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im 31 years old and ive been bisexual the majority of my life, however the only people that kno where little flings in towns far away =)
my first sexual was when i was 5 years old,i was molested by the boy downstairs, it happened multiple times with both males and females, young and old, it really didnt matter it just seemed like i was a toy to them...
now why i am here, im here because i am ridiculously sexually oppressed, i havent had a girl friend in atleast 6 years, and my guy-friends always tend to just come n go, but its ok =)
so what am i looking for in one word "adventure" i wanna do something thats not ordinary,not bland, Not Vanilla! although i look until you dress me up!!
i am submisive bottom by nature, but i was hoping to find a "Master" who is looking for an "Apprentice" because i would someday like to put myself before others, but that day isnt coming any time soon ;)
i live alone dont have many friends or family to speak of, so im perfect for a live in sub or something of the sort, but let me make this clear im noyt lookimg for a place to stay, moving in is a huge step, basically at that point in order to be good for you i would have to totally give up my free will and individuality.
not that i wouldnt do that for someone, but i definately am not about to move in with the first control freak that e-mails me!!
so drop me a message if i seem intresting to you, or possiblely a potential sub/apprentice,
or if you just need a plaything...
im totally new to this seen, talked to few dommes (both male & female) i only met one in person, he knos who he is ;) by the way if he stumbles across this profile atleast i can say that it was the single best experience of my life, however it was so intense i just cant bring myself back to him, even though i seceretly want too!
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as of right now, i am not actively looking for anyone, i have met a woman that i would like to see more of, and right now i am focusing on her, hopefully she'll be the one.....
but if shes not, im sure i'll be back... |
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just to be clear, i havent pledged myself to anyone imparticular yet, and i dont plan to any time in the immeadiate future.
i do want to experiment with a few different experiences and with both men and woman, then once i know what is actually out there and what i want for myself, then i will choose a person to commit to.
i really dont want to mislead anyone so after i meet with someone i will always put my experiences and true intentions here in this journal |
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well, this is my first journal entry.
I am completely new to these types of experiences and i have met with a man from here who dressed me in womans clothing, we had some very sensual makeout sessions that were punctuated with a few moments of pain, the entire experience made me feel helpless but at the same time willing to do what ever i was told.
he first talked to me about my desires, then we went into his bedroom where he had me try on different lingere until he found some that fit me and my personality, he decided on a pair of very sexy black satin panties and some stockings with leater bands at the top, and at first he had me wear a pair of high heeled sandle type shoes, but then he had me change into a sexier pair of stockings, black with beatiful roses on them, and a pair of black high heels.
he also had me in bondage cuffs and bound to a large black "X" on his wall, he spanked me, put on a rubber glove and began to fingure my ass insanely, until he finally stopped when i began to bleed just the slightest bit, he then spanked me some more, and spun me around, he then atached a breast pump to left breast but couldnt quite get the right one to suck, prior to the pump he had been teasing my nipples for atleast a half hour.
he then pulled me down off the "X", and had me wear a pinkish red dress, he also gave me some false breasts and a red wig.
for the first time in my life i truly felt as if i was becoming what i had always been ment to be, i felt as if i was born to be a mans little sissy, he repeadetely told me what he wanted me to be, and it turned me on, he also taught me about my clit and he had total controll over me from the moment i walked in to the moment i had left.
i intend to see him atleast once a week, i am very optimistic about my introduction into this life and i am very excited about the man i have met, now to see what happens next week..., and oh yea, my nipples are really sore!! |
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