I'm an educated, intelligent, and capable post-op transwoman with a good career.  I've put in significant effort (and therapy!) to overcome a lot to get to this place in my life and am satisfied and proud to have done so.

I also have some very deep and desperate needs to be hurt and sexually controlled, degraded and humiliated. 

I am not looking for 24/7 anything.  My independence was too hard fought and I know from experience just what I can do on my own.  I struggle constantly with my own sense of self-worth though, and sometimes it is such a relief to give up that struggle for a few hours or days.  To give up and be hurt and used in the way that I fear and crave.  

I've had years of experience in local BDSM communities and in D/s relationships, although none in the past several years.  I've been tied, manhandled, chained, beaten, whipped, shocked, caged, and sexually used by groups.  I miss it, I need it.