up date time however what to write ? we all have our personal tales and experiences but I prefer to keep them to myself so I will be brief and just say that all is well

me again, it must be late at night for anyone to be reading this far.

I woke this morning aching all over but in a good way the task set last night seemed simple but it was the first time in a long time that doubt crept in that I would not complete it but only doubt I am too stubborn to give in.

The question is where to start? I guess the answer if from the beginning.

I joined this site with reservations not due to its nature but due to past shall we say interesting experiences it would seem that many of my fears where confirmed as my in box grew with mail from people who it seemed only saw me as an object.

But in the same breath I was pleasantly surprised by a few who where kind and courteous and even more so by the fact that one seemed to be able to offer what I sought.

It is early days yet but the desire to please him is only growing it is hard to say exactly why apart from the fact that he seems to so far understand the level of control I seek and the responsibility that comes with it. 

Last night holds much meaning for me as I showed myself as much as him my desire to please going beyond what I thought I was capable of.