Well now, belief is a far cry from reality. As far as we can tell, our female has fallen through. She seems to have become a mute. We're not sure if we are going to resume our search for a female or not. It really depends on how the current correspondence with the males turns out. We're both frustrated and disheartened by the prospects we have had.

Also on a side note, my Fibromyalgia is in a bit of a flare up and it's taking all that I have just to function. If you don't hear back from me right away, have patience. Egads, where is my perfect slave when I have such a great need for theraputic massage right now?

Blessed be, Jerrilee

We believe we have been blessed with a perfect female slave. Time of course will tell but we are both extremely enamored with her. There is one slight downside to this though... she has set a really high bar. I honestly don't think I can accept a male slave that is not complimentary to her. I need to be as completely impressed with a male as I am with her... considering I'm hetero you'd think that would be easy. Sadly, it is not.

More thoughts from the domme (or perhaps this one is a rant.... not unfounded, but still a rant).

Thank you to everyone who has shown interest in us as a couple and in me as your potential domme. The sentiment is appreciated. With that said...

I am floored at how difficult this search for my male has been. So many flakes... it's just been mind blowing. I detest men who send one liners to introduce themselves. Really?? I'm sure I stated my displeasure regarding that in a previous entry... it makes me wonder if any of these men can read any measure of material. I hate pulling teeth to get some kind of information out of them. And then of course there's the ones who really really want to talk. But can't follow up with the required emails... so I think no more chat requests for me. It's a waste of my time. So the search has been difficult and I'm about to make it even more so.

Our potential female is 23 and beautiful inside and out. Since I'd like our slaves to be complimentary I'm going to cut the age down on males that I am willing to consider. I'd prefer my male slave to be under 35, although there is chance for exception. There is not however, an exception for a male applicant older than I am. I really don't want my male to look like he could be her father.

On to the next item. The slave I'm looking for has a handsome face and is properly wired to serve. I can mold and sculpt the body, but be reasonable. I do not want to have to take 30+ pounds off of him. He must also be intelligent. I want him to have a penis, but not to think with it... or be overly influenced by it. I want someone I do not have to micromanage. I am not at all interested in someone who needs to have some form of sex every day. Mark and I have a very healthy marriage and sex life. I don't need a male for that... but I may want to play with my male occasionaly. Who's to say how often that will be. It really depends on the chemistry and if the male is hot enough to actually interest me. I have had a few men who get caught up in my beauty or fitness. I can't necessarily blame them. But the fact is that my male is MY play toy, not the other way around. Simply, I will use my male as I see fit, and when I see fit. If this isn't something you can't handle, you're not worthy to be laying at my feet.

The same is true of any other fetish. If I have to "feed" you on a consistent daily basis, I'm wondering who is actually the slave... So, hint for anyone who is going to make demands of my time. I don't take kindly to that. I expect my slave to be the one serving.

This next one seems to be a question in many emails so I will address it here. It is regarding my male slave working. I expect my male to be working full time, just as my husband Mark does. We both have old fashioned values about that. We expect our male to be contributing to the poly household. I would like my slave to have a career. I don't consider shlepping burgers or commission only jobs to be appropriate. Those are always the first to get laid off and I'll not have a financial burden placed on my household.

Second to this is that amount that I will allow you to work. I want my male to be successful. I understand very well that to be successful in a career you must put in the time and energy to make a name for yourself and advance. I am completely supportive of my male for whatever hours he needs in order to be successful at work. Realistically, the more successful my male is, the more feathers I get to put into my cap as a domme.

Now perhaps I'm letting all of the cats out of the bag with this last part... but I figure I'll be blunt and see if any male candidates actually get it... or have even read this. I have mentioned before that I am an empath. I "feel" or sense what other people are feeling and thinking. This works best in person, it is marginal on the phone. It is almost non-existent in emails and IM's. Therefore, if you have the opportunity to IM with me, do not afk. I see this as disrepectful and disinterest. You will no longer be considered. I also don't recommend multiple chats going on at once. If you are making me wait or send me something meant for someone else, then garnering my interest is obviously not at the top of your priority list. Therefore, you are not on mine and you will no longer be considered.

I also often give a small task or request something. It's not hard or painful. It doesn't cost anything. It is usually just to send a photo or to provide more information about yourself. Sometimes it may be to provide feedback on something in my profile.  I also usually give a timeframe for the task to be completed. I guarantee it is never an unreasonable amount of time.  So.... are you all paying attention? Close attention? Besides being something I want (and something I want should interest you greatly), it is a simple test to see if you can follow direction and be on time about it. Are you truly wired to serve?  Frankly, there are too many creeps just trying to get their rocks off on this site. Prove to me that you're not one of them.  I suppose I've become somewhat jaded after going through so many males. Now mind you, I am not saying that every man I've talked to is a schmuck. I've met some very nice gentleman slaves and I do wish them the absolute best of luck in their searches.

With that said though, let's get back to potential applicants.  I know I am expecting a lot. But I have a lot to offer and I don't have any reason not to expect the best of the best to be lying underfoot.

... now if I could only find someone worthy and attractive.

Again, sissies, I'm sorry but there will be more than enough girl energy in the home. I really need that masculine balance.

Goddess Bless, Jerrilee

I hope everyone is looking forward to the weekend. Please note that I have sent out several emails which are coming through blank. So frustrating!  If you receive a blank email from us please let us know right away so we can resend our message. 

Jerrilee

Just a few thoughts from the Domme

So, as Mark said - we are expanding our search to both male and female so I won't reiterate that information.  We are both very excited to be making this change from our original plan.

We do receive quite a bit of email and try to respond to most. Granted the one liners or men wanting to know what I'd do to them don't get replies.  Ladies, the same will be true for you since we are expanding our search.

If your profile is sparse of information, please include some basic information in your initial email. Don't make me have to ask for it.

Foreign Candidates:  If you are writing us from outside of the US and want us to consider you, you must have a way to legally get into the US and stay here already established. You must be willing and able to relocate yourself to the US.  You must include this information in your initial email. If you do not, please do not expect much of a response if any.

Both Mark and I peruse our email on collarme throughout the day, so it's very possible that your email will show that it's been read, but that you haven't gotten a response.  We will usually discuss our prospects and one of us gets back to folks. With this process it is possible that someone we do have an interest in gets lost in the shuffle. If a few days go by after your email and you do not hear from us, it is acceptable to send a follow up.

Since its become clear that our search for a male will take longer then we anticipated we've decided to begin our search for a suitable female and look for both at the same time.  Which likely means even more email to juggle so we might not always be able to get back to someone imediately (we try to respond to all emails that are respectful, even if they are from someone that wouldn't be a good fit for us).

I know we aren't the only ones dealing with the frustration of this site - there just seem to be so many lurkers and fakes that aren't truly serious when it comes down to making a decision.  On one hand we do understand how much of a lifechanging commitment entering into a slavery contract can be but there are still way too many people on this site that seem to be all talk and aren't truly ready for any time of true relationship or committment (or dont understand that as dominants we just aren't in the mood for flakiness or an inability to follow through on things our candidates say they will do and then dont).

So, we're on to round four of applicants. Although I believe that our candidates interest has been genuine, we can never seem to make it past booking the flight, and they disappear or go silent.

Very disappointing to have so much time and energy wasted. But I still have every confidence that we'll find our perfect male, even if it means going on to round 15. Much like any spellwork, sometimes it takes the universe a little time to bring the right person along, have them join this site and find us.  I do only a minimal amount of searching on my own. Those generally do not seem to produce what I'm looking for. I'll be going back through our email to see if we had any interested candidates that I missed. I'm quite sure we received a few while I had my attention focused on (obviously) the incorrect individual for me. As well, we have a couple of new ones we're speaking with.

Anyhow, we're off to a very blustery March here in the Pacific Northwest. But it's still beautiful. We have an amazing view of Lake Washington and South Mercer Island from our bedroom and sitting room. On clear nights you can see the lights of downtown Seattle about 7 or 8 miles away. It will be lovely to share this with our slaves.

I'll write more later.

Jerrilee

I've received emails from some very tasty applicants. While I continue to review them and hone them down to a managable group to start interviewing (i'm aiming for 7-10 quality candidates), I thought I'd give you some additional information about me (the Domme). Some of you may have received part of this information in your return emails, however not all did. Therefore I've decided to add this into my journal.

 As stated above in our profile, my husband has extensive experience training and owning slaves. I am currently apprenticed to him, but I am fully Domme wired or we wouldn't be doing this inthe first place. I am generally a very upbeat, playful person with a somewhat twisted or dark sense of humor. I take care of my body and could never expect any less from someone serving me. I will expect my slave to be able to take on the role of my weight coach when I am preparing for pageants. My coaches don't yell at me and they would never force an exercise that could cause me harm. They will however, strive to encourage me to keep pushing to failure and getting that last rep in. Sometime's those final few rep's are almost impossible without a coach or buddy.

I understand that "kink" is part of the package in a TPE relationship and see it as my responsibility to see to the needs of my slave, just as they will be seeing to mine. However, the commitment that I am looking for in a slave goes much, much deeper. I am looking for someone to willingly hand themselves and all they are over to me. In return, I will make their decisions for them, care for them and the responsibiities that I can, and see that their needs are being met. After all, it is called Total Power Exchange.

Some people may feel that by being a slave you are to give up everything in the service of your owner with the reciprocation being the pleasure you receive from pleasing them (in whatever manner, ie physical, punishment, praise, etc). I'd tend to agree with this statement, but I think it's so very much more than that. I see your servitude as a treasured gift, not to be taken lightly, and never to be taken for granted. As a Domme, I am the one being honored by your gift, sacrifice, and service. In turn, I owe my slave everything in my power to see that they live a happy, productive life, and that I make conscious efforts to reward my slave in such ways as they will recognize being rewarded. A slave will worship me (at least after they get to know me), and I will cherish them. I also appreciate intelligence and initiative. If something's on fire that shouldn't be, I do not wish to have to tell my slave to "put it out."

In addition, what I want from my slave is to have the relationship evolve into something akin to a queen and her guard, with quite a lot of mutual repsect. Although still an obvious hierarchy. Once we are very familar with each other (generally and through training) I will expect you to often be able to anticipate my every need. Small gestures will lead to your action. A slight nod and smile in a vanilla setting will be great praise. I am very accomplished at energy work and can tell what people are feeling. The proper term is empath. I can usually tell someone's mood, even if they're not completely aware of the energy that they are emitting. It's usually a good thing, sometimes... well, not so much. My skill with energy can be vast enough to capture the attention of an entire room, or as precise as releasing a kinked muscle or relieving a migraine. My choice of slave must be wiling to embrace and learn this talent, at least to the best of your ability. Some may have a natural knack, but willingness to learn and an active interest will go a long way.

My energy work also extends into my Craft. Specifically, Witchcraft. I am not Wiccan, this is not a religeon for me. But I am very much in tune with myself and my surroundings. Spellwork, in the simplest of terms, is the manipulation and focus of energy to manifest a cause or result. No devil worship, no animal cruelty, no midnight cemetery raids (sorry). Just a serious desire, energy, focus, and a release. Hmm... interesting. Put that way it sounds like an orgasm. Well, there are similarities I suppose.

Our home is a very warm, gentle and loving environment. But on the flip side, I have Fibromyalgia, which is a central nervous system disorder characterized by chronic pain. If I'm in a lot of pain, there's a chance that I will be in a rather foul mood and need someone to help me release the frustration. This could be as simple as me taking a swipe at you, or if it a very sharp pain with no warning I could easily sink my nails into you before realizing I've done it. My Queen's guard needs to be able to understand and expect this. But, as again, looking at the flip side of that coin, you will be doing me a great honor and service being there to share that pain with me. It will be appreciated and rewarded as such. My slave will have a critical role in my health, well-being and overall happiness, all of which would be recicprocated, even if not in the same way. I see TPE as a way for both Domme and slave to actualize both of their true potentional while working together and filling the needs that, as individuals, we are not able to fill.

One last quick note about kitties. I do have 2 beautiful persian cats, so even if this sounds very enticing, I do not believe it would be in either of our best interests to have you for this position if you have severe allergies. Also, if you don't like cats, please send me a quick note so that I can take you off my list of prospects. If you don't like cats, you will never get along with me. I myself am extremely feline, even down to the purr in your ear for doing something that has well pleased me.

While I am in the selection process, I should mention that I do appreciate those of you who have kept up the initiative to continue sending me snippets about yourself. Creating a fuller picture of who you are as well as your interests is always a good thing with me. Flip side, if you've sent me more than 1 email just wanting to know what I would do to you... I take that to understand that you are not truly interested in what you can do for me as my slave. Keep in mind that this process is somewhat like a job interview. Get my attention (in a good way), show initiative, sell yourself to me (see, this is why I need a manly man).

Please feel free to contact me if you have any questions or concerns regarding this post and I will do my best to respond in a timely manner. Keep them well thought out and intelligent please. 

Goddess Bless,

Jerrilee

Oh, and for you foot fanciers. Yes, I have very pretty t in fact with a brilliant arch. I also don't care for there being any white nail on my toes, they're kept very short. Got into that habit when I was dancing on pointe.

I am completing my review process and will be contacting applicants shortly for follow up. I appreciate your patience during this process.

Jerrilee 

Caligirl - your note regarding new FMS treatments is very much appreciated. Thank you.

Darlings,

I have received numerous emails and am taking the time to review each one. Please take into account that on the weekend I am engrossed in activities with hubby so response times will be lengthened.  Thank you for your patience, and have a great weekend!

Jerrilee