I have decided not to give up just yet lol.I want to thank those who sent me encouraging messages, I really appreciate it. I have to keep trying, if i don't i will always think in the back of my head whether or not i made a mistake. Everyone's kind words have given me the courage to keep trying.  Hey, it could happen

I don't understand, i am trying to find a master so doesn't it make sense that i would be talking to more than one master? I am getting flack because i am talking to more than one and that I may decide that one of the guys i'm talking might not be right for me. i think that even a slave has the right to decide which master is for her so i will stop talking if i feel that things aren't right or something gets scary. I have been accused of decieving people because i feel that this person wasn't what I was looking for so I ended it. I feel that if I am going to give up everything and devote myself to someone , that I have the right to feel that the master is the one.

                                                                                           1/16/2011

I want so desperately to find my master, all i seem to find are fakes that right away want a phone number even though I try to tell them that I am going slow this time because I got burned real bad in the past.  All i need is to find the one that can see into my soul and set me free finally

I guess I should have started this a long time ago.It's time to finally write down my journey to finally being happy.The journey I am about to eagerly and hungrily take into slavery.I should have done this years ago and I would not be where i am now. I finally know what i need to do to be happy