I long for his touch as i gaze into his eyes , eyes like dark ebony that peers into my soul, burning every inch of me with ever lasting fire.His skin so pale, teeth sharp as knives, yet i long for him, wanting him with every desire.
He comes with the night and goes with the day yet i can't stop thinking about him. waiting and wanting don't know why, when i'm not with him starting to cry. But he comes to me with desire and thirst , a thirst that meets my very own. We share each other's desire, passion and thirst, he fills the void makes me feel whole, why , why i ask myself do i dream of him every night. It's like a tease, yet at the same time i am at peace and i don't know why.So i tell myself he comes with the night and goes with the day . The longing for him gets greater every passing day. Yet i'm sated just for the night when he comes to my dreams to say goodnight. maybe this marriage is not for me and maybe just maybe i will meet him in life and not in my dreams!.

my heart begins to race as my delicate fingers lay down the brown soft towel against the chilled blades of green grass , picking up my black purse as my chest heaves up and down , a soft blush fills my cheek bones as i look up at the beautiful sky , the stars shinning brightly as i pulled out my purple , blue and silver vibrators and lay them gently down against the material of the towel , slowly i unbutton my pants and slide them off the chill of the night forming goosebumps against my soft skin , my heart beating even faster as i feel the warmth of the blood rushing inside of me , my senses heighten , the thrill of getting caught by a passer by building my excitement , i spread my legs my nectar moistens the soft folds of my heat , slowly i turn the blue and purple vibrators on high and insert one at a time slowly into my soaked heat , my fingers trailing over my skin reaching my shirt as i lift it up and pinch my harden nipples, the heat now coursing through out my body as my mind slowly slips away , my fingers reaching down as they grasp the vibrators my chest heaving up and down spilling my breast forward with each rapid breath i take as i bury both vibrators deep within my heat my nectar coating them as i move them in and out faster and faster , my soft moans echoed through out the night air as i arched my back with each thrust , my glazed eyes now shut , with my right hand i grab the small silver vibe and place it in my mouth lubing it up as i sit up and place it in my tight ass , feeling the vibes filling my soaked holes as i move my wanton hips in time with the rhythm of my hands , my heart pounding in my chest , my mind slipping further away as my hands thrust the vibes hard, fast and deep within me , my flushed face now heated the chill of the night air no longer felt , my moans becoming louder with each wave of ecstasy that passes by feeling my body quiver and tremble with each deep thrust the vibrations filling me, my hips move forward and back faster and faster , my moans getting louder as i feel the exquisite explosion now reaching it's point as i scream out one final time as it hits me so hard that i felt it down to my soul , a soft tear of happiness now running down my face my body shaking and quivering as my back arched even higher my nectar now running down my sweet inner thighs , a sense of peace now felt for the first time , a peace within myself .

Women are the flowers of the world each one different to suit her own rareity in a world of chaos.

a tiny light of wanting started to grow within her heart and mind . over the years the wanting slowly grew to need the need to serve , the need to kneel before Him as she did in her dreams . the need grew so strong with in her heart, mind and soul that it almost suffocated her . her online time no longer satisfying her need her eyes no longer blinded but opened for the first time , her heart beating strong and rapid as she left the online to make it her reality , scared and praying to be found as good as the slave she was online in reality she stepped from behind the keyboard and walked trembling alone as her full form balanced upon her tiny feet as her hips swayed her head lowered as she begins her journey.

The flood gates opened the water overflowed. So that one day the damaged flower might grow.Grow little flower said the sun. The damaged flower grew and bloomed. The sun smiled on the pretty little flower proudly.The pretty little flower smiled shyly back and said thank you Master. The one day the bright blue sky turned black as the thick storm clouds gathered in the sky. The Flower shivered in fear knowing without the sun's love, warmth she would whether and die. The days that past slow as the sun with all his might tried to shine through the thickness of the clouds exhausted he gave up . The flower that had bloomed so beautifully her petals that where a vibrant red and yellow now started to dull and fade her tears unheard as they fell upon the soft soil . The sun in his sadness started weep as he knew the flower he loved so much was dying without him. a Month had past now her petals falling to the ground one by one, her soul had weeped so loud as the last petal started to loosen and as it began to fall the clouds had started to cry as it began to rain down on the flower hearing her pleads they moved . The sun happily shined his love and warmth down on the flower once again and watched her bloomed. and Once again the flower blossomed and thanked the Sun

lost and locked away , hoping and praying to break free of this prison i made for myself . feeling alone day after day , so incomplete and barely living .. a stranger in my own mind , body and soul my eyes telling all as i try to hide behind a false smile. crying and screaming inside. silently my tears fall as i sit here alone, wondering if anyone sees the real me behind the mask i provide . my trust depleted from the pain inflicted by many , yet my heart , my longing . my passion, desire and need remains the same. wondering why i can't just give up trying to be the real me , my nature calling to me . no longer fighting , no longer trying to hide , opening up like a book hoping one day the sparkle in my eyes return , needing to finally break free and realizing i can't do it alone. praying to feel what it means to be truly loved for once, to be happy , fulfilled and completed. until then i remain trapped a prisoner within myself .

The flower that has never bloomed yet the petals where torn and broken away. The tears that crystalized upon her fair cheeks as they silently fall. The soul that weeps within. the heart that longs.the mind that unlocked revealing all. The body that ached.

from the day i was born i was found unworthy of a mother's love of her protection convicted of crimes i didn't commit against her heart. left alone in the cruelness of the world to be abused , sighs left alone to handle and deal with it. all my life i have been unworthy of many things , denied the very things that make us feel human and loved , in the dark i reside my unworthy form , my unworthy heart beating rapid , longing to see the light just one time before i lay down to that eternal slumber.

she woke up hearing the rattle of chains hitting against the dark wooden bedpost .. she stretched cat like upon the soft satin pillow which she had slept on.. her light blue eyes that had adjusted finally to the darkness within the room which she was bound in saw the delicate silk it was sheer and soft it's color was white she was dressed in and topless her nipples harden as the cool air hit them ... she looked over to the right and left arm and saw the beautiful thin but strong silver chains attached to the upper arm and wrists cuffs she wore which where also silver with blue sapphires in the center of each one.. she looked down at her ankles and again saw the matching set of cuffs she felt a slight sting on her right upper thigh and there was the brand mark which had been put there the night before with a red hot branding iron... it was her Master's initial in old english lettering .. her long fingers slowly and carefully traced over the brand mark... she felt the collar around her neck ..thinking herself it was thin and sturdy and locked in the back and probably silver as she ran her left hand along the front of it she felt the jewel that was en laid in the center and smiled a sapphire also it must be to match the cuffs... there beside her laid the leash ... it was also silver and thin and very feminine with sapphires en laid at every third link ...she herd the twisting of the door knob across the room her heart raced as she knelt in open nadu quickly.. head held proudly high light blue eyes down cast back straight as her white mounds where displayed her legs had spread as apart as wide as she could spread them and still maintain her balance her ass slid back on her tiny heels as her arms extended delicate hand as they rested upon full thighs... and faced palm up as her long dirty blonde hair with red highlights which had been braided fell down her back... silently she knelt as the tall dark figure had reached her .. His deep voice saying Hello Mine... she replied softly hello Master. His deep voice echoed through out the room and back in her ears like a warm whisper of the wind on a spring day, she softly moaned out as her eyes closed .. He said mine after i un cuff you ..you are to bring me your leash but do not move until the cuffs are released of the chains . yes Master was her reply .. she knelt very still like a statue .. the chains fell off to the side as He released them one by one from the cuffs ... she bent over on all fours as she watched his feet move swiftly to the end of the bed where He sat and waited .. she crawled to the right side of her where the beautiful leash was laid upon the dark oak floor.. her head lowered as her full red lips parted as she picked up the leash carefully with her teeth then she slowly crawled to His feet she reached him and knelt again open nadu with the leash hanging out of her mouth out in offering to Him.. He held out His hands and said come closer mine,,, she bent on all fours and moved closer to Him and again re knelt in open nadu ... He said lay the leash across my hands and do not use your hands to do it... she re position herself to the height of His hands and carefully moving her head first to the right and then to the left placed the leash perfectly straight across His hands and then she slid back on her kneels and knelt in nadu before Him ... He reached down and clasped the leash to the collar she wore so proudly a smile curled upon her lips.. knowing what she must do now... she bent at her waist her ass up high slender arms extending delicate hands above lowered head which rested flat upon the oak wood floor as soft lips brushed tender kisses upon His feet .

I sit alone and the tears begin to flood as I think... my soul cries out for Him, my body longs for His touch, my ears for His voice, my mind racing as i imagine myself kneeling before Him my body obediently follows the mind as i kneel in my chair not knowing... the longing ..the need .. growing deeper and deeper .. the desire to serve Him growing ... i take a deep breathe and sigh out ..complete but so incomplete ... my heart aches for Him. wondering if we will ever meet or if it is to be saved for another life time... knowing i was born for one thing and one thing only to be completely His and bound to Him for all eternity . i sit here and wait my passion building . waiting ..just waiting for the day when We finally meet when i am His totally and completely and His alone

it is not that i wear His collar that binds me to him it is my heart that does, it is not that He calls me Mine for those are simply words that anyone can say at any given time .. it is my soul that does. it is not that i obey his every command for it is my mind that binds to him. for when i find him our souls , ours minds and hearts will meet and bind together as one. til the day that we find each other i wait in patience.

with bowed head she slips back into the shadows as she watches the world , people in motion as they stride on by her , her words just an echo of the whisper among the breeze of the day. her eyes close just for a minute still invisible to all , yet silently she watches and learns as she sinks to her knees in the shadows and waits , her head still bowed , appreciating all that the others take for granted like the chill of the breeze that hits her bare flesh , the feel of the goosebumps that line her soft skin or just the mere subtle sound of the wind blowing by. yet in the shadows she hides where she belongs.

to be truly seen for what and who you are is the greatest honor anyone can get

to be accepted as you are is a treasure all in itself valued above all.

Within each failure is a new lesson to be learned.

she wonders alone , her mind racing her heart pounding in her chest , walking , just walking, seeking for her place in this world, her head lowered and eyes downcast the familiar sting of her tears running down her face , the familiar sense of loneliness and incompleteness suffocating her like the scent of a cheap perfume that someone bathed themselves in, she wonders along getting lost in the world doubting herself at every turn of the corner she takes , she sighs her soul ripped apart ... saying to herself will she ever find Him , her Master in time or will she just be lost for all eternity.