Thank you to all who've messaged me. After some difficult soul searching and decision making I must openly acknowledge this wasn't the right thing. This isn't way to the love I crave.

This is hard to post online, I'd rather disappear but felt I owe it to you somehow to explain.

I truly regret to say that I won't be logging on here again - moderators if it's possible to delete an account then please do so but if not I will just let it lapse.

Again, sorry to those who've sent messages, I hope you find what you're looking for.

francesca