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| I am a life-long, in the closet crossdresser. I have reached a stage in my life where I have to decide whether I stay in stealth mode and unhappy and lonely about being Bernardettte, or I begin to take steps to reveal myself to others and allow Bernardette the chance to be who she really needs to be - a 'close to full-time', feminized sissy submissive, with people in her life who will encourage her to be the very best she can be.
I need extensive and intensive training in makeup, deportment, hairstyles and fashion. I need to learn how to serve people in social, domestic and sexual situations. I am willing to submit to most forms of necessary discipline if it is required to ensure I complete the tasks set me. I do find floggers to be more therapeutic than painful, but I'm very frightened of canes and whips and the pain and damage they can cause. Perversely, perhaps, I find some pride in the thought of displaying my whip or cane welts and cuts as a positive sign of my continuing obedience.
*It's almost impossible to sum up a human being in just a few short paragraphs, but here is a compressed vision of how I hope to see myself eventually. I am a fully-trained submissive sissy / transsexual, either collared or enslaved to a Dominant couple or a Dom / Master, perhaps in a Poly household. I am a highly competent domestic sub / slave, skilled in all household duties, especially in culinary skills. As I am already very willing and eager to perform oral duties for a Woman and get a great sense of achievement from giving Her an orgasm, I will have the same attitude when carrying out the same duties for a Man or Men. I will consider the fact that I am willing and eager to swallow His Cum as a sign of my progress as an owned sissy.
Because I now have the ability to have internal anal orgasms, using various toys, ( yay for the Aneros Helix! ), I can see myself as being very willing to submit to a Man or Men using my pussy. The very thought of having "sissygasms" while being used makes me feel weak at the knees. The added bonus to being able to do this is, instead of feeling a little spent and empty afterwards, it actually reinforces my feelings of femininity and submission. I feel sexy and desirable and want to have more and more of these incredible orgasms.
There is no point trying to fill in any more information at this right now. If you wish to contact me, I will try to answer all of your questions to my best ability. Please keep it real, polite and, despite where I have put this profile, non-sleazy. I may add or change things in the future.
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