here i sit wondering where i am going and what is to follow. i have been doing a lot of research into the lifestyle and the different options i have.
i am reading into taken in hand. there is a website all about it where people share their feelings. i am actually very interested in that. i have always wanted, well needed someone who can put me back in my place if need be. i have always wanted a place first of all. i want to belong.
i can be a mess of emotions. i am a highly emotional person and need someone who can bring me back to balance when i go off. i know it sounds crazy to give into certain stereotypes. but women are more emotional by nature and i think they need the strong hand of a man to put them back in balance at times. we are natural nurturers and child bearers. we were designed to be mothers and wives and make everyone under our wing and make sure they are loved. in return men were designed to be hunters, and the heads of the house. to provide safety and the necessities to survive to their women and children. i very much so feel this way. i was not raised this way. the complete opposite actually. my mother always drilled into our heads to be strong independent women and never need a man to take care of us. here i am 22 years later looking for a strong willed, strong bodied, and strong minded man to take care of me. to make me feel safe and secure and give me the things i need in life to survive.
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