Fail

~
missing you is as easy as breathing
sometimes i hold my breath
just to forget

~
i think of all the things that have
happened in my life

of all the things
ive had to over come
and
all the things ive had
to do without

the one thing that i can always count on
count on to be true

the one constant
i can be sure of
is

myself
~

yet that doesnt mean i do not miss you
because i was born to
created out of
forged from
missing
you

kannilunch:wa
Duuda

~The Window In~

if You had to leave
id wait

theres a window that shows me the street and down the road
id watch for You

wistfully

if You asked me to wait
id never leave

theres a door that opens in and waits to welcome you
id give you the key

eagerly

if You wanted a home
it would be waiting here for You

patiently

Where have my Warriors gone?
In black october
so empty~

They left me weeping
and bereft
in black october
so empty~

Wouldnt i give up an eternity
to fill the void
so empty
in black october
black october
so empty~

can someone please explain to me...
how it is...
how can it be...
how does it work ...

how can...
 a reasonably intelligent
presumably competent
educated
experienced
licensed
master degreed individual
...
be
this stupid.

i should have spent my college tuition on something worthwhile
like jack daniels
merit menthols
and condoms

~

10 /21/ 06

i'm all about muffin dissection
and the study of the very rare and elusive
sequoah
be ware
and
be afraid
~
a wise woman once said:
if a guy chooses the hottub over you
then that guy is in some seriously
HOT water
bwahahaha
~
i am never bored
only boring people are bored

~

 sometimes late at night
when the sheets tangle between my thighs
and  pillow offers no solace
and wicked wicked thoughts cascade through my mind
when being alone
echos and reverberates
i
ache