so enjoyable. i could really use someone to curl up next to at the moment. very, very down this evening. i thought about 'talking' about it, but don't think i can. i'll be fine tomorrow, i'm sure, but at the moment i could use some tlc or some harsh physical pain...or both. something to help the inner pain disappear for a bit.
they say time heals and i wonder who 'they' are and if it's a myth.
o, and in case you're wondering, no, i am not into bdsm because of some past drama or something. i'm hurting because of something more recent. as far as bdsm, i've always had desires, just never knew there was a name for them nor a whole 'world' out there that fit exactly what i was craving until i was in my late 20's.
anyhoo, think i'll go slip into a pair of girlie boxers and hit the couch. a night like this isn't a good night to sleep in a big bed alone.
have a great monday. i know i will. throw on a pretty smile and put the emotions on lockdown. heh.
ps. i put up two new pics, but not sure if they're showing. i clicked update when i was done, but i'm not seeing them. hopefully one of you can let me know if you're seeing them.
ciao & kisses
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Well, my new pic is up, hope you enjoy :)
I'd like to add a couple of things here. 1) I am not bi, nor do I have any desire to be bi, EVER. nor do I want to be part of a 'collection' of subs for a dom. These are hard limits and I will never back down on them. I don't know how to make this more clear, but I need one on one only. A traditional relationship with umm..not so traditional dynamics ;)
Sounds like i'm being too 'i want'? Well, not really, I just want to be clear so not to waste YOUR time or mine, AND I have my preferences just as everyone else does. (did I mention i'm also the queen of run-on sentences? hee) |
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7/9/04
so, i was updating my profile instead of my journal. oops. well, no one ever said that i paid attention to detail LOL
i will update soon.
in one sentence? "new and improved" :) |
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2/3/04
still enjoying being free :)
does anyone understand the phrase: "capture her mind and the rest will follow"?
a few of my favorite words: intrigue, intensity, and notice how so many great words end in 'tion' or 'sion'? obsession, compassion, passion, confession..oops, that last one is mine ;)
anyway, having fun, but mentally, it's just not there in so many i run across. only one person ever captured my mind in a way i don't think can ever be done again. he's missed. but i'm still trying to keep an open mind :) |
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11/2/03 Looks like i'm free ! i'm still not immediately 'looking'. i really need some time to breath and work on me. i took new pics on the 6th, hope you like them. yes, i'm a blonde now! although the day after these pictures, i lightened even more. i love being blonde! i look forward to going out with my friends again. i love dancing and having fun. i miss it! that brings to mind a game i played with someone i dated once. i was at a dance club with my friends when my cell rang. he said 'you look great tonight'. it was obvious through conversation he was there, but i couldn't see him in the sea of faces. he called a couple more times before he came over,saying things that made me giggle and blush. i knew he was closer,and with friends, but where? it was so thrilling. i had fun knowing he was watching and what the night ahead would hold for me when we were finally alone. i showed off more, danced up on the stage.. i love being watched. :) anyway, here's to more fun times ahead! gyps~* |
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10/27/03
What a long time it's been since i've been to this site. Coming here reminds me of where I was at in my life at the time I signed up. How much one can change in such little time.
I'm not sure if anyone even reads much of these journals, but since I've no other place private from someone I know in rt, I've chosen here.
I'm not currently looking, but who knows what can happen in the future. It might be nice to at least find an email friend or two as I'm pretty cut off from having friendships in rt at the moment.
I've always been attracted to men opposite of me. Physically overpowering, outspoken and dominant. I've somehow come to find myself fallen in with one such person, unfortunately I'd say more domineering rather than dominant. I know I need to find a way to make him leave, all red flags read "user", but when he stands over, or feel one of his large hands cup my cheek, my body betrays me no matter how angry or hurt I am at the time and the fascination of that happening to ME is what keeps me hooked at the moment, no matter what my head tells me.
Perhaps this will wear off and it'll be easier for me to find a way. I'm not really afraid anymore to make him leave...just that I know through past circumstances, he'll make me do it the hard way, perhaps as someone to blame for him going back to jail..who knows.
At any rate, stay tuned, this Gemini's life has more twists and turns than an old mountain road.
gyps~* |
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