Things have been a real struggle lately and seem to only get worse.  Why is it so hard sometimes to find that one thing in life that you know will make you happy?  I am tired of the struggling ..but I will keep on...keeping my head above water as I tread alone in life waiting on the one that will 'save' me. 

Well I am going to take a break from the site for a little. I will check in every day or so for messages from those that I have friends with but I have a lot going on in the next couple of weeks that is going to take my full attention.

Don't really know what to say here. Just started this search for a cuck...and so far has been interesting.  I know it may sound weird but to actually accept this idea for me...I will still have to be physically attracted to him even though knowing the sexual contact will be limited but if there is not a connection then I am not going to fee comfortable with them; just as finding a Dom....I have to be physically & sexually attracted to him to be able to submit to him.  I know others it is just the idea of submitting that turns them on and they can accept but for me it is not that way and yes if I find the right Dom and he don't like the fact that I have a cuck then I will tell him he will have to find another to serve because I have to do what is right for me and if that means being with only a Dom then that is what I will do but as for now....I have not found the right one of either. :-(